some interesting points in relation my dogs, one point, is the point of dirt, and being dirty, meaning - i find it so cool and interesting participating with animals, and seeing how they are always so completely comfortable with being on the floor, constantly unafraid to touch the dirt of the earth. because my dogs for example, are always smelling something, placing there noses in places that have alot of dirt, areas percieved to be unclean by the common human definition. Its interesting that we humans have a tendency to fear touching the earth that we walk on, that we came from, while the animal kingdom walks completely equal within and as the physical, unafraid in all moments to interact and express themselves through the physical senses purely.
Then we humans have a tendency to trust chemicals, and things that are considered strelized and "anti bacterial", that is how we are defining the word clean currently, that it apparently must have alot of chemicals put onto it, to slaughter all the bacteria life, then it will be apparently "clean" and trustworthy to touch. Witihin this point the deception is clear, i mean for instance in a common sense equation - if i was to accidently swallow a commonly considered trustworthy cleaning product such as bleach, or deodorant, or shampoo, or an anti bacterial spray, then i would almost certainly have some major physically debilitating consequences because of some of the harmful man made chemicals that go into its design, i could possibly even die from the effects. But if i swallow a mouthful of dirt (aslong as there is no harmful man made chemicals in it) then there will be no major physical effects on my physical body, i mean its clear to see that animals rarely get physical diseases and viruses, and when they do it is often from human factors of abuse from examples like the bp oil spill.
We humans fear walking equal as the dirt of this earth, we fear the animal for not fearing the dirt as we do. we percieve that we are somehow divine and more important then animals, when animals are just eating, drinking, pissing, shitting, breathing beings like we are, equal as us, just as plants are, or any particle of life in existance. So before i started walking this process of self realization and self corrective application, it would be everytime i used to stroke my dogs for a long period of time i would immediately wash my hands out of fear of being dirty or of getting a disease from them. I applied myself on this point earlier on in my process, and due to continous application as and when the thought came up, it hardly ever even comes up now. Even when my dogs are licking my hand or face continously, i just allow them to do it for as long as they want now, without giving in to any fears and judgements about it. so im assisting myself and the dogs now by participating with them fully by allowing myself and my dogs to express ourselves unconditionally. i mean obvoiusly if they rolled in some dog shit, or some kind of human chemical, and i get it on my hand, then i will wash my hands, but it is only as and when is practical now, not everytime i get dirt on me or the dogs lick me. i have seen the starting point for this fear of dirt, i remember it being when my grandad told me when i was about 8 that everytime i get dirty or touch animals that i should wash my hands immediately, before this point i was never concerned by dirt. And he was a scientist, so i accepted that fear as a fact, because even at that age i knew that scientists are percieved in society as knowing more then other people.
Animals have also assisted me in the past in directing myself effectively on the point of being touched by a stranger, or even people in general, i mean before i started process, i would react to most people, if they were a friend or a stranger that tried to touch me without my permission, even if it was a hug. i would immediately think about getting them off me. But now since i have applied continous self forgiveness on the point, i enjoy touching and being touched by people weather they are a stranger or not, i do not fear it, and atleast 3 times a day i lay down on the floor or the sofa with my dogs and i play with them, and give them an extensive stroking, and in return i get an extensive licking
Also i used to get conscious about getting hairy after playing with them, like if i wanted to go out after playing with them, i would try and get most of the hairs off me, from fear of looking like a dog, and from fear of not looking like the picture perfect presentation of a possible partner to females. I used to have alot of egoistic ideas in relation to clothes being used to attempt to manipulate possbile sexual encounters, by wearing expensive clothes and jewelry, basically wearing clothes in certain ways to attempt to get certain reactions out of people - dishonesty. But now again since i have applied myself effectively on the point i dont care weather hair is on my clothes or not, i use clothes now purely from a practical starting point of what is best for my body to function to its maximum capacity in day to day living, for the lowest cost. So for the past 5 months all of my clothes have come from charity shops, not for any "charity" point, but purely because it is cheap to buy clothes there, and again supports me to push the point of fear of dirt by wearing clothes that people have worn before me. Also i dont wear jewelry anymore, even though jewelry is not the point, it is who i am within wearing the jewelry and what i am allowing myself to wear the jewelry for, you either wear something from a self honest starting point or from a dishonest starting point.
Also currently my dogs are supporting me in facing and correcting a point i noticed recently of fearing my bodys natural scent, of attempting to get rid of it as soon as i can smell myself especially in relation to my job, and also being around females, which is indicating to me that i fear a part of myself, and i fear judgement from others, even if they havent told me i smell, i make that assumption from my own fear. i have been allowing the whole polarity point to exist, by perceiving deodorants to be simplistically "good" and my bodys smell of sweat to be "bad" or something to hide. I mean animals do not care about how they smell, and they are being slaughtered by the millions daily to continue vivisections and animal testing to make the apparent "trustworthy cleaning products" that we humans allow. All for profit, and from wanting to change what is here to match our own conflicting self interested idea of humans as being something that knows better, and that we must match what is perceived in society as "smelling good" which we only associate with man made chemicals, but never the natural scent of the beast. Fascinating. So sometimes i want to wear deodorants before i go to work, because i fear that a customer will not buy a product from me because I dont smell like perfume and have a minty fresh breathe lol, which is clearly a justification as to why i dont have to correct the point, and i mean as long as i am washing myself daily then my body odour will not be an issue in relation to work at all, as my bodies odour can only be smelled by others after 3 days of not washing, 2 days after strenous physical exercise, this was a test i did which my mother which i verified to be true
so no justification can be accepted, and at the end of the day it is about who i am within my job, so how i smell is not relevant, and therefore dedorants are unacceptable.
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