Day 219: Why does it always rain on me? The Conspiracy against me.

Have you ever spent prolonged periods of time wondering why you seem to have "bad luck" in certain undertakings? Then you begin believing that some sort of conspiracy in life is being done to you to make these undertakings "impossible" for you?

Its like this self-definition starts to build up over years through believing these concepts, where you literally think that it is raining just on you all the time, and apparently "much harder" then it does on most people, you know like that song by Travis :)

I know this because I have had this concept in my mind since I was in my teenage years, and only through what I have learnt in life, from some amazing people and my own physical experiences, have I realised that this concept is not real.

I focused on transcending this point years ago, however just recently I have noticed a few situations where my mind has begun reacting to certain events in my life, and this "why does it always rain on me concept" has started rearing its head again.

Anything that comes back up within us is a sure sign that our application on the point has not been effective, and that far more self-investigation, self -forgiveness and self-corrective application of breathing in consistent self-honesty is needed.

So to you give you some context - just recently one of my dogs has become very ill as the ravages of age catch up with him, my mother is becoming more ill, my son is being brainwashed by those i do not trust, haters popping out of the woodwork consistently, computers getting hacked, and work has been seemingly consuming 99% of my life.

I have allowed my mind to react to all of these factors, and then allow this concept that "everything is conspiring against me" to creep into my conscious thought. which of course does not support me or anyone else in living what is  best for all life.

Its like allowing yourself to be deflated by your own life, dis empowered by events within your life, literally like being personally offended by your own life, when really your life is the same as anyone elses' here, it has the same parameters as every living being.

But you will notice that the more you feed into this "everything is raining on me" concept, then the more you will limit yourself, and live inconsistencies, misalignments and failures into your life, which in your mind will apparently "validate" how unfair things are for you, because when you look for failure, and disappointment, it will always surely find you, same if you focus on positivity funnily enough - because bringing polarity friction into anything always creates messed up outcomes.

Some people say that they just have more "bad luck" then others, when in reality, "bad luck" just like "good luck" is an illusion which does not exist - created by humans to avoid taking responsibility for their own actions, because it can always be chalked off to "bad or good luck".

So within this "its always raining on me" concept you will not see that your are actually designing these things into being by defining yourself according to them, by expecting things to work against you all the time, and fearing/doubting that your efforts mean nothing because of this - you will also look for excuses and any indicator that can validate that "things really are working against you" in a "me against the world" type of stance within oneself, which is a recipe for discord and war instead of improving the world.

In my experience expectations to fail or succeed in anything are always misguided, because what we expect is irrelevant, all that really matters is we do our best, give our full attention and effort to completing what we need to in our days without any expectations of the outcome - I can only ever direct my own input, nothing more.

So in reality there is no rain cloud which apparently follows you in your life no matter how strangely "against you" things can be. I mean if you have your basics, and your ability to expand in various undertakings in life, then what conspiracy is really working against you?

There are Billions in this world that still really are having the world literally conspiring against them - these people cant even eat, have safe housing and healthcare in peace, they are our brothers and sisters that need our help in every moment.


So we must be strong and resolute, for the battles ahead in building a better world for all of us, and it starts with us on an individual level -

We are the Kings and Queens of the future, of a brave new world, so we have no time to believe and define our life as having "forces working against us" we all have failure and success in our lives everyday, highs and lows. and when we take self-responsibility in self-honesty, we will not hold onto these moments in our minds unnecessarily.

So if you have had issues with believing their is a "constant conspiracy" against your life, if you think "bad luck" just follows you, if you define your life as being "cursed" and constantly "under the rain clouds" then now you know that is not the case, because everyone has days or periods of life that seem unfair or against us, so it is never specific and exclusive to only you. So you should join me in my next bog as I continue to investigate and pull apart this problem in my journey to life.


 

Day 218: Rome wasn't built in a day part 2

So impatience seeing projects in our lives come to fruition, is something that we all have dealt with, its not a cool curse to put upon oneself, and if you have faced this issue yourself or are dealing with it now, then maybe this blog will assist you.

So lets walk -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consistently impatient about a project that benefits all life coming to fruition - I realise that this impatience does not support me in "speeding up" the process as I have believed it does in my mind, and actually goes against how physical reality works.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that making beneficial changes to anything in  physical reality is based on muscle memory, on developing this muscle through the living of the knowledge, breathe by breathe, that can only move as quickly as our individual and collective natural learning ability speed allows.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every breathe, that just like building Rome which took over 300 years - current systems take decades, centuries, aeons of time to be changed, just as new systems, new principles, civilisations and ways of living take decades, centuries, aeons of time to develop.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every here moment of breathe, that this impatience I experience is actually limiting my progression, limiting the development, literally elongating the process, because when one is trying to rush, one only ends up missing points, making mistakes, not aligning the foundation of things, and the project has to be started again and thus takes longer to be made reality through impatience and rushing. Just like an petulant child having a tantrum with an experienced and stable parent - this impatience will not get you what you want any sooner, and will in fact prolong what you want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to see these beneficial changes come to fruition so much, that this desire possess me and I obsess and will make self-interested and selfish manipulative means to try and "cut corners" to get to seeing the fruits -

I realise that this desire possession will only end up tainting the fruits of the labour, which is not acceptable, so I take self-responsibility to make sure that the desire for a better world does not consume me, does not become me, and thus will not drive my decision making - my decision making must be based on practicality and common sense, which can only be achieved through consistently breathing and interacting here in self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that because the path I walk is noble, because the projects I work on in my life are to the benefit of all life, that I must see the end results of my efforts on a global scale before I die - I realise that this belief is not based on physical reality, because as Rome shows, the original creators of that civilisation did not live to see the end results of the peak of the power of Rome.

So I must walk regardless, not thinking about seeing the end results, but simply keep moving, living the blueprint, setting the example that empowers the next generation to complete the first waves work so to speak, because the end result will come to fruition when it is ready to come to fruition, whether that is in my lifetime, my sons lifetime, or his children's lifetime I cannot control that, because as I mentioned earlier muscle memory only develops as quickly as our learning ability allows.    

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself  to expect more from myself all the time, which while this can be a motivator to keep pushing, which is important, however this can also be detrimental if the ego is expecting too much, which is anything more then what is practically achievable physiologically breathe by breathe. I must make sure that what I expect of myself moment to moment in any project, is within the laws of practicality and common sense.

I forgive myself that i accept and allow myself to exist as the ego within being impatient to see the end results of a project. I realise that this ego selfishly wants results in an instant, the same way the ego can imagine, desire or fear anything in an instant - as we have exposed over and over again, physical reality is based of building brick by brick, there is no instantaneous beneficial outcomes that can be made to anything - a beneficial outcome is always a process of common sense based decisions.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to exist as and feed into impatience within myself, so as and when I see this impatience coming up in any moment in relation to completing a project, I stop and breathe - I do not allow myself to engage this impatience, I realise that this impatience is a trap of the ego that limits me, and makes the blooming of the fruits of my labour more difficult to achieve, which is not acceptable, so I breathe and continue to breathe until there is no more impatience that exists, and the solidifying trustworthy foundation of a project in myself will be certain.

I commit myself to living the realisation that there is no shortcut cheat to creating the best outcome of anything - shortcuts create unsustainable outcomes - sustainable change only happens according to developing our muscle memory practically, step by step here.

Day 217: Rome wasn't built in a day

Someone recently was explaining to me how they are getting impatient and cannot see a new world being made anytime soon, that there isn't enough being done quickly enough to make the changes necessary to improve the world.

In some ways this perspective is true, because the changes to our economic system and how humanity lives has been a slow process already, and time is always against us.

However what I want to highlight within this blog, is that an empire, a new monolith of existence takes aeons of time to get in place, then same way in which it took aeons of time for this current system to build up as it has.

Rome for instance was simply an idea in a group of persons minds once upon a time, then through trial and error, contraction and expansion over the next 300 years - Rome became one of the largest and most advanced empires in the world at the time.

So the original visionaries of Rome did not live to see their dream become a reality - with huge societal projects, we have to understand that we may not necessarily live in this body long enough to
see it come to fruition, to see the fruits of our labour bloom - but as long as we design the path, live the blueprint through our own example, then our children, or their children will see the victorious end results of all this.

Look inside yourself and you will see that it is your worst habits, your worst fears and patterns have been built up for the most years of your life, and are the hardest to shake - because when something has taken a long time to design, it can take equally as long a time or longer to unravel this design and build a new design.

So patience is key, but sometimes we expect too much of ourselves too often, wanting the results done straight away, wanting  to see all the fruits of our labour right now. In my experience expecting too much from yourself all the time is a stressful concept, because the ego is going directly against how physical reality works - physical reality works according to developing muscle memory, throughout years of physiological expansion.

But the ego is never satisfied with waiting, the way our minds are programmed is to want everything now, in the same direct fashion that we can imagine, desire, or fear something in an instant.

We have to learn to be more gentle with ourselves, to be patient but diligent, to not be so hard on ourselves when it comes to improving ourselves and the world at large  - because in reality we can only break patterns and develop sustainable changes effectively, according to what is practical, meaning only as quickly as breathe by breathe, one day at a time, one step at a time - as much as our pre-programmed mind desires, there is no short cut cheat to get to the end result of anything.

So if you find you get impatient and frustrated often, when things don't move as quickly as you want, and if your finding you are doubting/judging yourself and humanity because of this, then I suggest you join me in my next blog as I continue to expand on this point and provide the solution of self-responsibility and self-corrective application.  

Day 216: Say hello to yourself part 2

So yes meeting yourself, meeting your clone is a proposition that will make any person react - whether you are seeing yourself within another in terms of their basic needs, patterns, skills, attitudes and character, or you are seeing a genetic copy of yourself, it is always the moments where we see ourselves that cause us to become uncomfortable.

Yet regardless of this, we have to get to a point where we do not react when we see ourselves, but rather are calm with the point, by teaching ourselves to take action through the self-corrective application of breathing to remain stable in these moments, where we can then apply common sense, learn and live effective solutions into reality.

I do not want to fight with myself, I will learn to say hello to myself in moments where I see myself, because we are just two people showing each other our self, so why would I take that personally? So we walk disintegrating the fears in the process -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to seeing my clone in a positive or negative reaction where my ego wants to adore and praise, or reject and attack the copy of myself I see before me. I realise that wherever I am in my life, whatever situations I find myself in, I am seeing my clone all the time, therefore within this knowing I can learn to create stability here, where there is neither adoration or rejection but simply acceptance, learning and solutions.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments, that when I see myself in another that causes me to react, it is exactly the same as meeting a genetic copy of myself in this moment - I am literally seeing my signature, something I desire, something I am comparing to, Something I'm annoyed i don't have, something that makes my ego happy, or something my ego fears etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is only "one of me", where I disregard the existence of any other versions of myself that I see clearly in day to day living. Because as the ego I am believing that I am so "uniquely special" in self-interest, that I don't need to see myself in anywhere or in anything, feeding into separation, without ever realising that no matter if you like it or not, your clone is still you, it still shows you yourself, because we are all living beings here sharing this breathe, this sound.

I forgive myself that in this moment at work, I have been in awe of my clone within this person who is excellent at closing business deals, where others in the office have been jealous of their clone in this person. This experience of awe that I have had towards this person, stems from knowing that this is showing clearly to people how difficult business deals can be brokered to solutions in action consistently, and how much respect I have for people who can do that clearly with no cheating.

Yet within this awe I am also not supporting myself, because I'm not actually gearing myself to learn some of those attributes of this person, but rater put them on a pedestal denoting a "special power" to this person in my mind which is not real -

So I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be in awe of this new clone I have seen within this person recently, I realise that while my ego has been adoring their precision, in reality I know that this level of effectiveness in any undertaking can be achieved by any being that is taken through an educative process to do so, and we all work at various speeds to learn various things, and any comparisons, adoration or disdain towards our self in any person only indicates i am not comfortable with myself, and this will hamper learning, so I take self-responsibility to not allow these problems to re-manifest, I hope you will too.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my clone for the reactions I experience when I see them in the moment - I realise that this blame is simply my ego trying to defend itself, when in reality I am always responsible for how, when, what, where, why I react in any moment, so blame is never valid.

I commit myself to living the realisation that no matter where I find myself in life, I exist within everyone as this one breathe, and this one sound, this one movement. I am a cell, interacting with all the other cells of a larger body called existence. So as and when i see my mind reacting to someone or something where I am seeing my clone, I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to participate with the charged thoughts that come up, I must walk and continue to walk until these reactions, in these various situations where we all meet our clones do not come up.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to fight myself, but to instead say hello to myself, as and when i see myself reacting to my clone, this I will do through forgiving myself in these moments, sticking to breathing, where I then apply common sense to be able to accept and learn when i see myself, instead of reacting. So as I continue this process of continually forgiving my reactions to all the clones in my life, and sticking to breathe consistently, then eventually there will be no more reactions that come up.

So it's time to get used to opening our eyes and seeing that our copies are within everyone all the time, we are all one copied code as living beings. So no matter what kind of clone of ourselves we are seeing in the world, we are learning here how to remain cool, to not lose our shit when we see our self, but rather take self-responsibility to learn and expand ourselves as one body.

Like many topics, we will revisit this topic again in the future, but for now, I hope you found this supportive and thanks for reading.