Judgements of Parents and Family

So judgements towards parents and family is something we all have, whether we are born in to poverty or luxury, whether we have a large family or a small family, there was a male and a female that came together had sex and we were born as a result, then during the process of growing up parents started judging their children more and more because the child is not doing exactly what the parent wants. And then the children started judging their parents more and more, because kids notice that the parents are demanding perfection, but are not actually living it, not actually giving the child the reference point of perfection.

It’s fascinating to look at judgements towards our parents and family, we all have and still do have many reactions that come up. I mean these are the people we are around for sometimes very long periods of our lives, some people for their whole life, so obviously we are going to have the most extensive backchat, emotions and feelings towards family members of any people that we know.

 It’s something I am experiencing currently towards my mother, and my sons mother where I’m reacting in an attack defensive position as the mind when either my mother or my sons mother  attempts to have an argument with me, or attempts to attack me in some way. 

I notice that my mother gets pretty emotional quickly when im doing something that she doesn’t like, which usually related to how long I take to get to a task she wants me to do now. And it’s fascinating because I have noticed that occasionally I will do the same to my mum, when she is being dishonest, or to my son, where I will start judging him and particularly his mother if he is doing something dishonest, something I see as abusive and unacceptable.

For instance about a week ago I had my son with me for a week, and at one point he started praying before eating, because his mother is taking him to church a lot, and as soon as I saw him do this I reacted emotionally in an instant, as if I had been personally offended. 

I started to raise my voice, and I went off on 20 minute energetic rant exposing religion, but I was really exposing myself within this situation as well. Because although what I was telling my son was common sense equations explaining how religion is not real, I was also judging him and particularly his mother as something bad in my mind.

I try to avoid having much religious discussion with my son’s mother, because when I try to engage in that, she loses focus on the discussion easily, and obviously just ends up getting defensive, so I instead try and implant a few seeds now and then so to speak. I mean she agrees with me that god is the nastiest character in the bible, yet she still feels it necessary to pray to the god of the bible.

But it’s interesting because it’s almost like at the subconscious and unconscious level I actually want her or my son to say something religious to me, just so I can start judging them in an emotional rant, but consciously I will say that I don’t want to argue or judge, which is dishonesty.

This is not acceptable to judge anything as “bad” or “wrong”, it is simply real or not real, supportive or abusive. Just because someone close to me is not seeing things and doing things the way I would, that does not give me the right to start attacking that person and then validating the attack in my mind because they are my family.   

I mean families really are breeding grounds for demons in this world, nobody can hide from this, we are taught and believe that family is where the “heart is” when in fact it is the nastiest shit that comes out in families. 

Families operate like gangs, supporting each other’s mind possessions, and attacking those outside of the gang. I mean we have all condoned abuse in some way within ourselves and towards our families at some point, then saying its ok because we “love our family”, we are attacking this family member out of our apparent “love” for them, when really that’s just a fucked up excuse, and we are not really loving this family member, as the actuality of unconditional love, we are just abusing ourselves and others. 

So I must take self-responsibility to redesign myself in relation to family into something that is best for all, where no judgements towards other family members can exist, only support of the physical here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my mother, to judge my son, to judge my sons mother as something bad whenever they are doing something abusive in nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my judgemental attack towards family members, not realising that within this judgemental attack where I’m seeing the being as “bad” I’m actually just abusing this person in my mind which is completely unacceptable.  

I forgive myself that I have not realised that by judging my family members, I am actually judging myself, actually allowing this judgment, thus abusing everyone within the situation as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to “win” any discussion in relation to a point of disagreement with family members, trying to compete and “prove” that equality is the solution for mankind, when that is not something I can force someone to see whether they are family or not, that is a point of self-realization only.

I forgive myself that I while I have realised, I have not lived the actuality of supporting others as myself in relation to family, because I’m still trying to be some kind of alpha male figure around family who always has the last word, which is ego.

I forgive myself that I have not realised that when I show I can be easily affected by family members, that I am actually supporting the family member to remain limited within and as pre-programming, and to not research and live equality themselves because they see that I am not living it in all moments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get annoyed and to judge my mother when she starts attacking me, which actually just feeds energy into her attack, which in turn programs the future to ensure it happens again in a time loop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my sons mother for my annoyance towards her teaching my son to believe in religion, which is just abdicating my self-responsibility as a point of ego, when in fact I cannot change someone else to how I would like them to be, this world does not work that way, I can only support the being as myself through living as an example of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually desire  my family members to disagree with me sub-consciously and unconsciously so that I can engage in an energetic discussion, while consciously believing I don’t want to fight, but in self honesty I know what I’m doing. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as weak whenever I allow myself to get affected by a family member. I realise and understand that this weakness is only existing in my mind and thus not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enter a discussion from a starting point of energy, trying to prove something, judging others, which will always result in a forceful release of this energy through arguing. 

 I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to simply stop, breathe and walk away from the situation when a conversation with a family member is getting abusive, instead of engaging the family member in an egotistical mind war.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and convince, and change other family members perspective so they can understand equality and start living equality, when that actually is in direct opposition to equality, because equality is self-realized, it is not enforced upon by another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify trying to win discussions and arguments with family members because of knowing that equality has no flaws to it, so I will always have all the tools necessary to win the discussion.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that me ranting and raving within and as a judgemental mind possessed state trying to prove something is not doing what’s best for all, it is abuse, and I should instead stop before I open my mouth look at what my starting point is within opening my mouth, if it is not clear I should not speak, I should just focus on breathing, diffusing the energetic build up and then speak when I am clear.

I forgive myself that I have not lived what is best for all in relation to my family in every moment, so that I support each family member as myself in the most effective way possible to actually change and live what’s best for all so that the family can be redesigned into something that’s best for all, which cannot happen through my force, it can only happen through self-realization.  

I commit myself to redesigning myself, correcting my starting point in relation to family members, mapping out all reactions, investigating the route cause in my mind, forgiving myself,  flagging myself, re-scripting myself within and as breathe taking self-corrective application until here no further. I realise and understand that families must be recreated to become a place of physical support with me as the starting point. I’m not willing to accept less than self –honesty as myself; I’m not willing to allow the abuse in this world as myself to continue. I commit myself to living what is best for all in every way.    

The Delusional Desteni hater

So there are many haters of equality, those that want to cause harm to the Desteni group and I have existed as this personality in the past before I started walking a process of self-realization and self-correction. 

Whenever someone comes to Desteni and does not read all the material openly with no opinionated clouded perspectives, does not test the tools out for themselves - then inevitably that person will start creating all kinds of judgements based in fear, and will be a Desteni hater like I was. 

It’s the point of free choice, the belief that we have the right to pick and choose what we want to believe and how we want to exist, which of course allows for us humans to be able to get away with abuse, where we can cover over our abuses, by saying that we are exercising our free choice which makes us “more free”, “uncontrolled” and thus an apparent “better person”, when in fact we are just showing how delusional and fucked we are.

So as a Desteni hater I would say that the Desteni group is trying to brainwash me, I don’t want to be in a cult - unaware at that stage of course that everyone is in a cult. They are trying to take away my “freedom” as a perceived choice to believe what I want to believe – so it must be evil, because my ability to choose is good lol. I can laugh now, but back then it was such a serious point for me, I was so unaware of what I was accepting and allowing to exist within and as me, where I would blame the group why I am experiencing such reactions of fear, to the message of equality.

And this supposed freedom as a “free choice”, was it actually real? From my perspective and experience as someone that once was a Desteni hater it is not real in anyway whatsoever, because it is dependent on our own individual opinion and is thus based in our fears, our self-interested ego, our programming.

Within opinion we disregard fact, so we can create our own internal reality that provides us with energy, which is separate from actual physical reality, So by existing within and as our internal opinionated realities it is impossible to do what’s best for all. I could see the undeniable facts of what was being presented by Desteni, but I didn’t want to listen, because all my opinions that created energy, everything I existed as, all of a sudden became invalid, and I immediately experienced massive fear, because I knew that equality would mean I have to let go of all my various ideas of myself and actually live real change. 

So anyone that attacks Desteni in anyway is basically saying they fear real change that’s best for all, and through attacking Desteni are actually only showing their own inner conflict, that they are attacking themselves in an internal storm and require to take immediate self-responsibility.  

As a Desteni hater, I simply believed that I can create my “own answer” that is best for me, that which sounds most appealing according to my programming. Which is what all humans do, so essentially anyone that does not live equality and oneness as themselves in every moment of breath is a desteni hater in a way, whether they are consciously aware of it or not.

I mean we have no actual ownership of anything, that only exists in our minds, we are all running around in a mind possessed state as the mind consciousness system we consist and exist as, believing we own things, basing everything we do on our own idea of “right and wrong” “good and bad” “positive and negative”. 

So a lot can be said about Desteni haters, but the bottom line is that a Desteni hater is essentially anyone that will do anything to resist and attack those that stand up for life. Desteni haters are actually a point that is needed in general currently to test the validity and resolve of those that come to Desteni, to see if people will be self-honest and take this process seriously. 

So the norm currently is that majority of people are Desteni haters, but In an equal money system it will be the other way around where the minority will be Desteni haters, because the majority will remember the group that first stood up for life, the group that first brought forth the message of an equal money system forward in a positive way. And then eventually everyone will see how effective the work of the Desteni group was, and there will be no more haters of life existing then, because all will be committed to creating heaven on earth as self.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a desteni hater in the past, which all happened due to not reading material effectively, reacting to certain statements, valuing my opinion as ego, and then creating all kinds of judgments based in my fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow my fears to dictate how I view information, which is a very dangerous dishonest starting point, because within accepting this fear to dictate decisions, I then miss taking on board information that is actually supportive to become a better human as the desteni message is. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to look at information from a clear unconditional starting point standing equal to the words, where I can actually see what is being presented clearly, instead of trying to get something out of the information, making ideas in my head before, during and after reading the information from a conditional mind possessed starting point.

I forgive myself that I did not accept and allow myself to read the material more thoroughly, and to test out the desteni tools unconditionally as soon as I came across the group.

I forgive myself that when I first came across desteni material, I accepted and allowed myself to read desteni information with my “free choice” as the starting point of what I will listen to and what I will disregard, wherein I am only actually taking in half of what I’m reading. 

I forgive myself that I did not realise in the moment that my free choice to take in some information, and purposely look to pick and judge was where the choice to abuse the group came from, where all I was doing was abusing myself as a constant state of inner turmoil.

  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that by exercising my free choice it makes me a “better person” a somehow “less brainwashed” human, when in fact it does not make me “less brainwashed” it makes me a more fucked up human, because it is within free choice where I allow myself to abuse others.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise in all moments that real change that’s best for all never involves “free choice”, but is simply a decision to do what is beneficial for all life.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my free choice is real and is my right as a “free person” when in fact this free choice is not real at all, because it is only existing in my mind according to my programming, and because I had money to support my ability to pick and choose what I want to exist. Take away my money and I have no choice about anything, I will just go with whatever is happening around me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can cover over my abuses through using an apparent free choice which is not even real because it based on my own individual programming and my ability to have money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from physical reality as who I really am through utilising an imaginary free choice in everything I do which allows me to choose and get away with abuse while painting it up as something positive. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that anything that threatens my free choice must be evil or negative in some way, when this belief is not real in anyway whatsoever, because it is within using an apparent “free choice” where humans do evil things to each other, the right to choose to do it. Within doing what’s best for all there is no picking and choosing, there is just best for all or not best for all, self-honesty or dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can be brainwashed by others, that it is another person’s fault why I would become brainwashed, when in fact it never is, it is always ourselves that allow something to brainwash us.

I forgive myself that I did not realise when I first came across desteni that to claim they can brainwash me, is to actually say I have no self-responsibility, that I can be brainwashed by anything and anyone at any time.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear being labelled as being in a cult, completely unaware at that stage that every human in this reality is in a cult of some kind, so it’s best to stand within and as a cult that actually stands for life, just common sense best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being under the control of a cult and a cult leader, believing at that stage in my life that desteni has a leader, when in actual fact desteni has no individual leaders that have more value than others in the group, because within desteni all are equal as leaders.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others in the past why I was having a particular experience within and as myself, which was just me standing as a point of ego, looking for someone else to take responsibility for my reactions, instead of realising in self-honesty that all reactions always originate from self.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in the past as a desteni hater that by placing my opinion in front of fact in everything that I did then, I was simply separating myself from actual physical reality here which is who I really am but could not see at that stage.

I forgive myself that I used to fear my opinions being taken away, because I was not fully committed to change that’s best for all back then. I have found whenever I am trying to validate and defend my opinions it is only because I fear losing the opinion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear real change in the past, to fear walking a process of self-realization and self-honesty which is best for all.

 I forgive myself that I did not realise in the moment, that by attacking the desteni group in the past I was actually only displaying me attacking me, showing the inner conflict I was allowing to happen through my reaction to the desteni material. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have my “own answer” of what sounds appealing to support to me, when in fact no human in this world actually owns anything, it is just in our minds where we own something.

 I forgive myself that I have not realised in every moment that anyone that perpetuates this system of capitalism without researching, and implementing a solution that’s best for all as equality and oneness in every moment is essentially a desteni hater whether the person is consciously aware of it or not.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every moment that desteni haters actually are a massive point of support for me and anyone at desteni, as a reference point of whether or not we are really changing to what’s best for all, to see if we are actually taking this process seriously.

I commit myself to exposing all abusers in this reality, to never again attack those that stand for what’s best for all, and removing them from my world and my reality, because I am not willing to accept a world where people can abuse each other. I simply want to live in a world where no more abuse is seen, a world where each participant focuses on embodying what’s best for all in every moment.

Suffering is a part of our "Divine Learning"? So how much do starving people learn?

So this is something that we humans have believed and many continue to believe which is that all the abuse that exists in this world is justified because it is apparently a part of a “learning experience”. 

I used to believe this idea myself, when I was involved in some spirituality shit back in the day, I really did think that all the abuse here on earth was just a test to see if I can “find the light” in amongst the horrors existing here. So as long as I found the light I really didn’t give a fuck about anyone else. I figured they would just need to catch up with me at some point.

So it is particularly religious people in this world believe this idea extensively, that the suffering on earth is a “divine plan” sent from god to teach us the value of life, and as a test of our faith, and so that we can learn how to be better humans by first allowing suffering to exist. 

But what I do not understand is why the suffering has to exist in the first place? Can we not just learn the value of life and become better humans without having to let so much abuse exist. Also by letting the abuse exist justifying it as a part of our “learning” are we really becoming better humans? From my perspective no we are not, we are simply becoming nastier, self-interested, and spiteful fucking beings. 

Because I know for a fact that when I put myself in the shoes of a starving person, or in the shoes of anyone that is being abused, I know that I am really not learning anything, I am simply suffering and require urgent physical support.  

The only thing I could learn from suffering so much as a starving person does is that - we humans don’t care, I’m desperate for food and nobody cares. Can anybody hear me? God help me please. Can he even hear me? I want to get out of this, I wish someone could hear my cries and help me in some way, I don’t want to be living like this, im not enjoying this, everythings uncomfortable, it might be better if I just die, because then hopefully this pain I’m experiencing will be gone.

   

So what kind of learning is that? Seriously that is not learning, that is just unacceptable abuse. I mean let’s look in Self Honesty here all the abuse that exists in this world is an outflow of a money system we have accepted and allowed to be created and perpetuated as ourselves. It has nothing to do with some divine plan from a made up character in our heads.

In actual fact the people that have the most knowledge and privileged living in this world are those that have not suffered for a single day because they had money to support them to have a life of dignity and luxury – because in my experience, its common sense that real learning, and real change is only possible when have support systems around us that enable us to comfortably provide our basics, thus if we can’t provide our basics then we cannot effectively learn or change.

So in an equal money system everyone will be able to focus on real learning and development because everyone will be living a life of dignity and luxury with no exceptions. So to stand in opposition of an equal money system is simply to say that you condone abuse to continue, and that you want to live in a world where no real learning or change that’s best for all  can take place for everybody. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that abuse that exists here on earth is a part of a divine plan of some sorts from god/white light, when in fact that is just programming and is a justification for abuse to exist here.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be self-honest about the root of suffering in this world, which has nothing to do with an pre-programmed idea of a divine plan of  god/white light, but is only existing because of a money system I accept and allow which creates a consequence of many people suffering. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in separation of myself as blame, as ego and an idea of myself by believing that abuse on earth is someone else’s fault to correct, is justified for humans to learn, and as long as I can be superior above this world saving myself that’s all I can do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ascension and love and light is a solution to what exists in this world, when all im doing within believing and defining myself as this is just showing that I do not understand how this reality works, that there is physical laws set in stone here which must be adhered to  - if you don’t eat you die no matter how “ascended” you feel, because the physical is all that is real, ascension is only existing in our minds.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, define and separate myself as preprograming that abuse on this planet is “just a test from god” to see if I can “find the light” in amongst this abuse.

I forgive myself that I have not realised that within this I am essentially saying that this world is not real, because I am just desiring to prepare myself to get out of here with a golden ticket to a heavenly reality after death, instead of taking self-responsibility to implement heaven on earth here as myself as this one physical reality, which is what is real in Self-Honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that those that suffer in this world are only suffering because they are not “spiritually ready” to ascend to a beautiful existence and so have to suffer, and thus will have to catch up to where I am in my “cosmic evolution”. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that distracting ourselves from physical reality with spiritual ideas, while people suffer is becoming a better more caring being, when actually I am just becoming nastier feeding into and charging this polarity based system of haves and have not’s.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that by focusing on the light in my mind I only intensify the dark that exists here such as rape, war, starvation and any abusive point. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise how capitalism works, and that every action has a consequence - to focus on ourselves, our own happiness and fun, is to ensure that someone else is not having fun.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that whatever I believe is real in my mind is more real than actual physical reality which is just self-deception, because who I really am in Self-Honesty is this physical reality which I can prove to myself in every here moment of breath.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise I all moments that in order for humanity as a whole to learn, all abuse must be removed from this reality, because it is only when we have an environment of support is it possible to implement and live real learning and change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that those that suffer in this world will be saved by god when they die as long as they follow a certain set of ritualistic patterns as praise to god/white light. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stand equal to starvation or any point of abuse where I am able to remove the abuse and install what’s best for all, instead of seeing myself as less than abuse, where I am unable to change the abuse and simply try and run away into my mind within spirituality/religion.   

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments as myself that there is no justification that exists to justify the existence of abuse. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not care in all moments what happens to this reality and those that suffer here as long as I get some magical pathway that gives me some kind of powers here on earth, and that save me when I die. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give a shit about correcting this world as myself, as long as I can be saved from the abuse here through a definition of myself within spirituality, love and light ideas.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape and hide from the abuse within this reality through pre-programmed ideas of spirituality and white light. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only focus on fuelling my self-interest as an idea of myself as spiritual, when in fact all I am doing is existing as a point of brainwashing in dishonesty, turning a blind eye to abuse while claiming divinity.  

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to place myself in the shoes of those that suffer in this reality in all moments as myself, where I am able to realise that for humanity to really learn, we must have a system that is equality in action which we must create as ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in dishonesty by claiming divinity as a point of spirituality as myself, when I am not actually living my words, actually loving my neighbour, actually giving what i would like to receive, I am simply existing within and as my pre-programmed mind completely enslaved as an abusive demonic force in this world. 

I’m not willing to accept any less then self-honesty here as myself in all moments, where I am able to see the root cause of all evil as myself, and can thus make changes to myself that are best for all. I commit myself to exist as what is best for all, living a system of equality in my world and my reality that will never again allow for any being to be harmed, and will make sure that everyone equally has an opportunity to really learn and really change.  

The Criminality of the Pre-Programmed Human – We are all Criminals

Criminal activity is worsening worldwide as this money system sucks more and more money out of people, however something that I have learnt is that crime is really not entirely understood by humans currently and Is more a point of judgment as something separate from ourselves which someone else can sort out.

I have participated in a lot of crime in my life, and once I started walking this process of self-realization and self-correction I noticed that I have been judging criminals and gangsters as something bad in my mind, which shows me that I have still have a lot of self-investogation and corrections in relation to crime.

Gangsters just simply stand equal to capitalism inside themselves and essentially just live aggressively according to the principles of capitalism which is - kill or be killed, take or be taken, care only for your own self-empowerment, shoot first and ask questions later.

I mean it’s clear that people want to judge criminals as something bad which is apparently not our responsibility to sort out, because it’s up to the criminal to stop participating in crime. But the system existing here does not support career criminals to really change in fact, so how can criminal’s stop? I mean prisons are more like training centres to hone “criminal skills” rather than actual correctional facilities as they should be. 

Now in cases like me it is definitely possible to stop participating in crime, because for me crime was just for ego and profit, not for necessity. But for many, many criminals and gangs in the world it is not actually possible to stop criminal behaviour because many will have no opportunity at all to get a job, and everyone around them and everything in their environment encourages them to continue crime. 

This money system does not give to people equally, and as a result so many people just want to go out and take what they want as a way of providing the basics and saying fuck you to the system. So gangs and criminal behaviour is simply an outflow of capitalism.  

And clearly what we humans with dignified lives miss is that while direct criminal activity is completely unacceptable, we are all responsible for perpetuating a system that allows crime to exist – thus we are all criminals. it is a crime against life to allow abuse to exist in anyway in our world and our reality. It is a crime to turn a blind eye to abuse; it is a crime to blame gangs for what they do when in fact it is a result of a money system that doesn’t care. It is a crime to just entertain ourselves within and as our pre-programmed mind at the expense of life, so it’s time to stop. 

I’m not willing to accept the crimes of myself as the abuse existing here in this reality through living in a multi-dimensional bubble in my head keeping me imprisoned and making sure that me as this world can never change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge gangs and gangsters as something separate from myself, something to judge and point fingers at, without realising that all crimes that exist are equal to me through perpetuating this system of abuse inside myself, in my participation and through perpetuating  the money system.

I forgive myself that I have not realised that by judging crime as something separate from myself denying my responsibility, I am simply standing as a point of ego and an idea of myself as a pre-programmed robot that actually perpetuates and charges criminal behaviour worldwide at the unconscious level through the judgement I allow.

I forgive myself that I have not realised that by judging crime I am only judging myself, which shows that I obviously am not clear on the point and have self-corrections to do in relation to crime.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within and as criminal activity purely for greed and energy of excitement when I never actually needed to do so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still desire to commit crime to make some “easy money” which is completely unacceptable and shows that I have corrections to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed crime to exist in my world and my reality as an act of rebellion against the system existing here as capitalism, which is actually only rebelling against myself which is an act of self-destruction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that committing crime will make me some “easy money” because it is only easy to make this money in my mind, in fact it is very difficult and incredibly dangerous for multiple reasons to directly commit crime thus is never worth the risk.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can avoid being put in prison because “I know what I’m doing” which is just limitation as ego because anyone from a poor or middle class background cannot possibly get away with committing consistent crimes, because the system is set up in a way to make sure that only the richest people in the world can consistently get away with every type of crime.

I forgive myself that I have not realised that the desire to commit crime for profit exists within and as each human, so by judging those that participate directly in crime I am only judging that which exists within myself as each human.

I forgive myself that I have not realise din every moment I see crime that my judgement of the criminal is never valid, because crime at the individual level is created by the environments the being is brought up in. I mean I would more than likely still be committing daily crimes now without question if I was living in a criminal environment, as would anyone that is surrounded by crime daily. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that something is separate from me, as if I am more than crime and thus not responsible for the criminal actions that exist in this world, which is a crime in itself.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every moment, that anytime I am turning a blind eye to reality avoiding responsibility, I am in fact accepting that crime is acceptable to exist within and as this reality as me, which is to say that abuse is acceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define criminal acts in this world as acceptable through denying them by entertaining myself as a pre-programmed system that only exist as self-interest like an energetic vampire as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself for all criminal actions one by one that I have allowed to exist in within and as this world as myself.

I forgive myself that I have defined criminal actions such as rape, war starvation as bad and wrong, when in fact it is not bad or wrong because that is making a valued judgement based in polarity that allows these abuses to continue to exist. I realise that crimes against life such as rape war and starvation are simply abuse that is not best for all and thus must be removed from existence as myself.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the government, god and aliens for the existence of criminal actions in this world, which I realise is to actually avoid responsibility for these abuses and thus make sure that these abuses continue.

I forgive myself that I have not taken into consideration every time when I see criminal activity allowed by a person that I am no better than someone because they are allowing it, they simply have not got to a point of questioning their existence and stopping participation with that which is directly abusive.  

I commit myself to ensuring that all criminal abuse that exists is removed from my world and my reality no matter what, because it is common sense best for all. The day I die I want to say I have done all I can to create a world that honours all life equally, so I am determined to live in a world where all beings are free from the enslavement of our own self-destruction, a world where heaven on earth is actually lived by each and every human on this planet where real evolution will be a tangible fact not a made up idea that we have now.