Dont you just love Dancing?

So dancing is something that has been around for a long time, I’m not really sure how long, but I’m pretty sure it’s been thousands of years. Now when i had a track on in the car a few days ago which was Tears for Fears - Everybody wants to rule the world, my mum reacted in elation that i had put this track on a CD, and she does every time she hears a track on one of my CDs that she affirms with herself in her memory. Now i always have a wide variety of music tracks on CDs i make, as well as various audio clips of Bernard, Sunette and other destonians chucked in between tracks. 

Anyway what i found interesting about my mums reaction to this track is that she started dancing a "specific dance" that she tells me everyone did back in the day to the track, kind of like a trademark dance that goes with the track. I mean there is a lot of tracks where you can see that this is clear, nearly every track in all genres of music tends to have a specific type of dancing that we must apparently adhere to, otherwise it is seen that we are not connecting to the track as well as someone who is doing the specific dance along the system rules.

And when we look further at music from a wider perspective, it is clear to see that we humans tend to put systematic rules and laws on how you must dance to a specific track in order to be considered acceptable in the social circles we find ourselves in. I mean I can recall so many times in the past in my memory where I have been at a party or out in a club, and people have begun ridiculing someone just because they are not doing the specific dance of the track, the Macarena specifically I remember girls laughing in a spiteful manner at any girl who was not able to do this dance to a tea. Fascinating – we are so intensely programmed, which is proven in our ridiculing of those who are not matching the code for acceptable dancing so to speak, which also exposes how the system ridicules something that is different, ridicules those that make a stand to stop and change the rules of the system. I mean this is why 99% of all my friends from the past fear me, because they fear what I do with desteni, they are within that of course only affirming to me that they were only ever friends with a picture of me as my personality not actual real friends, and that I am in fact changing, they never call me anymore which is definitely best for all, because they know what they are going to get – a being who is not willing to accept the system rules, not willing to accept pre-programming as what is accepted and allowed. 

Anyway so this point of dancing is interesting, because when I look back in my memory, some ex partners I have had, and various friends especially females that were dancers went to dance school, or dance lessons of some sort. What is interesting within that is that the system only teaches dancing as a form of regurgitating what has already been done billions of times over, because it is profitable, only teaching what was successful in the past to make money. It is all about money which is totally unacceptable, that kids are being taught how to match a famous persons dance moves in order to keep the system running along the lines of separation, turning dancing into a profit based monstrosity. Parents know the money that is involved in music/dancing and so they say to their kids – “go on be a famous dancer, be like Shakira or Usher” which then brings up the whole point, that If there was no money in dancing who would be still doing it? A lot would not be doing it I can ensure you, especially exploitation of women as within stripping/pole dancing industry - I know for a fact from females I know that are involved in the industry, one very closely, that if it were not for the money, then they would not be a stripper as simple as that – obvious isn’t it, this system of capitalism, elitism only breeds exploitative abuse of any and all beings that don’t have money.   

I do not accept and allow this, it is totally unacceptable, and I think it’s fascinating to note how the dancing industry would change in an equal money system. I can see that immediately it would expose who really actually enjoys dancing, or who was only ever in it for money. Also I can see the government would be promoting Self-Expression in dance, not the reliving of memory as other peoples dance moves, and apparent “trademark” dance moves to specific tracks. Competition would be removed also, because it is clear in this current system that we humans deem it acceptable to for two people to have “dance battles” where the whole point is to beat your opponent. This is totally unacceptable, which is why in an equal money all forms of competing through dance as a big money maker would be banned by the government, because it promotes separation which is not acceptable – at the end of the day dancing is supposed to be actual fun, not war games. So the government would make sure that is clear that dancing has no rules, no limitations, that it is to be a point of actual enjoyment, of self-expressing self as physical movement unconditionally – not attempting to press repeat on the systematic dance, as a form of getting attention, dancing for others not dancing for self. And everyone would obviously have the equal opportunity to be a professional dancer, because dance school fees would be paid for by the government, and these schools would be promoting and training kids to express themselves unconditionally within dance. Also in an equal money system the exploitation of women as is seen in the dance/stripper/pole dancing industries would be completely outlawed and banned with immediate effect, because it is unacceptable objectification of women as sexual objects, which in fact is utter bullshit, because women are beings like anyone else, not objects placed for men’s sordid sexual gratifications in dancing. 

So whenever I dance to a track, I check myself for reactions in self-honesty. Check that I am doing the dancing unconditionally for me as myself as life, and no other reason. That I am moving myself physically, expressing myself as me, and that I am not attempting to compete with another, or impress another, that I am not replaying systematic “trademark” dancing of the specific track or music, but rather that I move my body in equality with the sound resonance of the track, that I am enjoying expressing myself here as the physical where there is no limitations and separations from the music track can exist.

Renewable Energy in an Equal Money System

So doing the job i do, i am often becoming aware of new more efficient forms of sustainable renewable energy, which the company i work for will have in stock, or the point will come up during discussions with various engineers, electricians, installers, scientists. And what has come to my attention in the last few years is that the technology has long been available for all people to generate their own electric/central heating/hot water and thus, interms of fuelling the house to be a dignified comfortable place of residence, we can be fully self sufficient through utilizing effective: Solar, Heat-pumps/Geothermal energy, rain water systems, wind turbines, Biofuels, and Hydro power.

Now obviously the problem here is what we have accepted and allowed to exist here as this capitalist money system which ensures that most people are not able to afford such renewable technology. The technology is best for all, as it promotes Equality, working with the planets elements unconditionally, however it is this money system in between that makes renewable energy unaffordable. Everyday in my job, i require to lie to a being, which does not define me of course, but many will ask me the price of Solar panel installations, and i will basically "play ignorant" rarely giving the person a price, because i know that most people walk away once you tell them the price, which in England is between £4-7000 for a thermal solar system, and between £9-18,000 for a mono crystalline-photo voltaic solar system, and nearly twice that for a photo voltaic solar-roof tile system, so it is clear that the majority of people that can afford to have these kind of renewable systems currently are those that are not even concerned with their energy bills because these beings have so much money, which is totally unacceptable.

Now according to members of Zeitgeist and Venus project societies, there is a belief that renewable technology, and technology in general will be some kind of a saviour for humanity, which when we look at that belief in common sense, it is clear that this statement is deception, and that renewable technology is in no way a saviour. Because although there would be "super technology cities" it would still be subject to an unequal capitalist system, so just as it is now, only "the best could afford the best"
basically only the rich elite would be able to afford to live in these "super cities" that the venus project claims. Meanwhile those that couldnt afford to live in these "super cities" would be cast out, and would be scrounging for a way to work into the "super cities" by doing labour for little to no pay, similar to people who do gold/diamond mining for 16 hours+ a day. Trying to get what scraps they could in order to survive, and as it is now, these people would be seen by the system as "dirty", "terrorists", "threats" and "criminals" that could potentially harm the image of "peace" in the technology cities, meanwhile the real criminals at the top of the money system would stiil be accumulating all the profits at the expense of life.

So the venus project is not a solution thats best for all, becuase it is clear that we require an Equal Money System before we can focus on creating these kind of "technology super cities" but even then, relying on machine to do all the daily tasks in our lives is seen in the venus project to be some kind of "harmony", but in actual fact it is clear that is deception, and is not practical, as it encourages humans to get lost in the comforts of the mind and energy, because it takes us away from the physical, away from that which we really are, from participating with whats here with our own hands, away from whats reality, and instead promotes laziness and a false image of harmony being based around doing nothing and letting machines do it all.

In an equal money system technology will be created that promotes physicality, working in unison with whats here, as is seen with renewable technology where solar panels for instance, work in equality with the sun or daylight, in order to create something that is best for all such as electricity or hot water, which we all require in our houses in order to have a dignified life. After an Equal Money System is installed by the Equal Life Foundation, all homes and businesses worldwide will day by day be installed with all the various renewable systems for free, and any new built buildings will have these systems incorporated in the design during building for free. Also certain houses will have more renewable systems of a certain variety then others depending on the location of the property - for instance a house that is situated on a high altitude like a mountain or hill somewhere would have more wind turbines installed, because its common sense they will have much more wind then a property that is on a low altitude.

Obviously it will take alot of labour, and It would take some time to install renewable systems on all buildings worldwide, anything from 2- 10 years i would estimate, but this would create alot of jobs for people, as installers of renewable systems would be in high demand, and so the necessary training would be provided to anybody that wanted to do it for free - so renewable technology is in no way a "saviour" for humanity, as the only savoiur of this world can and must be humans uniting and standing up for whats best for all, directing politics to a system of Equality through an Equal Money System. However renewable technology is relevant, and will become a part of daily life in a Equal Money System, because it is technology that promotes Equality working with whats Here as the planets elements unconditionally, and generating an outcome thats best for all for free.   

Dragon Ninja Personality Possession

So i have seen fragments of this personality before, and yesterday night when i was watching a few vlogs and doing some reading, my window was open and it was a bit cold so i decided to put a top on, and as i got up i could see that my hoody was in arms reach, but as i looked round i saw my dragon design dressing gown on the other side of the room, and i reacted with a thought "that would be better" then as i was going to get the dressing gown i stopped and smiled because i could see that i am clearly placing more value on this dressing gown then on my hoody that was closer. I noted down this point down because my starting point is not clear here, because through directing myself in self honesty in the moment, i would not have placed any value on any clothing garment as more or less then any other, becuase in actuality it is all just here supporting me in showing me weather or not i am directing myself within and as self honest thought and action as i am as life, or weather i am simply adhereing to pre-programming -  and this is definite pre-programming so looking at various components here, and the direction of myself as myself within and as these layers to release the point.

So the value that i place on this dressing gown i can see is because it has the design of a dragon on the back of it, and that i have defined myself as a dragon, the dragon i have defined in my mind as powerful, mysterious and wise, thus i have defined myself as powerful, mysterious and wise through the mind in total separation of myself. I remember when i was a kid about 12 i built up a strong attatchment in my mind to Bruce Lee from the moment i first saw one of his films, which manifested in me collecting all of his films, and having a big poster on my wall of him - Bruce Lee was also defined as "The Dragon" and through  viewing his martial arts moves and defining them as cool, and then the desire to be cool, from that i built up a narcassistic desire to be like Bruce Lee in someway, so it was through my mind possession at a young age with martial arts and Bruce Lee, that i began to revere the Dragon as something that i believed to be more then me, defining myself as less then the dragon in separation of myself and that i must attempt to become poweful, mysterious and wise like the dragon, thus believing that i must attempt to become the dragon through immitating a human that is defined as the dragon. So still to this day whenever i see a picture of a dragon, i react as a picture in my mind of Bruce Lee that comes up separating me from what i am experiencing here.

Also my dressing gown is black, and my hoody is blue and i notice that i have placed value on the colour black as manifests in my choice of colour clothing i wear which is usually black. And one definition that i have accepted and allowed to acumulate in relation to the colour black is a connection to the ninja, a picture in my mind of being a ninja, which i define as - a being that is in all black clothing that is able to move in the night without a sound utlizing precise martial arts and swift placement of body movement to ensure silence and stealth in completing a specific "operation". And then noticing how this definition of myself according to the mind manifests through me consciously focusing on remaining "silent" and "precise" in my body movements to ensure nobody hears me while i am completing tasks, and sometimes i am not aware at first what i am doing -
For example when am in mine or anyone elses house, and its gets late, once i become aware that other people in the building are asleep i will automatically go into "ninja mode" personality lol, without being aware of it i just automatically start being as silent as possible in my movements to avoid alerting and waking anybody up, if i want to go to the toilet for example, every step slowly rolled on the edges of each foot, never turning a light from fear of exposure, and from an ego self-definition point of "my eyesight and senses are amazing at night, i dont need any lights to see, im a ninja" every door opened and closed in slow motion fearing noise, pissing on the porcelain basin on the inside of the toilet instead of directly into the water again out of avoiding/fearing noise, purposely not flushing the toilet or turning on any taps, always in socks and "quiet clothing" only, fearing waking people up - every movement in fear, in separation of myself, totally unaware of what im allowing by supporting and maintaining this personality, which is fear:
that is not helpful for anybody, its certainly not supportive for me to accept and allow and participate in a point that is based on dishonesty, it is not self support in standing and expressing myself in self honesty here as the physical in all moments, in fact, it only feeds the mind consciousness system enslaving myself further into alternate realities of pre-preogrammed mind. Also i can see that i justify my self defintion as a "ninja" through telling myself that i must hold onto this point of becoming the ninja at night, because it has been effective at various points in my life at not alerting people so that i can get a benefit from a situation through being silent in self interest, and gain more ego that im good at being stealthy to justify continuing this "ninja personality". For example when i used to participate in criminal activity in a gang, i remember alot of memories of getting away with a crime through shifting into and as this "ninja personality" in a moment to avoiding being seen to complete the crime, very often wearing mask and gloves, no matter if it was robbing a drug dealer, hiding from police, selling drugs, talking with an enemy on the phone or whatever, my focus would always be on being "invisible" so i can have a position of power over another as being "unseen" so that i can strike first and win by being unoticed and baffling my opponent with my mysteriousness lol - i just remebered how i was deconstructing this point in my last itd assignment, the point of being "invisible" to spy on people, so this "ninja personality" actually relates also to much further back in my memory playing hide and seek as a child, fascinating. Also for example from the fact that both my mum and my son, especially my mum are very light sleepers, so again i justify the "ninja personality" within me as "supportive" in not waking them up when in actual fact i am possessed by the point so it is not supportive in anyway for me becuase it only supports fear, i mean its common sense to consider and respect other peoples sleep patterns equal as our own by not purposely creating alot of noise, but to allow it to generate fear within me is unacceptable separation of myself.

Also ninja is defined according to death, and i have always had the point of finding anything related to death to be cool from the perspective of investigation of death, whats in the afterlife and preparation for death, i remeber being a kid and finding it fascinating the first time i found out that most ninjas in shogunate eido Japan used to meditate on death once a day in preparation for it, and to avoid being captured by an enemy they would rather commit harakiri, which is just ritualistic suicide. Was one of the first kind of fanatical beliefs i came across as a youngster that i seemed to immmediately resonate and connect with, which i have held onto as having some kind of value more then myself as life, which is not actually real, it only becomes real from my physical participation in the point. So i must stop. I can remember being in awe at the self disciplined will of these ninjas to have the balls to be ready to be killed or kill themselves at any moment, to die for a sepcific belief. Then i see in my life how in the past i have accepted that belief for myself, that i must focus on death like the ninja, i must be ready to jump into the unknown the moment it is required, i must prepare for the inevitable, i must embrace death, and be prepared to die for a cause, idea or belief, and in this focus on death, actually defining and limiting myself according to knowledge and information sepearating me from what is here as breathe through participating in this personality as the mind consciousness system . So another example here of more layers of value i placed on this "ninja personality", and its really fascinating looking at all these points, because it is required to be done to face my brainwashing fully, so that i am able to brain-wash my-self to be self honest in any moment, to release any brainwashing that doesnt support oneness and equality, which this "ninja personality" certainly doesnt.

Then also after learning this knowledge about ninjas, i started becoming more of a floater around different social groups at school, defining myself as a "misunderstood lone wolf" and that im ready to train myself to prepare for death, accumulating more useless knowledge that i didnt know how to practically apply on Buddhism, Shintoism, and Taoism, and any items that are based around "mysticsm" and Asia, which is where the idea to name one of my email adresses "mysterymist" came from, its was from this definition of secretly defining myself as a "mystic ninja light warrior", and afterall nobody fucks with a "mystic ninja light warrior" lol, like a security blanket for my own insecurities placing myself as less then, as a slave to "mystic" things separating myself from what is here within and as individuality, at the time experiencing myself as being proud of my separation.    

Then all the hundreds of films i have seen through the years, and whenever a ninja is portrayed in a film i start reacting, as being "extra interested", ready to judge the portrayal of the ninja as "good enough" or "not good enough" according to my opinion, desiring to be the ninja portayed, accepting myself as being equal as these ninja characters, building more layers onto this self definition personality of me being a "ninja".

then looking at how this "ninja personality" has been exposed for the limited little piece of consciousness it is so many times in my life, such as being caught by police, waking up my son and mum sometimes by bumping into a door being a "clumsy ninja" in a moment, being spotted by people i haved spied on, despite focusing on being "invisible" because it is actually impossible to hide from what is here as what i have accepted and allowed, but by feeding into this personality, i am feeding into a belief that it is possible somehow to be "invisible", when infact it is clearly not.in this focus on being "invisible" i am actaully feeding into my pre programmed mind consciousness system, and i find that obviously while existing within and as this personality, there is only dishonesty that is the starting point and that is produced from what i do as the "ninja personality" that i am unable to be physically here practically in the totality of the I Am as Life -
So this must be stopped now, i must be sepcific and map out all the points in total brutual self-honesty to be fully aware of myself, and release any pictures, memories, words that i use to justify existing as this personality as the mind consciousness system. i direct me, i am responsible for me, i will not allow myself to be defined and limited according to and through this personality which only feeds separation as the mind. I am here in self-honesty as this breathe, i stick to the principle of what is best for all through the equality equation and self corrective application. I walk this point out physically here, i stop all ideas of "invisibility" all deliberate avoidance of facing myself, feeding into the mind.Only whats Best for All will do, so i must support my -Self by completely obliterating this personality, this blatant dishonest separation of myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a Ninja, as i realise that within this definition there is only fear and ego as the mind that is fed into, in sepraration of myself.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from what is here physically by going into the mind and defining certaini items of clothing as "being better" then others, i realise that within this defnition i am feeding into and existing as polarity as the mind consciousness system, which must be stopped.
I Forgive myself that ive accepted and allowed myself to limit myself through defining my dragon dressing gown as being of more value then my hoody because it has a dragon on it, and it is black.
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify defining my dragon dressing gown as "better" then my hoody through a belief that dragons have a an apparent "special value".
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect an image of a dragon on clothing to a picture in my mind of Bruce Lee.
I forgive myself that i have not realised that within connecting a picture in my mind of bruce lee to dragon clothing my starting point is of separation.
I forgive msyelf that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify this connection through a definiton of bruce lee being "The Dragon" withihn and as my mind.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto and perpetuate this connection through attempting to relive memories of me experiencing enjoyment through Bruce Lee films growing up. 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be defined through desiring to be like Bruce Lee.
I forgive myself that i have not realised that through desiring to be like Bruce Lee i am disempowering myself placing Bruce as the master and myself as the Slave within and as the mind
I forgive msyelf that i have not realised that through desiring to be like Bruce Lee i am actually feeding into and existing as this "ninja personality" as the mind consciousness system in total separation of myself.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed mysef to react to any kind of dragon i see as the trigger point for connecting a picture in my mind of Bruce Lee.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the clour balck as more important than any others.
I forgive myself that i have not realised that through placing value on the colour black above other colours, i am actually feeding into this "Ninja personality" and also feeding into a fear of not wearing black.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect not wearing black to fear, thus i forgive myself for fearing my own self designed fear.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be defined as "having" to wear black to justify feeding into the "ninja personality" as an apparent "perfect fit".
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to the colour black as a trigger for having a picture in my mind of me being a  ninja come up.
I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to connect a picture in my mind of me being a ninja to the colour black in total separation of myself.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself through defining black as something more then myself here as life.
Iforgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that black clothing as having some "special invisibility in the night power suit" like a cloak that i can put on to avoid being detected.
I forgive msyelf that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of me being in "the gang" avoiding detection from police through defining myself as a ninja.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing this self-definition of myself being a "ninja personality" through believing that i will in someway lose a part of myself, which is totally ridiculous, because in actual fact in self honesty when all points of value as the mind are taken away - i still remain.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect losing this "ninja personality" to fear, as fear of loss, so i forgive myself that ive accepted myself to fear my own fear in dishonesty.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i must become quiet at night to feed into my self definiton according to the mind as being a ninja.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to focus on being "ninja silent" at night becuase of a fear of waking somebody up. I realise and accept that while it is common sense and best for all to respect others sleeping patterns by not making uneccessary loud noise, but to allow this to create fear within me is unacceptable.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect waking people up at night to fear, so i forgive my own acceptance to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to focus on becoming "invisible" at night through defining myself according to this "ninja personality"
I forgive myself that i have not realised that it is impossible to be invisible, to escape what is here as what i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as, there is no escape, no special suit i can put on to hide from what is here, i am responsible for what i design, i realise that wanting and desiring to become invisible is unacceptable. I stop.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perpetuate this ninja personality, through holding onto a memory of me playing hide and seek as a kid.
I forgive msyelf that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing this memory of me playing hide and seek as a kid, through a belief that i will be losing a piece of myself, becuase i know that it feeds into this "ninja personality"
I forgive myself that i have connected this memory of me playing hide and seek as a kid to fear of loss, so i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that i have justified holding onto this memory of me playing hide and seek as a kid, because i know it feeds into the ninja personality, and i can see i have feared losing this definition as a ninja.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my self definition according to the mind as being a ninja.
I forgive myself that i have connected fear of loss to not being defined as ninja, so i forgive myself for accepting myself to fear my own created fear, i realise that to define myself according to the pre-programmed mind as a ninja, is to only exist in separation of myself, totally unaware of what is here as this breathe.
I forgive myself that i am not always fully aware in the moment of the exact trigger point whenever i am going into this ninja personality of focusing on invisibility as dishonesty.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate and exist as the ego of the mind through stating to myself "i dont need to turn the lights on at night, my eyesight is so good, im a ninja"
I forgive myself that i have not realised that within participating in this ego point of not turning on lights at night, i am in fact feeding into a fear of being seen as this ninja personality, fear of change.
I forgive myself for connecting fear to waking someone up at night, so i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to experience fear in opening doors quickly at night from a fear of waking people up.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to opening doors quickly, thus i accept and allow myslef to let go of my own fearful fear.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience fear pissing into the toilet water at night.
I forigive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect pissing in the toilet water at night to fear, thus i forgive myself for fearing my own fear.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to experience fear flushing the toilet at night while others in the property sleep.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect flushing the toilet at night to fear, and so i forgive my own fear.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience fear at walking aroung at night without socks or "quiet clothing"
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect walking around a property at night without socks or "quiet clothing" to fear, so i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define ninjas as "cool" because of their focus on death, so i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to consider a being that focuses on death continuously to be cool. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define Ninjas as "cool" and within this defnition encourage myself to create and maintain my position as this "ninja personality"
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto and maintain this ninja personality,  because of holding onto and attempting ot relive a memory of focusing on being "mysterious" at school so i could blend into any group of friends.
i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to ninjas that are portrayed in films, sitting on a throne of judgement at weather or not i percieve the depiction of the ninja to be accurate or not, good or bad enslaved within and as polarity, which is unacceptable.

I Accept and Allow myself to release this point of of defining myself as a "ninja", i Realise and accept that i have only been supporting Separation to exist within and as Me through participating in all of the various components of this ninja Personality. I Stop participating Here, i Breathe, i direct me, i Realise that i do not require this personality, because it does not support Oneness and Equality as myself, it only supports limitation of myself as Fear, as Ego according to pre-programming which must be stopped. Whenever a point comes up in relation to this personality, where i must decide between Self-Honesty or Dishonesty i stand strong on my feet Here and utlize self corrective application until Here no further. No escape now, so Die well Ninja Marley Personality.

Stopping debates and preaching through breathing

watching someone breathe is cool, i enjoy doing this, especially when someone is disagreeing with me on a point that i have stated, then an inevitable debate that can lead into an argument will ensue if i react to the beings words, getting caught up in a self created ego conflict as the mind. So watching a person breathe is a cool tool to stop participating in discussions and debates with people that have already made up their mind about equality, and are only basing the discussion on fear and separation which is not constructive for me or anyone to participate in. Slowing down and looking at the body movement of myself and the other being, realising within this that i am exactly the same as this being.

Now debating with people that attempt to attack, or disagree with me is a point that i have faced and continue to face in my process, because it is a point that i have long ago fallen in love with in my life, and even now im still in love with this point, because when someone disagrees with me, or i see 2 people engaging in an debate/argument, then i still get back chat about "getting involved" in this debate/argument, to "settle the score" wanting to save another person from their own limitation, which is impossible. Because within that point of wanting to sort out anothers problems, i am not aware that i am accepting myself as limitation of myself equally as the being i am looking to "fix", that i am missing myself, not understanding that reacting to this being is actually just me reacting to my self, seeing a reflection of myself in the being as a point that i used to allow but have since stopped, that i am judging because i am now apparently so much "better" than this point i can see in the other being, and i now how to stop so they should listen to me - This is clear separation of myself, friction never can change anything, only by standing equal as the point and directing myself within and as the point to equality and oneness can there be actual change, it is all about me - wanting to change anothers perception on any point is self deception, it is to avoid facing self, focusing on the dishonesty of others rather then my own, as if i am in a position to judge another when i am not, i cannot determine anothers outcome, i can only determine my own, because all are equal on this point of standing to face self alone with nobody doing things for us, because then we woud be separated and enslaved to the being that did it for us as the master/slave polarity, there may be support for another to have a look at a point, but only as a suggestion.

Anyway so i have been looking much further into how i engage in debates? what am i reacting to as the trigger? why am i accepting this friction? where in my past did i start having "verbal battles" now attempting to re-live it? what pictures are connected? why is it that i still have to stop myself from engaging in debates? what am i attempting to change in another? why? So i require to look further into all the components of this point of debating with people who already have made their mind up about me, so that i can release this point from my world fully. So its cool to consider what we see when we see another being breathe, because we actually within this realisation see ourselves, and that debating and arguing with our selves is totally pointless, and is of separation that is only occuring through acceptance and allowance of self to exist as the layers of the pre-programmed symbolic mind, instead of equality and oneness, and that must be stopped because i will accept no less then what is best for all in my life.

Snooker Competition Reactions

Once every few weeks i go and play snooker with my mate in the evening for a few hours, and since walking my process it has been really cool to apply myself on all reactions that come up while playing snooker, or participating in any sport. Because in this current accpeted system of polarized friction, competetion is supported to exist so that we humans can attain power and control over another as being "the winner" and "loser" polarity friction and i do not accept that. Sport and Politics are two massive industries that support competition as separation to exist currently, but i enjoy expressing myself unconditionally within sport and exercise as a tool of self-support to stop all recations, and direct myself to remain stable through corrective application within and as the physical as breathe while playing, just enjoying breathing and moving myself, not participating in any competition of the mind attempting to cause harm to another vor "victory". So i enjoy participating as snooker because it is focused around the controlling of emotions, slowing down, staying silent and stable to be effective in the game which i find cool.

And a few months ago, i noticed that there was this underlying competition point existing within myself while playing snooker with my mate. Its when i notice that my friend would react emotionally when he missed a shot, or when i missed a shot, saying things like "oh that was a fucking shit shot", then i noticed that i started reacting to him reacting by getting sarcasstic, about his shots that missed, saying stuff like "your gona miss Matthew" attempting to play "mind games" so that he might become unstable in his game from my sarcasstic jabs, so that i have a better chance to win. All in this "joking" whispering tonality that we play with eachother, when really we are both accepting and allowing competition to exist by trying to put eachother off slightly in between shots, decieving eachother so that we have a better chance of winning - then i quietly started laughing at myself within the situation, realising how unacceptable what i was allowing within myself. I stopped participating in the point of sarcassm as competition immediately, i stated the word Delete outloud, then applied the four count breathe stabilizing myself.

Anyway since this realization i went further into the point eventually then realising that the whole starting point of why im playing snooker with my mate in the first place, is dishonest because im actually participating to just play this "sarcasm mind battle" out, which went back a long way in my mind to memories of competing in various sports growing up, using "winning techniques" such as sarcassm, trying to harm the other persons chances of winning, separating myself from the physical experience, instead of just enjoying the game unconditionally as self-aware movement as self-expression as the physical.

So for the past month i have been applying myself on this point repeatedly as and when i play snooker with my mate. To the point where now when we play, i am not reacting to my mates reactions, im not reacting when i miss a shot or he misses a shot, i am not interested in attempting to cause harm to him through back chat manifested as sarcastic snakey joking comments, i am only interested in offering supportive comments on what shots i honestly think he could play that will improve his game uncondtionally as myself, i am just remaining stable within and as breathe standing in equality and oneness within playing snooker. A cool thing about this, is since i have cleared up my starting point and stopped reacting while playing snooker by sticking to breathe, my friend also has stopped making sarcastic comments, and has started offering supportive comments in between shots, which has improved both of our potting ability and general play, so my own application seems to have had an effect on him. So our games have become much more silent now, because i accept and allow myself to stand as the silence as the physical as breathe in self honesty within playing snooker, utlizing the sport as self-support, applying myself within and as it, expressing myself unconditionally as the physical, so that i am supporting myself physically here, as opposed to mind possessions manifested- Best for all.

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