Day 479: Children can be so cruel

Is that really so? Where and from who are these "cruel kids" learning to be so cruel? Today I went out to do some shopping, when I got out of my car in the car park there was a woman getting out of her car a few spaces up at the same time. She was on the phone and seemed stressed, I overheard her saying as she walked off “God children can be so cruel sometimes” I immediately experience myself as disappointed and confused in judgement at this woman's comment.

 I think back on how many times I have heard people saying this in my life. As I grew I eventually started realising as I understood more about the various machinations of Humans that the statement “children can be so cruel” has no truth to it - because I realised at a young age there are no children running the Military Industrial Complex, there are no children running harmful businesses, running the education system, running any department in Government/Banking, or any part of the global system. 

Thus, it is clear that Adults are truly the Cruelest Authority of Humanity and so anytime we see a Child being abusive why would we blame the child for the cruelty they are showing, when they have no authority in any of the global systems on Earth forced upon each one in Anyway whatsoever?

Children didn’t create a system that allows children to starve, for rape and wars to happen to children, yet isn’t it strange how so many adults when you say to them “lets change the world to end this shit” they say something like - no I'm too old now let the next generation fix it. As if there is no culpability for what is here among the harmless "wise elders" so lets give a lovely spiteful present to the children - here you go kids us adults have nothing to do with this, so you can fix the world, I mean after all you will surely get magically smarter than us old people and I like blaming you for random things with statements like "Children can be so cruel" because in a way I blame you for "ruining my frivolous, fun, freedom" I could have before you were around. It's fucked up.

 I mean, when I see child soldiers go into a small village and indiscriminately kill the majority of people in the village with high powered assault weapons, to me it is clear that there ALWAYS is a nasty adult that taught and will continue to direct these child soldiers how to disregard life and act in such barbaric ways until there is effective intervention. You look at the world and it's clear the idea of "wise elders" does not exist currently.

As we understand more about the natural learning ability of children, genetics, the resonant seed and what we truly pass onto to our children. The more we understand that children are automatically absorbing vocabulary and developing their character based on the parents/guardians and the surrounding environment they are in at a quantum rate - then the more you can expose the bullshit of a statement like “children can be so cruel”. 

When I see a child doing anything spiteful I have no time to start judging the child, because the equality equation shows me the face of the parents that could produce this - that the reality is if I had parents not giving me an effective education, doing drugs and alcohol around me daily, resorting to violence to deal with problems, all while living in an area that is lacking any effective dignified living necessities - then I also would be the child soldier harming life indiscriminately and in my own way I was during many time frames in my youth.

Children in reality are the most innocent among us, so are plants and animals - yet why do we see adult animals often being cruel to each other and sometimes even to their children in the wild? Why do many plants need to develop defense mechanisms? Again because Nature reflects Human nature, Animals see us Humans who are supposed to be the most intellectual beings on Earth not acting like custodians of Earth, but rather being spiteful destroyers towards each other in every way - consequently we see a very spiteful animal kingdom.

 I forgive myself for my disappointment/judgment experience towards this woman knowing that the same point applies to her, which would apply to me if I had lived her life - because without condoning the behaviour she was still obviously brought up around adults that also believed in Blaming Children in different situations with the statement “children can be so cruel”.

It is the Self-Interested Mind Consciousness System of Humanity that is the Real Evil Cruelty on Earth and children in their first seven years are completely organic life, not the mind and it is only us adults that systematically inculcate them to exist and spend a life existing as a pre-programmed mind consciousness system not the other way around.

Allow yourself to be the integral guiding blueprint for the next generation, because in a world that is best for all, the idea that Children are cruel does Not Exist because we will all know with Certainty it is Bullshit - where Parents in any country, in any area will take Complete Self-Responsibility for what is passed on to the child making sure that the very best of what is here is given. There will be the necessary legal frameworks in place within Equal Money to make sure it is the global standard, within the unified understanding that if my child and every single child that is born is given the Best of what is Here, they will be the Best possible Adult, an Adult that walks a Duty to Life that will contribute in the Best ways with others in society which is clearly Best For All and everything we need to make it so is right Here.

Day 478: Out of the System - Back to Life

We often like to proclaim that we are making a comeback in some way, but what do we really mean when we say that? How are we actually living this statement “I’m back” in this world? Back to our best? Back to fighting for how I and others remember me? You hear older retired athletes, bands, artists often talking about making “a comeback” while their bodies continue to decay like anyone else's. Back in black, going back in order to go to the future apparently, I mean Arnie made a career through repeating one statement “I’ll be back” which seemed at times to overshadow the man himself in terms of fandom. Perhaps the popularity was because the statement implicitly and explicitly says — I will be stuck in the back as memory, constantly turning up in the future to remind everyone that I have not let go of the past and will use it to my favour in spite. 

I was busy doing other things, but now I am back to the important stuff of reestablishing my legacy's memory because that makes me feel better than changing, learning, shifting into new physical expressions of myself that benefit more than just me as the mind but actually the physical whole.  As children we hear adults around us saying statements like “back in the day” in this nostalgic discontent about here, yearning for the past to reemerge, that anything older is better because it has more experience as memory, that our aims in life should be to get back to our favourite bright spots of our life, back to our favourite habitats. Funny how we literally have antiques systems that value items from the past so highly – I have seen many times in my life something like a picture, a chair, a table, a cutlery set, a piece of jewellery that a famous king used selling for more than an expensive house, years of food shopping and hundreds of pieces of technology like mobile phones.

I saw a tv series recently and there was a part where a female police officer became pregnant and had to take maternity leave. Her work colleague was strangely not happy, did not congratulate her and actually consoled her in a grieving way as if there was a death in the family, stating “don’t worry you will be back in no time” as if continually working on cases in the system as a police officer is far more important than giving birth to life. I have many times in my life seen in myself where I disregarded some form of cohesive life creation here, purely because I had to “get back” to something and that something would usually be anything that recharges the systems idea of myself as memory. 

So making sure we keep up appearances/maintain/recycle the system's idea of our self is being back to normality as good and anything where we are not recharging/defending the past/our position in the system is considered a negative and especially for life creation, because life is considered a threat to the system itself. I’m sure you may have noticed how Governments around the world have more overreach to interfere with/mitigate/reduce natural childbirth than ever before. 

We also live this idea and value around “where we come from” as our “roots'' that we are apparently being more authentic “going back to our roots” – that we are defined and strengthened through the idea of ourselves based on the past being acknowledged, when really this is confirming our existence as memory without awareness of who we are as physical life, not seeing that we were life in our first seven years before we became the memory as the mind. This is why we want to be remembered, why we want people to cheer on our “comebacks” and people often do acknowledge these events as a literal edification to each other that we should not be here as life, that we should always “stick to what we know” as the past energies/experiences that made us feel good and recycle time, that we are doing the right thing by reminding ourselves and everyone else that we Humans have actually completely defined anything that is recharging the systems idea of our self back to the front stage as apparently always a good thing.  

Imagine how fucked the consequence of believing that is - that creating/being life is a weakness to be marginalised and that reestablishing our starting point as memory is a strength to be prioritised. Within this we completely miss that the images built into the body comprising memory are immortally shiny when they come up in the mind, always pristine technicolor but our body itself is not immortal, we decay, we get old and actually we drain the lifeforce of the body through allowing ourselves to exist as the past as the mind. So we cannot maintain our self as a pristine image, no matter how much we try to use technology to stay in alignment with the image of ourselves. We come back to the same rituals as the mind daily believing it to be cool to be defined in memory, that it helps us, when really its fucked. I mean why do a lot of peoples marriages fail? Because of one or both of the partners wanting to “go back” to being single which is defined as the freedom to isolate self as memory in self-interest. Life works together and grows with all else here, whereas a mind zombie living in memory has to continually get back to prioritising its own well being and it's easier to keep our delusions real when we do not have to consider another in our physical space. 

It's cool to redefine anything to what is best and to redefine a comeback as what's best to me would be to go from saying “I am back as the memory of me” to saying I am back to a clear way of living, coming back to the realisation that I am life, not a memory of life – recognising this game of humans making endless comebacks as memory is not best, out of the system back to life, taking complete responsibility to walk a process of rejuvenating self back to life, where I learn to implement myself from a starting point of inherent innocence of physical movement as breath, which I had as a child where organic curiosity of everything that's here free from judgment was how I lived myself, moved and related to others as opposed to going back to the systems memory. In fact when you look close enough into your own childhood you will likely find defining moments where you started to disregard authentic movements/interactions and started to integrate this “I’m back” system where you started to make excuses about why you can’t unify with something, that you will get back to it in the future because you need to get back to keeping up the idea of yourself as a lonely memory. 

Time to Stop and the Only Way is Out of the System and Back to Life. 

Day 477: Stop wasting MY time

Hannah called a gas engineer to her Nans the other day to check for a slow leak of gas that we suspected could be happening based on a few points that were brought to our attention.

I was not present when the engineer arrived, but Hannah mentioned afterwards that while the engineer did not find any major leaks, he seemed a bit annoyed as if the visit itself was a bit of a pointless inconvenience for him.

When I brought it back to Self I could see how many times I in my life have also lived the word inconvenience through defining/blaming something/someone as inconvenient to me as my general experience in these moments. Yet I have noticed that children do not seem to ever find interaction with others as being inconvenient, they just move and express with whats here each day organically.

As an example a classic for me which you may also recognize in yourself is when some random sales person calls me, where as soon as I am not aware of the company name/have not asked for the company to call me - the sales agent that calls I am automatically going to cut off in their first sentence and will say something like " OK, get to the point what does your company sell and what do you want? I'm far too busy right now to hear the long pitch" whether I am actually genuinely busy or not has rarely seemed to factor into this response. I usually cut the call shortly after as most companies genuinely do have shit products as that's what we allow our money system to spew out, endless cheap convenient products designed to break to keep consumers spending.

Then each consumer must adhere to a 24 hour clock in order to make money in the system in order to be able to consume the products, where we compete with each other to maximise our energy and be able to brag about how effectively we use OUR time.

I can recall other moments where in a few companies before I have been tasked with training new staff based on my sales record and while I might say "I don't mind training the new people" actually in self-honesty in these moments I have often viewed this training as an inconvenience because what if they just leave after training or can't absorb what I'm training? That backchat was my excuse to cover over the fact that really I defined/blamed the time training the newbies itself as an inconvenience that took away from me being able to focus on MY sales in MY time in MY schedule.

Or I have met many people in the past through many avenues in life, but the amount of times I have said things to someone like "so where are you from?" then shortly after they start talking I start thinking things like "when are they going to stop talking?" I start reacting judging the interaction as inconvenient to my schedule, wanting it to hurry up so I can get to a "better" chat/this better activity/this book/this writing/this film/ or some mind energy that I deem as more important then interacting with this person right now.      

Its like this hierarchy of convenience in our mind where we define people as convenient based on how they are providing attention/priority/ease to our schedule in OUR time. How easy have they made it for us? How accommodating have they been? After all convenience is good and inconvenience is bad right? Those firewalls of least resistance. Yet, as soon as someone is not caring about our schedule as much as we do, as soon as we have to adjust our schedule even in a minuscule way then it becomes easy to start defining the person or thing we had to make an adjustment for as inconvenient. Interesting how often many Celebrities and Politicians will consistently warn people about the dangers of wasting "My Time" in a threatening way with fervour, like an apex example in the system of what we all have inside us.

I've seen this in so many others towards me and each other also since childhood because as the Mind we Humans define everything as our ownership even time itself, believing that its MY TIME that ties me to reality, that defines me, that I do not have to consider anyone else's time because, your time is the enemy I must defeat life to be on top. So all that matters is that my reality is tied up and constantly consumed with my own wants/desires/needs in Real time as Self-Interest as the Mind without seeing, realising and understanding that Breath by Breath is the only Real time that exists in physical time space and this breath we all share whether we are aware of that or not.

As a child every interaction was organic because I was existing in Real time as Breath, so there was no expecting/hurrying/blaming people for cutting into MY time because I didn't have my own separate idea of time then. But, as I grew into and as the mind consciousness system, these tentacles started growing as I started routinely defining certain people and things as inconvenient if it didn't make it easy for me/prioritise me/my time, where this very definition created my own stress in many interactions as I grew. Amazing how we adults quickly blame another for inconveniencing us and "giving us" stress without realising it is often the architecture of our idea of convenience being when we are first before anyone else with no effort that creates this uncomfortable inconvenient/annoyed experience for our self when we are not easily first.    

Now this is not to say you should not have a schedule, because they are particularly useful in business as an example, or that you should not cut short interactions that actually are an inconvenience to something you are physically supporting in certain moments - I wouldn't suggest letting a sales agent get his full pitch out while your wife is in child birth labour as an example. Yet, there is a balance that has to be brought into our living through common sense realising that if Humanity keeps blaming each other for inconveniencing each other forever then that is an endless recipe for conflict. Where we never get to the mutual understanding that how we Humans have been living as the Mind is inconvenient to life on Earth, because to Life it is when we give to another as we would like to receive which may be inconvenient to our mind, yet which makes Life on Earth more convenient for all as an Equal Money System where each one has the resources to be effective in real time which is Best for ALL, which is the best use of our time here.

So the idea of saving/protecting "our time" as convenient and assisting another with "their time" as inconvenient is separation. As if our times are all competing to have the best time and of course the best "time keepers" always make the most money for a small few while the majority suffer in Real time. These ideas are the Real waste of time in reality, because for us humans to spend a lifetime disregarding others in favour of our self is the real inconvenience to life. Does a tree ask if its inconvenient to grow somewhere? No it just fucking grows wherever it is, even when we Humans actually make it inconvenient for the tree to grow in some places with materials like concrete, the tree still finds a way to keep growing. 

Meanwhile we humans are always getting in our own way constantly, disregarding and destroying our time on Earth in this lifetime, thinking that time is ours and it can be taken. Yet, when we take Self-Responsibility to get out of our own way, we develop a coherent expression as self that is as fluid as the tree that unapologetically grows in all directions.

So to conclude for now - if you ever find yourself asking someone to stop wasting your time in anyway, even a slight huff under your breath, investigate it make sure it is clear and you are not actually just reacting inconveniencing yourself with your own ideas of convenience, wasting your own time as the mind and not embracing your lifetime through living in Real-Time as Breath.

Day 476: The Precious Metalloid Mind

Have you check yourself in relation to jewellery/precious metals/shiny objects before? I have and everything is in reverse, which when you realise yourself as life you see in absolutely everything. One that was clear for me from a young age was the point of Silver. My grandfather was a big proponent of it as he would remark from time to time about the unmatched heat/electrical conductivity of Silver, that it was a vital component for the emergence of the digital age. He was the first person to point at multiple items in a room with me like: TV's, Light bulbs, Computers, Mobile phones, Electrical appliances saying "that has Silver in, that has Silver, that has Silver" as he pointed at each item. 

Then years later Bernard shared the point with me that Gold and Silver do not originally come from Earth and that Silver is one of the most underestimated metals on this planet, because it actually has the ability to purify Water effectively. Thus, on top of catalytic usage with Technology, would make Silver an effective component in purifying the global Water systems of the planet in an Equal Money System.

You would think that if we Humans were the "all knowing" beings we often enjoy claiming ourselves to be that we would have noticed how much Water is on our planet and how much our body is comprised of Water, thus we should be valuing a metal that purifies Water effectively very highly. 

Yet what do you see when you look at the markets? Silver is defined as a precious metal in the system yet you may have noticed when you look at the price of Silver that it is substantially cheaper than Gold, Platinum, Palladium. Meanwhile, at least 50% of global Silver supply is put into real tangible items every year and has over 40,000 applications globally which is continuing to rise all the time. These figures dwarf all the other precious metals in terms of actual use in industry. Silver is marginalised in Capitalism because it purifies Water and Water is the original resource of Earth that the top 1% of 1% have enjoyed privatising throughout Human history before any other resource. 

To give you more context on this point if you follow the activities of the company Marvel, the Silver Surfer was one of my first favourite marvel characters as a kid. Initially I just thought he looked cool being shiny Silver and having a hover board that he can surf through space on - yet I noticed as I grew up that when you get past the Galactus brainwashed service stuff Silver Surfer is actually one of the more insightful/peaceful characters in marvel as his powers are actually based in healing life and he is always questioning his own motives/those who claim ownership over life as he searches space for his lost home world/wife and eventually realises in this search that he must not lose himself in his desires/fears and create what is best for all wherever he goes regardless of if he never returns to his home world/wife again. It is a cool allegorical story anyone can relate to and it has been said that actually because of Silver Surfers unexpected popularity among many comic fans that the Marvel owners were forced to start mentioning doing a Silver Surfer film since the early 2000's. Yet, still in 2022 strangely we have had endless Marvel films yet there has been no Silver Surfer film made apart from a limited, drab, facetious cameo in the 2007 Fantastic four film. So it is beginning to seem like the people who own Marvel do not want a peaceful/insightful main character with powers based in healing Life to be more popular in society. Simply put hes not warlike enough and thus not profitable enough so is disregarded, just like how most Humans disregard the value of Silver and anything based in real life support generally. 

How could this be? That we have a system that wastes/ignores/disregards Silver and most useful resources in so many ways? Well we Humans exist within and as the pre-programmed mind, from the wealthiest Human to the poorest Human - where from our parents/society we learnt to value things based on their scarcity/connections to desires as an image of success as opposed to what is actually measurably beneficial to all life and so the system says - well there's less Gold around and more kings in history have worn it as jewellery, It is "the God's chosen metal" therefore it must be more valuable apparently. It's the Metal that in generally accepted global Human Opinion gives us the "best feelings" matches the image of success we believe to be real thus it's the most valuable.

It's Bullshit and it was these realisations that my Grandfather and Bernard brought up within me in relation to Silver that caused me to have my first successful business back in 2012, which was a precious metals company. But I got out of that sector because while its always who we are within what we do, I realised it is still such as fucked up point for some Humans to profit from a shiny metal as a profession, a colorful rock, a greasy liquid, water or anything that comes directly from the Earth as it should be freely available to all. Fascinatingly fucked up that when it comes to the most basic of resources of Earth its the ones we have privatised and killed each other over for the longest time, they are not called blood diamonds or oil barons for no reason as an example. Of course many have no choice but to work in these industries currently and sooner or later we will have to stand up as one Humanity, in order to end the egregious abuses to life that have been occurring in all form of Human industry.

Now I have been buying Silver jewellery for me and my partner recently, as we have been playing with the ring point in relation to marriage a lot, so looking at/comparing/testing different rings. Initially I had some brief thoughts of "what if Hannah gets annoyed if I don't get her the most expensive jewellery" this being based on the idea connected to the Love system that exists where the value of jewellery/presents is defined as some symbol of the "level of my love" while we all tell each other we don't care about money when reality shows the Possession of each Human as the precious shiny Mind where we are presenting a refulgent image/hoarding as much precious possessions as possible for ourselves/elite club as heaven as energy as the mind in separation from physical reality, despite the horrific consequences this incurs causing the majority to exist in suffering deprivation. 

This thought coming up/the systems value around buying the most expensive jewellery makes no sense at all when you look at it. It all originates in the Minds of Humans, not physical reality thus it is not real, so I have clear certainty it is bullshit and my partner also knows this, as well as the fact she very rarely asks/expects me to buy her anything let alone expensive jewellery. It's been funny in some situations where when I tell the jewellery seller I'm looking to buy Silver from them their voice literally drops, in some cases almost like they are slightly offended that I'm even asking to see Silver expecting that I would want Gold/Platinum for my partner. 

Back in 2012 I could sometimes get offended easily if someone didn't understand Silver's benefits like me lol, now though I have diffused that shit through Self-Corrective application so that now when I get any resistance/misunderstanding from the person in relation to Silver I simply give them a cheeky smirk and explain some of Silver's benefits for all life to the person gently yet succinctly, supporting them as I myself would like to be.  

In an Equal Money System this bullshit will stop, there will be no more precious metal bullshit existing, because every resource will be equally valued and any resources classification as important in anyway will be according to its measurable effective support for All Life.

Day 475: He who has the Knowledge

Day 474: It's Nothing Personal

That old adage we've heard a million times, very common in business meetings/work offices/criminal organisations yet also comes up in relationships, friends all over the place - the implication being that what I am doing to you right now as cutting our ties in someway is not a decision I am making from a starting point of contemptuous reaction, that it would be "bad" if I admitted a reaction in our interaction. 

Yet what I notice is when people say it's nothing personal, it usually is. I remember Mike Tyson years ago before a fight saying as an example "It's nothing personal, but I'm gona kill the guy" or if you've ever heard groups of school bullies picking on a kid saying "It's nothing personal, we just don't like you" - these moments are merely microcosms of what we Humans do in every area of our life, I see all the times I have said that to somebody in my life and in Self-Honesty it has always been because I am absolutely offended by the person yet I can hide/justify my reaction using the old adage "it's nothing personal its just business" to callously explain away why I am pushing the person away/not treating the person as I would like to be treated.

In these moments the point of the offence itself towards the person serves as the personal barometer of my own Self-Judgement I am not clear on - where I believe this person doesn't fit my persona, my personal idea of myself so I can make a personal decision to ostracize that person. We use our feelings, desires and beliefs to drive our personal profit, defining life as a personal reward system while telling everyone we "don't care about money" it's all in reverse.

I've been in multiple situations in my past where I had some business partners who would want to fire some staff purely because they didn't personally feel this person/person's dress sense or values matches the "happy go lucky" image the company wants to portray, even at times when they were still good workers. That the board would feel better if this person wasn't in the business, but that we should "Make sure they all know its nothing personal its just business"while we are making a personal valued judgment to treat the person differently.

Or from another context we use the statement its nothing personal to justify the idea that its good to not have any personal responsibility to whats here on earth, to each other to make the best world possible, we should instead leave it to corporations and governments - when in reality it is the personal responsibility of each one to walk a process of self-honesty where one can rebirth as life from the physical.

No personal success can be real until all are succeeding, therefore all forms of ideas around personal self-interest in the mind must be ended. I have found it is our automated thought processes that stands as the guardians of personal self-interest and the edification from those around us and the world system that allows us to view this shit as real, when really this keeps us trapped not seeing/realising how we have truly created our self as a lie.

This process is to see with my eyes open where am I disciplined/principled? Where am I not? Yet, not being too hard on myself or overly apathetic about it, simply being clear where I am not walking in absolute Integrity so I learn directly the difference between Real Change and releasing/repeating Energy which is obviously not the same. While we proclaim "It's Nothing Personal!" In our ignorance Everything as a matter of fact is 100% to do with our personal relationship to ourselves, to others and the world as a whole. 

You can see how our Family/parenting is where our personal idea of our self originated and then we take that to our interactions with others in life and then take that to all of Humanity as the global system.

The questions we need to ask ourself are - who am I in relation to myself? what is my personal relationship to myself? Who do I see myself as? The personal me developed in childhood, all my conscious mind shit in relation to me, I must write it out, then write/apply Self-Forgiveness/Commitment statements.

Then I need to ask myself who I am in relation to others? What are my Interpersonal relationships? This is our subconscious world where our automated personalities operate and step forth to attract "like minded people" this tends to be a common way we try to deal with family/childhood trauma, where we try to create interpersonal relationships with people to "solve" things we didn't like in our family/childhood, but where again Self-Supportive writing, Self-Forgiveness and Self-Commitment statements is the Personal Responsibility required to walk in order to correct this truly.

Then look at who am I in relation to the universe as the world system? This is the automated unconscious that we are not aware is created globally to direct all Humanity through our allowance/relationship to the Personal and Interpersonal - this is the end point to get clear on so to speak, how my personal issues creates a thread in existence to create the universal world consequential result of Government, Religion, Politics, Education as the global systems how Humanity exists together. 

So let's hold ourselves Personally Responsible to align all three to be what is best for all life as Heaven on Earth, lets stop personal offence and saying its nothing personal, because if we do not we will only die an illusion, which obviously can exist no further than a memory on a gravestone.

Day 473: Giving up the Idea of Free Choice

Oh we humans do love our idea of "Free choice" rarely considering that there is actually in fact nothing free about our choice whatsoever. That everything is in reverse so what we define as freedom of choice is actually what keeps us all enslaved.

Somebody told me about their life plans recently and this person proclaimed to me they had made a decision to avoid a certain person, to not question them even though this person has been making decisions that are directly abusive to them. I asked this person are you really making a decision there? It sounds more like you are deciding to pursue the path of least resistance, to decide based on what makes you feel better and avoid what makes you feel bad. Free choice is a way we often say simplistically - fuck whats best for everybody I will do what is best for me in self-interest to survive as the existence as Energy/Consciousness/Mind. I mean if I am free to choose to eat nothing but sweets all the time to try to gain a constant "sugar buzz" and it rots my teeth out was that choice really free? Or did it cost me physical consequences? Was it really a choice that created Real Physical Freedom for me and everyone else? Or did it just enslave me and everyone else to limitation/survival as the Mind/Energy?

The only reason I could support this person around choice was because I have investigated many dimensions of how choice has historically operated in myself and majority of Humans. Where after the age of around Seven years old as my existence as the Mind Consciousness system solidified as my expression it was almost as if all my choices since this point onward became subdivisions, derivatives of One Original Choice.

This original choice I made as the starting point of me in the acceptance of myself in this world, was the protection and defense of surviving as the possession of all energy that allows me to experience me to be an Omniscient force as a state of continual Self-Anointing Godhood. Essentially the Life authority I existed as in my first 7 years, now gave way to Energy as Consciousness as the Mind as the highest Authority of Me. 

This is where I began to consume physical Existence/Substance/Life to transform it into Energy/Mind/Money, turning these things into the highest Deity of Me, where I am fighting/spiting, purposely creating Friction to survive as Energy/Mind/Money gaining these rewards endlessly as the Heavenly Authority of Me.

We see the consequence in our Money system as a result of this harmful living of free choice, where business has the apparent right to choose profit over what is best for all life. We clearly see that Money gives you the ability to have more choice, yet the majority do not have it/thus are forced into Horrific labour jobs to Survive with No Real Freedom, which shows that any choice which causes harm to another life form cannot be a choice that is free of this consequence. None are Free until All are Free so when a Choice is made that rights to Life are given to a small group who have the most Money is not and cannot ever be Free until Money is Freely Equal for all. You see how fiat money has lost it's intrinsic value over the years? That this value is based on various choices that some Money is apparently "better" than others, unstable energy/consciousness/mind based decisions which is Never Free of Abuse.

When I started walking my process seeing my relationship to "Free choice" this was when I first realised that I am not actually making any choices in anything because all decision is based in pursuing whatever keeps Me and Everyone else trapped as Energy/Mind/Consciousness. It's like we get born as life, then Die during our time here through becoming the mind/energy/consciousness and then the meaning of life for all of us is essentially to simplistically get back to Life by taking Self-Responsibility to Re-design Me as Life. Many humans have their own ideas about how best to do this, although I would postulate to any the tools of Desteni is the Best Way to do this.

As long as we Humans continue with the Fucked road of Believing we have Choice, that the basis of our choice must be accepting and allowing the existence of Money/Mind/Energy as the highest Authority of Me, then nothing will change. Walking a process to whats best for all is this Realisation in Living Application that Life Authority is the Highest Authority of All Choice. 

Through effective Writing, Self-Forgiveness and Breathing we actually can Completely Transform our decision making process to go from Energy/Mind/Money authority, to a decision of Standing as Life Authority in Equality and Oneness where Every Choice Lived that I Make/Express becomes consistent as what is measurably Resulting in What is Best for All Life in Substance. 

We have to Completely Give Up our idea of Free choice that gives No Life to All in Self-Interest as endless War/Hell/Consequence and instead be the Living Word of an Equal and One living being as the Physical where Real Freedom is the Gift I give to myself and all life within/without as Peace/Heaven/Real Freedom Livingry. In 2022 it is Long Overdue for Humanity to start making the Best Choices - Be the Self-Directive of this Principle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that my idea of free choice has never been free at all and within this I have been enslaving me and all life as the Mind/Energy/Consciousness/Money where every decision I made was a derivative of the original decision to base the starting point of all decisions of Me on the protection/accumulation of these things where I even purposely destroy/create friction with whoever I need to experience myself in bliss as Energy/Money/Mind eternally completely unaware that everything is in reverse where true Free choice can only emerge when I give up/change my starting point/relationship to Free choice from Mind/Money/Energy as the highest authority of the decisions I make to Heaven on Earth and Living what is Best for All Life as this body as Me as the Living Word of Equality and Oneness where Real Freedom manifests.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that any time I protect my idea of Free Choice in anyway is when I am saying - I do not want to do what is best for all, I want to do what is best for me in self-interest to maintain myself as Mind/Energy/Money which is unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I did not accept and allow myself to truly understand that our Money System we have accepted and allowed is a consequence of our existence as our Selfish idea of Free Choice which then facilitates the choice of government and corporations to profit at the expense of the majority, creating a dichotomy of choice where the minority with money have choice and the majority have no choice so suffer immense poverty proving that any choice which causes consequential harm to another life form is not free and is thus not adequate to support Life on Earth - This Earth decides to allow each being to birth here and provide a body/resources for us all equally, thus our Living and Monetary system must be a reflection of this.

I commit myself to show that our idea of Free Choice has never been free and is actually the toxic antithesis of Freedom in Every way.

I commit myself to show that free choice will only be free when everyone is supported equally, when there is no consequence of physical harm to the Body on Earth where Humanity moves from the idea of free choice as Energy/Consciousness accumulation to the living of choices that produce a world of Physical Tangible Freedom for all life in Equality and Oneness.

I commit myself to continue to walk my process moving from the past as my idea of free choice as Pre-programmed Energy Authority that harms the physical Body/Existence into the Decision of Standing in Equality and Oneness in being/becoming the Living Word through writing/self-forgiveness/self-corrective application - Realigning choice to an Equal Money System which is based on the decision to stand as Life as what is best for all, a system where each one in this physical existence can equally enjoy Living and Growing on our One Planet Earth.

Day 472: Are you sure you're never Jealous?

Someone came back into my life this past weekend, this is a person that has been a close friend of mine and one of the longest standing in the flesh who completely disappeared from my life about a year ago. After a while I thought "our paths may not cross again in this lifetime" as I have seen these thought's come up so many times when somebody disappears from my life so to speak. It reminded me that we never know who, when and where a person from our past will reemerge back into our environment after a certain amount of time. Sometimes they do, sometimes they don't but either way it is always of value to consider why someone we enjoy is not in our life anymore - to consider what I may have done to cause offence or inadvertently abuse them in someway I didn't see and to consider what this person reemerging could mean for me in terms of what learning is there that life is showing me or suggesting I face within this reemergence?

I had a myriad of reactions coming up that I had to keep checking - positive happy feelings to see him again, annoyance that he did not tell me at the time what the problem was, a blaming experience of betrayal where I felt in an over dramatized sense that he "left me on the front line to die" when I thought we were brothers till death type of thing, confusion at why he wanted to reach out now.

Then as we went through the night of going through mine, his and my partners mind constructs while relaxing/reminiscing at the end of the night more reactions came up such as this shock at how low my friend had sunken within himself through his own allowance, I had never seen him so full of doubt, diminished, self-sabotaging and it hurt at times to hear him speak like this, I experienced it as his wounds were my own where I had to stop tears of disappointment in him and disappointment in myself to call myself a friend yet let him slip so far into the depths of extreme depression. It was overwhelming at times and I could honestly write 10 blogs on these past few days alone.

Then at some point in the evening my friend started playing my partners piano which is incredible to hear because he can play classic Mozart, Beethoven and other pieces so well. Fascinating that I haven't seen him play in person for years and I remember a jealousy experience I had years ago towards how well he could play piano which was always an instrument I defined as beautiful and therefore apparently "not for me" The Beast lol.

I laughed in the moment at the triggered memory of the jealousy in the apparent comfort of "knowing I have already transcended this Jealousy emotion about his piano playing skills in the past" "I never get jealous nowadays" I said to myself as I don't experience the emotion often, yet in Self-Honesty I know I have seen Jealousy in myself still in moments, yet it never usually lasts as long or seem as deep as I had it suddenly come up in the past few days. Now interestingly as well my friend has mentioned Jealousy towards me in the past as well in terms of my physical strength and my confidence in communication with others, especially women. Then I had a Fear around how my friend reached out to me, in what manner he chose to do so and as I did Hannah started playing the piano with him and while it was beautiful to hear, I could also see how much my friend was enjoying playing with her and I had the fear that he is only coming back into my life, to try and assuage my partner away from me in someway.

I slowed down and breathed, smiled at them both playing, picked up my guitar and joined in, enjoying the beautiful sound and while my guitar additions were rhythmically in unison, my experience was not, I was discordant comparing/competing and getting jealous of the fact that my friend is making such a beautiful sound with my partner judging myself for not doing more activities with my partner. That fear of loss came up of what if I can't make music with her like that, will I lose her? Will she a prefer a man whose musical taste/skills can fit more easily to hers than mine etc etc.

My partner is soft spoken and so is my friend but there were little moments over the next day where I see my friend communicates even more gently with my partner in comparison to me and I have never had any man stay round our house for multiple days so I had to check myself. 

Ultimately any backchat/emotional experience of Jealousy in the conscious/subconscious mind is going to be based on/maintained by how I have gone and defined certain words in the depths of the mind, as well as comparison and self-judgment. Let's look at words like: Beautiful, Delicate, Strong, Confident, Attractive - you see how I was saying in my backchat/jealousy "Oh I'm never going to play piano as Beautifully as that, I'm a Beast" or how my friend many times has thought to himself "I will never be as Strong, Confident, Attractive as Marley" in his jealousy to me. You see how we are both fucking ourselves with that?

When these kind of words are spoken/something generally defined through that word comes up in our world we often immediately get activated where these images in our head regarding how I have defined words like beautiful, delicate as an example to be only related to certain external talents/fitting image that beautiful and delicate has to consist of things like attractive women like my partner, or great piano playing like my friend and I don't apparently meet the standards.

Then I see how my friend will compare his external physical appearance to my own and get jealousy come up based on my physical appearance looking closer to the images/pictures he has defined to be beautiful based on what he has seen in films, media, in society all his life as the idea of beauty which becomes a worsening focus overtime - the more we preoccupy ourselves with our external appearance, the more we focus on that in our external world meaning inevitable comparisons/jealousy/self-judgment/blame with those more in alignment to what society says is beautiful -

Yet I have done exactly the same point around Pianos and partnership activities, getting jealous of my friends piano talents, that he can be so delicate, that he looks more like the idea of a "Piano player" in the system/my mind which according to my idea is some "intelligent looking white guy" like my friend, not a mixed race guy like me, getting jealous/comparing how he can create such beautiful music with my partner, that I am too callous, assertive, shrewd, metal, bestial and direct to play piano like that.

Me and my friend spoke about this all at length over the past few days and did a few self-forgiveness statements together because what is crucial for me and my friend now is that we both correct the jealousy experiences we have had towards each other. When I am around people, watching a film, reading an article anywhere and a moment of comparison comes up I immediately stop, breathe, say a self-forgiveness statement to myself out loud, to change myself in the moment going from comparing external appearances/skills to seeing what I can Learn from another through observation, seeing realising and understanding that this is an individual living Human being expressing themselves through words/behaviour/clothing and nothing more - It is clear that the moment we start comparing in anyway, we stop seeing the person as life, as another as our self but rather start defining them as competition to fight with, using the person in self-interest to fuel our own fucked up problems with comparison and jealousy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience Jealousy towards my friend playing piano beautifully and then playing beautifully with my partner.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to Truly understand the extent to which I have lived comparison, where I compare my appearance, skills, words - to pictures, memories, fantasies of what the global system deems in alignment with words like Beautiful, Delicate etc. Not seeing within this that I am accepting this global system to maintain as such and through my own limitation in allowance making Beautiful "Having to Have these traits" and seeing that I don't have all those traits so I reacted in Jealousy in a petulant manner for not meeting the "systems standards" in these ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand what dimensions of comparison/jealousy still exist in me, to not be clear on what type of person this shit creates, where I lost awareness through possession of/as the definitions of words like beautiful and delicate. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that whenever I am Jealous/Comparing/Self-Judging I am In this world and completely Of this world, where my Living impetus is merely keeping the Status Quo in place of Humans accepting themselves as limitation in energy/consciousness/mind - I have realised that it is always best for all when it comes to the pre-programmed mind/changing relationships/implementing living change to be In this world not Of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my friend wants to try and manipulate my partner away from me, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my partner will leave me to be with someone who she can make more music with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience jealousy based on comparing how my friend speaks to my partner as opposed to me without awareness, that how another speaks is not something I can change in my responsibility, yet remaining stable no matter what in any situation is my responsibility to change and live as the totality of Me as Life in Self-Honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold a belief that a skilled pianist has to be a white and intelligent looking man or an attractive woman in complete separation from myself not seeing that a skill is just that, which is something anyone can integrate if they have the time, resources, vocabulary and will to do so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Judge myself for not "doing enough activities" with my partner based on me accepting comparing myself to the definition/belief society places on "happy couples" that are always doing loads of things together.  I realise me and my partner are walking in an agreement to support each other as the physical so this self-judgment is not in alignment with that, so I stop. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I would be a "better partner" if I could play piano with her, when in reality while it would likely be cool to start playing piano with my partner - the amount of and doing external activities with my partner is never the point it is who I am within it and making sure that I am supporting my partner physically, unconditionally in every way to be her best Self is more important than aligning every skill.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to end this possessive nature of comparison and jealousy within myself that I have created in my head through allowance of rigid limited definitions of words like beautiful, delicate as having to be connected to images/memories/fantasies/films based on certain external appearance/skills as Limitation.

I commit myself to when and as I see comparison coming up in my mind based on appearance and any jealousy emotions come up - I stop and breathe I do not allow myself to participate as I know that if I do I am preoccupying myself/maintaining limited things - rather I am committing to Self-Discovery to learn about and expand myself in this world as a Real Physical Being that can be trusted in Every way as a Living example of whats Best for All.

I commit myself to stop any Self-Judgment, to stop bullying/attacking myself  in thought as the Mind and to stabilise Here as Breath, to just anchor/hold myself as this Physical Body Here to be assertive yet gentle with myself as Life. 

I commit myself to living the realisation that whenever I participate in emotions like Jealousy/Comparison I only get myself worked up into a neuroses which only benefits my pre-programming/system of capitalism where I appease the emotion through spending money and time on things that do not matter in matter - Instead I direct my time/energy/focus on Self to becoming the Best version of myself overtime through measurable lived application.

I commit myself to show that the beauty industries in this world as they have been accepted and allowed to exist as accumulating separation can only have a consequence of accumulating separation unless we redefine what Beauty is Here as Life. 

Day 471: World War Roots

I keep hearing things about the increasing Ukrainian disputes with Russia as a possible starting point of WW3, this being based on the extensive blames between a few factions, yet I contest that there is a myriad of locations globally that can spark a global war conflict - because where does war come from? Not a location and while Religion/State is crucial it comes from the Human, or rather the pre-programming roots we Humans allow/do not change that embraces feeling good in self-interest, fighting to survive in the experiences of the mind ahead of whats best for all Life - 

we have been in a worsening state of war especially in the past one hundred years and so within this point it becomes clear that WW3 is not going to be a set event or day, it is something we are living out in each moment we exist at war with ourselves unless we stop. We even have a money system based on debt which can only result in Survival, Inequality and War, then all those weapons of wars and the resources stolen makes a lot more money in an ongoing cycle.

I have taken Self-Responsibility in my life to remove War from myself for many years, which has been effective in my living to get to this moment to be able to write this blog and while I am thankful for the changes I have made in these respects - I still see these moments where there is reactions, these emotions not dealt with where I will look for an excuse to have conflict with those around me in a kind of shouting match.

It's these moments sometimes where I see someone getting irritated/angry/stressed around me and justifying it that I can react, knowing in Self-Honesty that I have moments of getting angry/blaming with myself/the world and I then judge myself extensively when I get angry/blame, that I am not standing absolute, that I easily then project that and start judging/attacking the person I see trying to defend their annoyances/blames.

Then If I do not deal with this reaction, I then go into this silent passive "I don't want to talk to you" state where I start getting backchat of - how can I get away from this person/situation? It's so hardwired into me to cause some form of emotional outburst with the person justifying not taking responsibility, to offend them in a righteous, crude, spiteful, aggressive manner which can then spiral into anyone who is around me as "me against the world" if nobody "stands in my annoyed corner" with me. Not very responsible Marley.

I am not willing to allow myself to be the starting point of war in this world so I keep walking until there is no more war here in any moment -

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see/realise and understand that I have become the roots of all war in this physical world between nations because I have accepted and allowed myself to be in a state of war with all nations within myself where I purposely look to experience energy/money/resources through friction of two points and because this is how I have existed in substance I validate the existence of war in this physical world equal and one to how I have validated my war towards myself where I can stay in the energy of the survival experience in separation from physical reality which I do not allow myself to continue.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that I am the root of war in this world and only when I am not in war as divided pieces will I ever truly be at peace with myself as a peaceful world as whats best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in war as thought where I fight to keep my ideas of myself in place, fight for my right to my righteous opinion not realising that this conflict I have defined myself through results in a world of war as the actual material of society.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the system of Money we have based on debt while our planet gives for free, can obviously only result in a mind system developing based in limiting/owing/owning whats here through survival and inequality which of course will cause inner conflict and outward War because resources are valued/hoarded among the most mindful groups ahead of  Equally valuing All Life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that raising my voice in emotion does not get my point across clearer at all, completely the opposite in fact and generally never supports me or the person I'm shouting at thus I must stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sometimes react in a defensive way when someone is reacting to things I think I understand better, challenging my word, or seemingly to my mind being overbearing in a situation in the same way that my mind will defend its overbearing position of hubris to always know whats best for me where the survival of war maintains ahead of whats best for all where all war is transcended.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sometimes believe that I am justified in getting annoyed with someone who shows me unresolved parts of myself that I do not like historically as projection, when in self-honesty anytime someone is reacting and I react to that, this person is actually always doing me a favour, supporting me to bring the point back to self/investigate/realise/correct my living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to many times justify my reaction of indignation to someone or something through using the past by saying "I am so much better than I used to be" this idea that the abuse I said to that person was ok because I didn't do it as horribly as I would have 15 years ago, where growth here is always then limited on the point because here is always "compared to the past" as the mind where I can always move the goal post/abdicate responsibility by saying "still better than I used to be" when in reality no abuse is ever less/more justified no matter the perceived scale.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to re-animate the ghosts of past human wars in any moment I allow myself to fight with myself and those around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even for a moment go into "me against the world" thoughts where I start defending myself/attacking people in a rhetorically euphemistic/harsh way. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise in each here moment that World War 3 is not a date, location or certain conflict, it is in every moment that the human is living in a state of accumulating survival, for accumulating conflict for accumulating energy in a vicious endless cycle, 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that while congratulating self for self's development in one respect is cool, it can only go to a certain point because it can never can justify where I am not standing absolute and process is not a tiered system of levels of Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that our idea of Heaven is populated/based on/maintained by horrific Wars where as Heaven on Earth in Physical Living action is a world where War does not hide behind a Light or exist in any form within or without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am doing a person a favour by verbally berating them when they keep feeding into the mind - without considering someone like my partner Hannah who never shouts at me, never shouts at anybody and despite me deceiving myself into believing that I do like it when people shout at me indignantly, I actually do not in Self-Honesty, nobody does so why would I do it to someone else? Not acceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to often condemn war in one breath, especially when its another doing it - while justifying it in the next breath for myself/my principles in a zealot like manner which is not actually Equality and Oneness as a Living example it is continuation of the separation of War on Earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use war tactics to get out of some situations, where I close my ears, start pulling out pins, communicating effectively goes out the window ahead of creating explosions to make "the enemy" run for cover which is bullshit I should not still be doing in any situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire and fear war, to love and hate war when it suits me, to define it as good and bad in a myriad of situations as my self-defined relationship where war is a polarity constantly creating friction as energy where the war continues to survive until I take Self-Responsibility to stop the Rings of Power in Every Breath. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through how many "successful conflicts" I have had without awareness, that conflicts never creates education to whats best in anyway as Humanities history proves, it only continues the past of accumulating warlike organic robots.

I commit myself to ending all wars against me as all Life as I live the realisation that it is only ever I against I in my pre-programming and only by being at peace with myself as facing all of my pieces of bullshit can a world that is best for all emerge as real peace.

I commit myself to through self-writing/forgiveness/correction stop the Energy that has become consciousness/the mind as the system that keeps my relationship of positive/neutral/negative towards everything of me to create energy through Friction/War.

I commit myself to through stopping this warlike living, redefine my living into and as equality and oneness with myself and overtime with all.

I commit myself to show that stopping all wars in this reality starts with each one and can be completed if we Will each part of this reality as the entirety of our self with the same ecumenical resonant sound as the starting point of standing as living examples of equality and oneness where Heaven on Earth becomes tangible and we can finally say we have transcended our World War Roots.

Day 470: Stopping Accumulating Rings

I am writing this blog with two rings on, one is mine and one is my partners, she left it here when she was last here accidentally, I smiled as I put it on and it fit on my little finger, I proclaimed in jest to myself Lord of the Rings! Then I paused and considered a recording Bernard made years ago called “Imagine no rings of power” which I suggest people listen to if they haven’t as with any of Bernard's recordings through the years. 

There is a myriad of considerations to take from this recording and Bernard does a great job here distilling the overarching point that we are all a result of these rings of memory that accumulate over time through sound and choice, where our parents were taught and then in turn taught us that what is best for all is bad and whats best for me is good, which then develops into a being who is full of thousands of derivative sub choices that are best for self, which creates a human as a walking symbol resonating the continuation of the rings of power of human consciousness and capitalism as we have existed where only a small group have all the resources and majority have none. 

This as we will give an example of shortly is why when we start to work out how things work in sound meaning, the effect every word as a pocket of sound has, that everyone has a resonance an effect on others based on the words/memories built into the body. Which is how we carry our self as the history of our self a certain overarching sound of me that others form a judgment about - this is why when you are a person who is comprised of a resonance that is a threat to the cycles of the rings of power as they currently exist as any destonian or insightful human is, you will find yourself being attacked in many situations purely on the words you speak and how you speak them regardless of the point you are making being valid - because the person is being hit with a sound that they know means they would have to give up their rings of power and take self-responsibility to change in ways that's best which nobody was taught we should do in childhood. I have had these situations happen so often and my partner has as well, yet again as Benrand highlights in this video as homeopathy proves like cures like, so a certain sound in one pushes/ reverberates/synchronizes with the same sound in another - so a sound that is best for all in one will motivate another to walk as that same sound over time. 

Also how deeply a memory has been implanted into a persons living creates a louder sound overtime as more memories form on top of other memories which is how Humanity has become more destructive overtime as these accumulating rings of power. That all Fear is based on the memory of harm, yet in an equal money system we forgive the history of harm, we create new memories that are best for all life as the foundation of our self, new rings based on the actual understanding that if I consistently support life, if we support each other unconditionally to be our best self, that trust will develop and then a true understanding of real freedom and the true meaning of life will emerge - to be born into this world, then as we become a living example of the lie as the rings of power, we then must walk a process of rebirth, to be born again as life to live the realisation that only when we live as life do we have a right to life and then if we choose to have children with an analogous partner in this principle that this resonance will be stronger in the seeded understanding of the child and will grow to become an even stronger resonant force of rings that are best for all life in this world.

I opened a news app this morning which also reminded me of these rings because out of one page with 24 stories on the "all news" tab, 11 of the stories were about the Novak Djokovic's vaccine status situation. Can you imagine a famous tennis player taking up majority of a newspapers stories in the 1950's? No - what was fascinating while reading it was how seriously and personally offended some government officials and tennis fans in some countries were talking about this in the comments, it was as if their own close family member was being lynched in the street and that this is the epitome of tyrannical government rule in today's world. I reached out in some comments to only receive a backlash of defense for Novak. Government officials threatening officials from other countries with serious fines/imprisonment even war like comment suggestions over a famous tennis players rights, fans protesting/fighting with police over a famous tennis players rights being subverted in someway. Can you think of any famous tennis player fifty years ago having this kind of reverence/focus/intense support? I can't.

I've noticed the scale of these things happening more over time like accumulating rings, people like to say that people are more "equal minded" nowadays but in physical reality I do not see this playing out because if you look just at the point of how often and how passionately people speak about celebrities/ famous personalities nowadays compared to the past. Look at the fans of Marilyn Monroe in the 1960's then see how Michael Jackson had even more zealot like fans, then as time went on and the rings kept accumulating you see how the likes of Brittany Spears where so many fans even took to taking legal action on behalf of Brittany's rights where so many humans get so concerned about the well being of this person because of the feelings we get from them. Or look at how someone famous from the 1700's even like a Mozart has way more fans now then he did at the time, so you can see that the sound produced by these rings grows larger over time if not disconnected. Lord of the Rings has gotten more and more popular over time hasn't it, all these accumulating rings.  Amazing how Humanity has used the internet so well to strengthen our rings of power through entertaining ourselves instead of using it effectively to unify into a single sound that is best for all life in all countries when teh internet affords us the opportunity to do so.

I mean what does it say about us as a species that so many humans within our governments and society generally care to talk more nowadays about if the rights of a super wealthy tennis player to hit a ball in a certain country have been infringed, ahead of discussing as an example innocent children and animals that die everyday due to starvation?  There was not a single story about starvation in the feed at all when we have more issues of poverty in today's world than ever before due to these accumulating rings again which the global Coronavirus lockdown underlines.

It was one of these moments I get in Life sometimes since walking my process where I stop, I reread what I read at least a few times to check that the level of bullshit I am looking at is actually really happening/being justified. Anyone who has walked with the Desteni group for a prolonged period of time will know that this is a consequence of process, because so often when you look inside yourself at the design of your thoughts in Self-Honesty you often have these moments where you stop and say to yourself “oh fuck am I really thinking that? Jesus that is so fucked.” Its like you get surprised by how corrupt you have allowed yourself to be and become that you have to recheck with many points you find the root of, like a rubbing the eyes to check that what you are seeing is real, that you could really of been allowing such abhorrent behavior in thought, you get used to exposing the deepest seeds of corruption of yourself so much, seeing time and time again that everything you have believed is a lie and thus you start seeing the same in friends/family/politics/global society you literally start seeing the separation in everything we humans allow, which can initially seem rather overwhelming/shocking/disappointing in moments constantly seeing the same corruption in everything, yet this process becomes natural overtime. 

This Djokovic story really shows how disconnected from the world the majority have become, that the rings of power have been getting stronger over time where we choose to rather live in this Hollywood reality in the Mind where we can choose to treat some people better than others from the A-list through to the Z list based on how much money the person has and what entertaining feelings they give us. As I said earlier with the accumulated zealotry of celebrities fans you can see how since the inception of the hollywood film system in the past few hundred years has accumulated the rings of power regarding how we treat certain humans better than others, honing and sharpening this point over time taking the Ego to new super hero heights, so fucked up.

Can you imagine saying that to a starving child? I’m sorry the reason you have no food everyday is because all the adults have for aeons of time been accepting these selfish little rings to an increasing degree, where they feel that you as a starving child don’t produce enough money to pay attention to and thus you don’t generate enough energy, so you don’t make them feel good enough to be worth talking about/helping effectively which is how they choose what to see of what's here, they only see what makes them feel good despite you being the real consequential being with many others who has to suffer for this - then whenever they do look for a split second at you, they feel so bad/guilty about the fact they have been disregarding you, so they decide instead to not look any further but just put a few pound in a privately run royal charity once a month that makes it worse and then they see that there job has been done because they feel better now most importantly, even though your stomach is still not full and essentially now they can justify ignoring you to themselves again, to keep you invisible in mainstream/family conversation instead of formulating/creating/living solutions to stop situations like yours ever happening again.

There is so much complaining about tyranny that effects those of us in the elite, when in reality this lock down and everything to do with it has been imposed on those who do not have money for a long time before the Coronavirus lock downs began globally a few years ago as the rings of power have simply increased the harmful consequences on those who did not have in the first place.  Can you imagine no Rings of Power? I can we have to create ourselves as Rings that fit for everybody, through living in ways that measurably show outflows that are beneficial to all life, where there is only One Ring of Life on Earth - 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every here breath that me and everything of this world has all been designed as rings of power, where the real me as life does not exist because I am purely existing as an implanted accumulated generational memory that what is best for all is bad and what is best for me is good as a transmitter/cog in the global systems ring of power over life where life is harmed in silence and not considered a responsibility to correct.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to maintain the rings of power over life on earth without awareness anytime I relive memories based in self-interest and do not take self-responsibility to build words into my living that create a sound effect as a resonance of me that is best for all life in all moments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider with every step I walk that no matter how bad we in the elite feel when our sports games and entertainment is blocked for a moment, we have no right to complain while there is one child that starved to death on any day in any world we are on together due to rings of power we allow inherently - in fact this should be the main story on every news feed until it is corrected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that without intervention as Me standing up in Self-Honest Self-Responsibility and saying till here no further, I am the single ring of Life in all my decision making, the rings of power automatically will play out in me and all humans.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to not understand that anyone who lives as a resonance that is a threat to the system of the rings of power, will be attacked to increasing degrees as destonians and any similar humans have all experienced before.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that anytime I believe/imply things are getting better in this world when majority of humans still live through the rings of power I am deceiving myself because it is only when theses rings are ended and a new ring of life is the direct principle of each one will we have a world that is actually better as whats best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that as these rings of power have accumulated in size and energy overtime in humanity that the world we live in today has more separation than ever before, more justifications to take our experiences in the mind to new technological heights which is why it it is now more important then ever before that the few that can still hear life stand in solidarity and certainty of what we take self-responsibility to walk as Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to many times in life trap myself in my self-interest as a Lord of the Rings through cycles that conjure the illusion of eternity and stay in these cycles as a matrix clone surrogate trapped in his special heaven simulating pod never truly tasting the air and breathing with his real lungs as long as I allow my Dishonesty, yet when I face my Dishonesty and Stop playing the lord of the rings I can make a Ring of me that is based in this Reality and that supports all others to resonantly also create a better ring that includes each one equally.   

I commit myself to showing that the rings of power on earth as accumulated memories where whats best for all is considered evil have caused nothing but destruction and thus must be pulled apart.

I commit myself to showing that only what is best for all is Real Benevolence and nothing else.

I commit myself to exposing that all Fear is based on the cycles of memory as the rings of power, memories of harm forever trying to protect itself.

I commit myself to continue building/perfecting/living a ring as me that is beneficial to all life on earth in the understanding that if we look after each other, Real Trust and Real All inclusive Freedom can emerge highlighting that no freedom is real in this world because so many do not have access to this freedom currently.

I commit myself to living the realisation that while people like me who are a threat to the rings of power are attacked, that the homeopathic like cures like principle actually shows that no matter how much people react to us we should be emboldened knowing that my effect as the words as me that vibrate the world around me in ways that are best will support a person to walk as this sound with me equally at some point.