Day 402: Who's side are you on?

As humans currently exist, we enjoy creating and taking sides in everything that we do, this endless playing out of patterns of polarity friction as good and evil in our mind plays out projecting onto physical reality.

The is only one team of humanity here, yet in the world right now you see more "teams within teams"  then ever before as we look for "heroes" to follow and "villains" to blame.

What has become clear to me during this lock down more then ever before, is that TechnoTutor and Desteni really are humanities last chance for real freedom for all life. Why do I say this? It is because the system of capitalism, this system of polarity within and without is so dominant, such a leviathan, so much considered to be the only standard by which we can apparently live.

This lock down has really shown the perfection of the matrix, how much we humans really will just accept being told what to do by the system that's here - we give our permission to the pattern of abuse to have authority, rather then standing equal to the pattern and directing ourselves as beings of true authority free from doubt, living whats best for all life.

We love to paint ourselves as victims, as helpless, as too small to make a difference, we belief that individuality/isolation is a strength to us, we want the safe rather then the risk - the points of separation you can highlight in this world are considerable, now more then ever.

I have seen within my mind how I have been reacting, blaming, competing with and judging others around the point of wearing masks vs not wearing masks. We must be careful what president we are setting with our views around masks, careful that the ego is not creeping in and tainting our starting point.

Its a really tricky point, because I am 100% certain from understanding the size/design of viruses, from growing up with a Scientist, and from years of training in various martial arts gyms - that surgical masks, training masks etc do not protect from viruses or boost athletic performance in anyway.

Surgical masks where never designed for any form of virus protection as any effective Scientist will tell you airborne viruses are far too small for any protection to occur to via surgical masks. Bacteria in liquid droplets is not how Coronavirus infects people because it is airborne, even with a special forces grade bio weapon gas mask, do not believe for a second that you are "protected" from the transmission of a virus.

Then in the world of athletics, there has long been a misconception around using training masks, where it was believed by some athletes as being a benefit to prohibit breathing during training, as a means to try and replicate high altitude training.

Now high altitude training on a huge mountain really will expand the lung capacity to breathe and increase stamina, but trying to replicate that process by using training masks actually has no training benefits. In fact the opposite is true, training masks are known to cause hyperventilation, choking yourself on carbon dioxide, which reduces lung capacity, which then can nausea, feinting, high blood pressure, cardiac issues and generally reducing the immune system which exposes the body to more ailments.

Now knowing all this and trusting my own bravery to not agree if something does not make sense - its obvious my perspective on whether or not you should wear a mask.

But within this all I have seen how my mind has been trying to fuck me in separation, creating sides around the masks. Whenever I see someone driving their car while wearing a mask, or walking down the beach wearing a mask, or when I walk into a big crowd of people anywhere and they are all wearing masks my mind has been reacting.

Thoughts coming up like "what the fuck is wrong with you?" "your outside and you still are gona wear a mask?" "why are you prohibiting your breathing?" "Do you just love being slaves?" "Why are you all scared of whats here?" "I will never wear a mask" etc etc.

What I have been realizing though is that the ego is patient, it subtly convinces us that we are the good guy, that making sides is acceptable. However, when we are self-honest bringing everything back to self, then the self-deception one is allowing becomes clear and we can adjust our starting point to be whats best for all life.

These statements assist me as they may do you if you are facing this point -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react as judgments, comparisons, blames and frustrations when I see people wearing masks in certain scenarios, instead of placing myself in the shoes of the mask wearer, where I can actually understand clearly without reaction why a person is wearing a mask.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create sides in my mind as polarity where I define mask wearers as negative and being without a mask is positive, without realising that this separation of self when allowed, results in a world around me of increasing separation among humans which is unacceptable. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to psychologically turn on my fellow man into spiteful thoughts, all because of my own reactions to a persons mask.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that while mask wearing all day everyday is not supportive for the body, neither is reacting to the masks of others all the time. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every here breath that while the idea of myself could not imagine wearing a mask, I see that this idea is not real because it is based in separation of myself from those who wear masks.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that creating sides in anything is a continuation of the warlike nature of man which has to be ended so that heaven on earth can be manifested.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when the starting point of a human is survival then specific "sides" will always be formulated and adhered to in order to"win the war" so the key is to change the starting point of me from survival to life support, where there is no war.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that whenever I accept separation I am saying that I accept humanity as it is currently, that we should just keep turning on each other instead of making solutions together.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that whether a person wears a mask or not, we are all equally brothers and sisters as life and thus must work together to build a system where all life is supported to release fear as opposed to being judged for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that because it is a mathematical certainty that TechnoTutor and Desteni must continue to succeed and grow in order for humanity to reach its true potential, that while this true, to then use this to define people who are not in Desteni or TechnoTutor as "the enemy of life" that would "obviously wear a mask" supporting the system is unacceptable limitation of my being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define people who are not in Desteni or TechnoTutor as automatically being the "enemy of life" when there is only enemies that exist in the ego, when I forgive myself, when I stand here as this breath of life - there is no enemies that exist. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every moment that I am not here to fight with whats here, I am here to stand equal to whats here and direct it as me as each person as the one group as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself to believe that I have "nothing in common" with someone who would wear a mask all the time - without realising that this is just ego, which always focuses on the differences between people, where as when I stand as this breath in self-honesty, I am able to direct myself to focus on the similarities and mutual ground I have with others. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when a person is afraid to take a mask off, it could just be fear of death the person could be dealing with and while I have for years been stable about the point of death - when I am honest with myself I have feared death many times before in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when I am honest with myself I see how there are moments in life where I have tried to protect myself from things in the world, in exactly the same way many mask wearers do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that many people who wear masks are not doing so because they want to, but purely out of fear of losing money, of being accused of being an abuser by others, which again we have all feared these points before when we look self-honestly at the timeline of our life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise when I'm going into separation in my mind around masks, about "how obvious" it is that they have no benefit - that there was a day that I didn't know what I know now, so why would I react to someone that doesn't know what I do?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others for believing they are a hero for wearing their masks, when equally I experience myself in my mind as a hero for not wearing a mask, when neither is true in physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that defining myself in my mind as a "non mask wearer" is accepting my continual judgement towards those my mind defines as "mask wearers".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as brave for not wearing a mask, when on the surface this is true, yet I realise that real bravery would certainly not be justifying the separation of myself in any form by reacting as blame to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people for not being self-responsible by blindly accepting fear, without realising that whenever I am accepting this process of separation in my mind, then it is me that is also not being self-responsible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that as a self-directive being not willing to allow fear to direct my decision making for a lifetime, that I must always be clear that becoming a self-directive person is a process, so planting seeds is keep so that eventually everyone we come across in life has the potential to become self-directive. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that by separating ourselves from each other, we lack mutual grounds and context of each other as ourselves as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for why freedoms are getting smaller in the world, when really I blame myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for things to project blame on other people, so that I do not have to face my own self-sabotage of blame.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be self-honest whenever I go into blame, because I am saying that some humans are more responsible for whats here then others, when in reality we are all equally responsible for the world as it exists and thus must live as such.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when I blame I cannot see everyone's value as life force which is unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise anytime I am going into sides in my mind, I am not being self-honest, I am not here breathing and therefore cannot apply common sense to walk what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be annoyed that many people accept limitation for all life with a smile on their face, yet when I bring it back to self, that is because secretly my mind desires the careless zombie like existence of the majority in some respects, because it is easy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have an easy life of zombie system compliance where there is no pain but just self-interest, entertainment and letting things outside of myself make decisions for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that what is best for all is best for all, so there is no excuses that are valid to not face myself and live whats best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that because non mask wearers are defined by many as reckless, to then believe in my mind that this "fits me perfectly" because of defining myself as reckless at times through my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself throughout my life growing up as wild and reckless and therefore embracing anything others define as reckless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that "I'm right" to judge mask wearers because Science is on my side, as if Scientific knowledge or any knowledge in this world would be a valid reason to accept separation when it never is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise the logical manipulation of myself where I use my knowledge of viruses, athletics and the respiratory system of the body as a justification to define myself as a "non mask wearer" and judge "mask wearers" as stupid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will "never wear a mask" when in reality this is self-dishonesty, because I know that while I will not wear the mask in most situations, if a conflict/difficulty will erupt as a result of me not wearing a mask in some potential scenarios, then it will be best for all in that situation to wear a mask for a minute. 

I commit myself to not allowing myself to create and fuel sides in my mind around mask wearing - so as and when I see my mind reacting to someone wearing a  mask, I stop and breath, I know the energy and pattern my mind is trying to conjure, so I breathe and continue to do so until there is no more thoughts that come up and I am completely stable around someone wearing a mask.

I commit myself to exposing the pointlessness of creating sides around masks, or sides around anything, because in self-honesty there is only one family as life.

I commit myself to living solutions to fear that exists here, not adding to it.

I commit myself to living the realization that no matter who you are in this world, if I judge another for fearing losing money, fearing being accused as a bad person, fearing death - then I am not being self-honest, because when I am self-honest I have accepted all of these points before in my life, so it will never be acceptable to have reactions when others are afraid. 

Day 401: FOMO

In my last blog I wrote about the point of fearing the unknown and this is sort of a continuation from that but rather looking at the opposite end of the scale being the fear of missing out or FOMO for short.

It's a common term within the world of trading and is known to not be a great idea as a starting point for investing into stocks/commodities/crypto etc.

Equally so as a life principle, because whenever my starting point of interacting with anything is because I am afraid of being left out, afraid of missing something great - then I am not being self-honest I am accepting separation of myself as the mind.

Within the starting point of fearing missing out, I am rash, not here but instead in the hereafter, unstable, I am acting in self-interest, I am highlighting my own inadequacies, I do not utilise common sense, I do not consider whats best for all - all I am thinking about is various thoughts where I imagine how great it will be for me when I get/do this thing and how much I will regret it if I don't get it/do it.

Its like a form of self-accepted peer pressure, a reassurance that what I am doing is right - when really  we are essentially cracking under the weight of "what everyone else is doing" without considering if it is actually beneficial to all parts. Within this starting point we essentially cannot be self-directive, we are essentially allowing ourselves to be brainwashed and directed by the energy of hype.

From what I can recall I first experienced this in my life when I was about 7 and there was this game called Pogs which became popular at school really quickly, now I didn't really enjoy the game as much as a I did with Marbles or Conkers - but because everyone was playing it  I started trading other game items for pogs with kids and buying them as much as I could with my pocket money.

I accumulated a large amount of them, felt cool having a huge stack of all of them and being a part of the "new wave" at school - now while I convinced myself I liked the game Pogs and told everyone how much I love them, in self-honesty not only did I not enjoy the game, I was just doing it to get attention/respect from other kids. The whole point of my FOMO to get them was short lived too, because after a few months nobody at school was playing Pogs anymore. 

So as a consequence I had hundreds of these Pogs which I didn't know anything about or really care about and neither did anyone else anymore so I threw them in the bin and fell into the new FOMO game thing. Layers added through the years to this and before you know it so many things in your life becomes based in the fear of missing out. I still see moments where I allow my mind to get dragged into FOMO or react to someone allowing FOMO. 

Within FOMO we start doing things because everyone else is doing it essentially, because we see the excitement around something and believe that it will enhance us in someway to also jump onboard, purely based on the excitement itself.

What is not considered within FOMO, is that this is what essentially maintains system compliance and keeps poverty going - groups of humans who do not use common sense reasoning to see what actually needs our attention in this world, instead we just do what everyone else does by chasing entertainment/money for ourselves, worrying about not being in the cool new club, ignoring the real problems in this world. 

Lets walk together to remove all unnecessary FOMO from our world -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that fear of missing out is purely self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make rash and unstable decisions based on fear of missing out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give a fuck about anyone else as long as I get the thing I'm afraid to miss out on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within FOMO imagine myself on my own isolated in the cold, while those that pulled the trigger are sitting in the sun happy and of course I want to avoid that at all cost as ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I do not adhere to FOMO that I will be disregarded by others, without realising that if something is best for all life, it matters not who disregards me because its best for all.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell others they should never fear missing out on something when I really I am just projecting my own reactions because I also have accepted this fear many times in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that whenever I fold to FOMO it is showing me my own level of system compliance to whats here as a world of abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am being reassured when loads of people are doing something, so it "must be right" when really in self-honesty I am allowing myself to be peer pressured into doing something I don't really understand/enjoy - you see how mask wearing is a common point of societal acceptance of FOMO currently.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that within allowing FOMO I am not here breathing as life, but rather living in complete separation as the mind where I make decisions based in regurgitation of the past. Trying to avoid the bad feelings of missing out that I have experienced in the past, which I then allow to direct my decisions for me here and lead me into the future following the thoughts, feelings and emotions of others, instead of me leading myself here free from the past, walking into the future as the breath of life as a self-directive being. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that within fearing missing out I am not directing myself but rather letting myself be directed by others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that within fearing "missing out" I am creating and feeding into an idea based in separation that I am not complete as me here, but will apparently be in the hereafter when I get this thing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and feed into a polarity friction where I am constantly in a back and forth state in my mind in separation of here being "boring" or "not good enough" and the hereafter when I FOMO into this thing is "exciting" and a fun good time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that within allowing the fear of missing out, I am really just saying that I cannot trust myself to make my own decisions based in common sense where I can factor and live whats best for all life, therefore I "need other peoples hype" to decide for me what I should do with my life, what is apparently the "winning formula" for me, instead of what would benefit all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear regretting not doing something as a justification for why its apparently OK to FOMO into things. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe something is a good idea to do, just because everyone seems to be giving it a lot of time and focus, so "it must be good right?" without considering that humans are irrationally programmed creatures and so whenever there is lots of FOMO among a section of humanity about anything, it is most likely not going to be best for all, but just best for the ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be self-directive as me as lifeforce as this breath in self-honesty in every moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed by things/people/activities outside of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the only reason I'm chasing some experience from something, is because I am not satisfied with who I am as life here, as if the grass will be greener.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not even check if I actually enjoy this thing in self-honesty, but to just trust the "good feeling" I will apparently get when I FOMO into something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that whenever we FOMO into anything we are missing the point that the starting point is energy and so will always die out, then the mind will again just repeat as a vampire looking for the next thing that people are draining energy from without realizing the energy is draining me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am getting energy from something, when really this energy is draining the lifeforce out of my body because it is the mind and the pre-programs I feed that drain my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when my starting point is to siphon some kind of good feeling energy from something, that I am actually draining the lifeforce from my own body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through things/activities that are popular instead of standing as the tree of life as me, which is who I really am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto and value memories of FOMO even though every time I FOMO into anything it doesn't last long and doesn't benefit anyone else but the idea of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of regretting missing out on certain investments, jobs, partners throughout my life and use that as a blueprint in my mind to justify why its ok to fear missing out, when in reality this is an unacceptable blueprint to continue to abuse. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that within accepting fear of missing out in my decision making, then all I do is base my decisions and focus on what makes me feel good, instead of considering the whole and so FOMO literally directly keeps abuse existing in this world as rape, war, starvation and nature abuse.

I commit myself to train myself to understand that within the idea of "missing out" there is really nothing that is missed, because everything is here as me and when I direct myself as this breath I am methodical and thus will investigation/interact with things when I see it is best for all to do so, not based on what collective hype in humans say - investigate all thing sand only keep whats best. 

I commit myself to exposing the fucked up starting point of FOMO by living as an example of not allowing this fear to taint my living and being.

I commit myself to showing that FOMO is what keeps everyone in the elite entertained/busy/distracted/blinded while life is abused in silence.

 

Day 400: No fear of the Unknown

When you think about making new friends, starting new work, or what the world will look like in 5 years from now, do you have a fear reaction? Or do you immediately breathe deeply, remain stable and smile? Or do you exist in self-dishonesty of having a fear reaction but telling yourself its just that you "prefer things you know"

Fear of the unknown is a fascinating point, I have found that in the past before walking my process of self-honesty that I would routinely feed into this point - why? Well I was fearing facing myself, because when there are areas of who we allow ourselves to be that is not clear, or is unknown to us then inevitably we react to new things in our external world that brings up the fear of the unknown. 

Its also the point of control, I have found in the past, fearing not having control for example when a person deliberates over whether to start in a new job or not - as the ego is impatient and always wants to control everything now not later, the ego knows what it knows here, it is comforted to know where the energy is coming from, but when something was unknown to my ego, the fear of where my ego will get its energy from came up. But I considered - how can it be possible to live whats best for all if I don't take self-responsibility to investigate/correct ALL that's here? I realised it is not.

There is also that definition and acceptance of polarity in relation to the word unknown that must be checked from what I have seen in my self-introspection/correction on this point through the years - where when the word unknown is spoken/written if there is an immediate split of the unknown is "bad", and the known is "good", where I am constantly bouncing back and forth in complete separation of myself, then I knew I was fucked and needed to take self-responsibility to change this.

What else am I saying by accepting fear of the unknown? That I can be brainwashed by new people/things, that I don't trust myself here and will much rather doubt myself and thus equally doubt and have a negative experience towards the world around me in relation to what is unknown to me, because what if I lose control of myself in this new unknown thing? What if I lose a part of me?

Amazing that we can believe that fearing the unknown can protect us in someway, that it is good for us to fear whats not known - when in reality it is through humanity individually and collectively fearing the unknown that maintains rape, war and poverty as capitalism - because through the acquiescence to build a system that is best for all life as me here, which is unknown and thus "bad" we believe instead that apparently maintaining the current system in self-interest through fearing something new/different/unknown is "good" while life suffers - its fucked up. 

The first time I remember experiencing the fear of the unknown was when I was starting school for the first time being uncertain about who my classmates would be, who the teacher would be etc. Then the system around me growing up was also telling me through adults words/behavior and films/media, that fearing the unknown is a safe way to be and from here layers continued to add through the years, until I started walking my journey to life.

I still have points where I need to be more self-honest, where I still fear the unknown, where I know I am not walking completely effectively here as breathe in every moment - yet I have still seen that due to the fact that I am aware of who I am here, I am clear on what my strengths/weaknesses are and because I have faced and walked through many points of pre-programming in my life, that when someone/something comes into my world who is clearly fearing the unknown about something, I do not react as I once would have. 

When there is something new which is brought to my attention, I immediately will investigate and cross reference instead of making assumptions based in the fear of the unknown. I do not allow myself to avoid what is unknown to me, meaning I allow myself to take self-responsibility for everything that's here, there is no shadow inside myself or this world that I will not shine a light on and face. 

Fearing the unknown is not supportive, the unknown does not need to affect us, because no matter what changes we make externally in our life, without self-change first nothing actually changes - so if I stand as whats best for all life, then I know I will still be here breathing no matter what black hole I jump into, so why fear the unknown? What would happen if all humans in this world all embraced the unknown throughout our lives in every way? Then we would have a world where all things would be known to all beings, because effective learning only occurs when we embrace the unknown, what we do not know and what we know we must build into ourselves.

These statements have and do continue to assist me -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknown.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that embracing the unknown in every breath is the map and road to self-perfection.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that fear of the unknown makes sure that a person never will reach their true potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as self-dishonesty through fearing the unknown while telling myself that I just "prefer things I know" which is a justification not to change to whats best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in dishonesty by telling others I am not afraid to try new things, but that I just prefer things I know well as an excuse to not explore what it is they are presenting to me the same way I do inside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that when fear of the unknown exists, then effective learning is not possible - because in order for anything to become known I have to embrace unknown information, embrace making mistakes, being an apprentice as I navigate and build new waters. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that anytime I react negatively as fear towards the unknown, that it is indicating that there are areas of myself that in self-honesty I fear facing here and that I am projecting onto something in my external world that is unknown. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that through accepting fear of the unknown I am directly saying I fear not having control, not having the "immediate cheat" to the "knowing energy" which indicates I am possessed by ego, by the idea that the ability to control things within and as my safe known patterns is who I am, when really this is an illusion in complete separation from physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through things I know here, the things that I can control and get my immediate energy from, instead of realizing that when I die all these limited things I define myself through will not be coming with me as the sound of life - I realise that the certainty of death is one of the greatest supports for me to not ever need to fear investigating/correcting any part of myself or this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that embracing the unknown doesn't mean I have to jump into everything all at once, but just that I have an inquisitive curiosity, step by step into all things not known to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when I am fearing the unknown I am basically saying I have not come to terms with the reality of death, and it is the death process which clearly shows every being that fear of the unknown must always be faced in the end regardless of how we feel and how much we delay.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear of being labelled stupid, being vulnerable, making mistakes whenever I allow fear of the unknown.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame a new thing in my life for why I fear interacting with it, when really its just because I fear interacting with myself and finding new realisations that push me to live whats best for all life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and connect a polarity friction to the words Unknown and Known, where I define the known as "good" and the unknown as "bad" bouncing back and forth in separation of myself, thus feeding into the separation of all life on this point which is unacceptable.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could be brainwashed by something unknown, that I could lose my identity in someway and so its "better" to stay in the known realms.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live self-trust in every breath whenever I am fearing the unknown, because I am saying that I doubt my ability to process what I find in the unknown, that I "don't know" If I will be able to take self-responsibility when I jump into a new area of myself and this world, as if living whats best for all life is subjective, when it is obviously not. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt that I can live whats best for all life in every moment because it is not known to me or humanity generally and so I doubt anything beneficial can come from embracing the unknown which is bullshit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe fear of the unknown protects me in someway, when really that belief is simply my ego defending itself from potentially "losing something" it defines as important and having to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories growing up of fearing the unknown of my first day at school, then allowing so many films and statements from adults to bolster the idea trough the years that its "safe" to fear the unknown when really its in reverse, because fearing the unknown keeps me limited as a tiny piece of unstable consciousness unaware of whats here in totality, which is saying that I prefer not really knowing myself or my world, which is definitely not a safe way to live as whats best for all life.   

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always take the "safer" way out based on the past, which I have been trusting more then myself as life here, which is fucked up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that it is through fearing the unknown that actually maintains the extreme abuses to life that occur everyday as rape, war and starvation in this world - because we need to create a new unknown system of life support to end abuse on earth, so I must embrace the unknown in order to live as whats best for all life as me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that living the statement - investigate all things and only keep whats best leaves no room for fearing the unknown, so I do not accept this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify any form of fearing the unknown within and as me because it is a justification to not face/correct myself and just feed into abuse which is unacceptable.

I commit myself to living the realisation that fearing the unknown is not supportive, but purely counterproductive in living whats bets for all life.

I commit myself to being honest with myself when there is any fear of the unknown, to not paint it as something else, feed into it or avoid it - I take it on here, sticking to breathing.

I commit myself to change fear of the unknown to inquisitive curiosity.

I commit myself to embracing the unknown as the road map to self-perfection that it is.

I commit myself to stop using the fear of the unknown to justify not taking self-responsibility for any part of me as this world that exists here. 

Day 399: I don't need to utilize what's here

 You know that idea that when you avoid interacting with something that's here, you are apparently "strengthened" and the "good guy" in your own backchat?

As an example veganism, many vegans will state their identity as a vegan as a strength, that they are better people for separating themselves from the meat industry. Yet what is often missed within this ideology? Self-honesty, because if I were self-honest I would realise that separating myself from abuse that I apparently have "no attachment with" in the system is actually making sure the abuse continues. Is developing a malnourished body, creating valued judgments around food and refusing to participate in the meat industry/politics to implement solutions to ending animal abuse actually supportive for anyone? No.

When I am self-honest I know that I am bullshitting myself by painting myself as a good strong person for not doing something when really, I am not doing this thing because I am reacting negatively, I fear living a solution to the problem and so I embrace the concept "out of sight out of mind" rather then take self-responsibility.

When I am self-honest I stand clear in the certainty that it is only through redesigning the system as myself, providing effective solutions to ending animal abuse and implementing them can actually end animal abuse. Does starvation cease to exist just because I decide that it is better to separate myself from and ignore poverty, while giving £3 a month to a charity in shame? No it does not.

In order to end abuse one must roll up their sleeves and get to the root of the issue, not act like its not here and claim to be "good" from how effectively you are ignoring whats here, exactly the same as any pre-programmed pattern of living that limits us here - we have to dig to get to the root of the issue.

This past week I have interacted with two people who both have told me they do not use social media in any form and that the starting of doing this was the same in both - that it is a strength and good thing they don't use social media platforms.

Its a fascinating fuck up that the ego can get lost within, this idea that the more you stop interacting with something that's here, that this is a solution to end it while others maintain doing it - when in reality this is suppression which causes the outflow of consequence and the continuation of the abuse.

Everything is in reverse, so its easy to react when we see fucked up things that happen on social media and then define social media in and of itself as evil, when in reality its the humans that use social media in an evil way that's fucked up, not social media itself - we see giants like Facebook, Twitter and Instagram as evil corporations that are abusing our personal data, we see the accounts with the most followers often being due to sex/money impulsing, we see everyone trying to paint the perfect picture of their life to others, we see the censoring of sensitive information/accounts, we see the exploitation of children, we see people having emotional debates about politics/religion.

These are all fucked up realities that we see daily on social media, But does that mean social media cannot be utilised in a way that is best for a ll life? No, social media can be utilised in a way that is life force supportive, as a communication platform, to share the REALITY of my life not just the good stuff, to develop groups, partnerships and the unity of a global community of life.

If you think its beneficial to not use social media, then ask yourself some practical questions - If there is a person on the other side of the world that actually has the same or similar life principles to myself, why would it be detrimental to develop communication with that person? Or if there is a person you know well that is travelling across many countries, do you want to make a phone call direct to them and pay a big phone bill? Or would you rather just use the endless communication options available through social media?

Microchips are here and again can be utilized in a beneficial way if we change the starting point of how we interact with that point, same with money, which is here causing abuse to life, but because everything is in reverse that means that money can be the solution to abuse here, such as basic income leading into an Equal Money System.

Yet I remember a time when I also thought that not utilizing something that's here, that by ignoring something that causes abuse in our world is a solution to end it. I had this idea which started when I was at university at about 18, where I realised I was mounting a lot of student debt for the "education" I was getting and so my solution was just to leave mid course before finishing, so literally letting myself get charged for the course but not getting the piece of paper at the end. I decided that because I could see how the university system was fucking students financially, that separating myself from the education system, defining myself as a victim of the education system, would be the best solutions at the time.

Of course I didn't realise at the time that by me trying to separate myself from the education system that means that someone else will go through exactly what I did - getting charged for the course without getting the degree because I am not formulating and living solutions to the education system, seeing whats here and taking action to redesign the system of whats here as I do with TechnoTutor.

I find these kinds of statements have and do assist me anytime my mind tries to fuck with me to ignore interacting with something here -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I do not need to use all things here to create a world that's best for all life, that I can just stop interacting with the point without realising that I am equal to all things that exist here, therefore it is my responsibility to utilise all things here to redesign the system to be best for all life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that through ignoring interacting with something that is here like social media, that I am actually accepting the continuation of the abuse of social media, by not standing equal to the point and directing it to whats best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge something as evil based on how others use the point, without realising that when I remove this judgement and have a self-honest starting point of whats best for all, then many things I initially judged as evil can be utilised to benefit all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as good for not participating with something like social media, and others as bad for using it, which is simply a polarity friction which only limits me and everyone around me to not take self-responsibility for whats here but rather compare, judge, ignore it which is abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when I claim others are judging me for not doing something, that really I am judging myself - so when i'm judging someone as stupid for doing something, I am actually judging myself as stupid for not doing it, yet I just want to project the issue onto the other person so they have to change instead of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire other people to fix the things in this world that don't make sense, rather then fix them as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear using social media, because I fear people looking into my life, I fear looking into my own mind, I want to keep my life private where I can abuse in secret.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that anything in this world which is a platform which enhances my ability to communicate with life, yet I "choose" to not interact with it, when I bring it back to self it only shows me that there is major issues with my communication which I have to sort out now or the consequence will be increasing isolation from others and limitation of my communication options. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that free choice is not real, it is just an illusion that I can decide what to do, when in self-honest reality free choice is just my excuse to not stand up for life and to silently accept abuse. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be unique and get attention by being the "one to not do something". 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that anytime I do not investigate and take self-responsibility for my own mind, then my pre-programmed mind will overide everything and continue the abusive patterns/consequences as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a "victim of social media" so I can justify again not using social media, why its OK for me to utilise something that's here in a beneficial way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with others and myself, by telling them I'm not participating for "good reasons" connected to my "good principles" when really Im actually not participating so that I can keep my life secret from others and because I fear investigating and sharing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself about why I am not using something by telling others its for my "noble idea of myself" to not participate, when really this idea is based in self-doubt to change whats here and the fear of investigating all things and only keeping whats best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear investigating myself and sharing my life openly with all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say "I don't like talking about myself that's why I don't use social media" as if that would be a strength, when really this is just an excuse to never have to take self-responsibility for my own mind and conduct - I fear people seeing my true thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others seeing my thoughts and life patterns on social media.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that other people will judge me negatively if I share my life and self-introspection on social media.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame and judge others for doing something I don't like without seeing that I am complaining yet living no solution and thus anything i do from this starting point is invalid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear social media giants stealing and sharing my data, without considering that some many companies before social media existed were stealing and sharing my data.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see how others abuse social media and instead of saying "I will use social media in a more effective way then this person" I instead give in to the back chat of "im not going to be an example of how to use social media effectively, I will just define it all as bad so I never have to use it"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that anytime I say "I don't like" something, is nearly always ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and live valued judgments towards those that do something that "I don't like".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that holding onto an idea that everyone is "stupid" for not living like me, is much like holding onto a burning hot coal and expecting it will burn the other person, when this idea can only ever burn me because defining people as more or less then me is the separation of me, which will only have detrimental effects on me directly, my beingness and living. 

I commit myself to living the realization that I must utilise everything that is here to create a world that's best for all life, because any stone left unturned inside myself and this world will have a consequence which is abusive.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to avoid investigating and directing everything that's here as me, as this world to whats best for all life - so as and when I see my mind having thoughts to separate myself from things that are here, I stop and breathe I realise that my mind is simply trying to take the easy route out by not facing the point, so I continue to breathe until there is no more thoughts - where eventually I can utilise the whole of me as this world to live whats best for all life.