Day 341: What Lies Beneath?

Do you notice in life how often we humans speak words, but our intentions behind the words we speak do not match up? This in turn can make it very difficult to build a solid foundation of trust with a person, as lying to each other and ourselves has run rampant among humanity globally.

It's like a complex network of lies that bubble beneath the surface inside all humans.

Hidden agendas are crippling ourselves, cripping our relationships with each other and crippling our world as a whole. We must take on and remove all hidden agendas from our world.

Saying I love you for example is a favorite where we humans show how conflicting our intentions are to the words we speak.

Also swear words, which came up in discussion with a friend this past week, where I pointed out that all words are equal as words including swear words.

If I say fuck you, without emotion, but then I shout get away from me! emotionally - the emotional get away from me is more offensive because of the spiteful emotional energy im using behind the words.

This past week I have been looking at the health dangers of 5G and it is fascinating that while so much research proves the health dangers with 5G, the major phone companies are still touting 5G  as an amazing advancement that this going to improve everyone's lives in terms of telecommunications/WIFI.

Very Insidious machinations behind a face of advancement, Its like Hollywood - sold a s a dream to the public but is a nightmare in reality. It's like catching your partner cheating on you, but you just carry on with the relationship anyway, telling everyone that everything is fine, meanwhile what lies beneath is the knowledge that this person's intentions are toxic to themselves, to you and to the stability of your relationship, so you lie and wait for your opportunity to strike the person back with your own hidden agenda.

Just like 5G we show everyone a face of goodness and improvement, while in reality what lies beneath, the real intentions are harmful to life.

Lets stop this game of hidden agendas -

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use a face of advancement to hide my real intentions that lie beneath, exactly the same as technology like 5G.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to state that things are great even when i know they are not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with others about my intentions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to justify hidden intentions in my mind, because of seeing how others have used hidden intentions against me and thus thinking it is only fair for me to use hidden intentions to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must use my hidden intentions on someone before they can use their hidden intentions on me, which only perpetuates a world of secrecy in self-interest, where we all look away in the face of reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with myself by convincing myself that the deception I am allowing is ok, even when I know in self-honesty it is not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that the inability to live as one face we humans have, is the reason so many suffer in this world - because we believe that living as a false image projected onto reality to purposely blind ourselves from the real truth is acceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore what is real in favour of illusion, so I don't have to face the real pain here - like a drug addict that will do anything to stay in their drug fuelled illusion, avoiding facing the pain of what is behind the addiction and stopping it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that as long as I have hidden agendas in anything I do, then I am accepting a world of hidden agendas that we have now to continue, which is an unacceptable crime to life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get an energetic high from deceiving people with my hidden agendas, where I feel like a cool secret agent always walking on a knife edge to keep my alias intact.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that whenever I hide my true intentions, I am essentially saying that only my self-interest matters, that I have a right to know things ahead of someone else, as if i am god treating others as slaves not worthy of eating from the tree knowledge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through the fake faces I show others, when in reality all these faces exist in separation from physical reality as the pre-programmed mind and thus are not real - when I live as my body here as this breath, I only have one face as equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see in every breath that as long as Starvation, Rape and War exist in our world, this proves that our lives are not fine and that are still hidden intentions and fake faces that must be removed from our world trying to hide the abuse occurring.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the body is the creator and energy provider of the mind, but as long as the mind believes it is more then the physical body with these false intentions then the mess of this world will not be corrected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that the very nature of a hidden agenda, is only hidden because I know it is unacceptable even though it gives me the self-interest energy I want, so rather then face it, I keep it hidden and allow it to pull the strings behind the scenes in my mind, while I present a totally different image to the person.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to participate in any forms of hidden agendas, so as and when I see my mind having thoughts come up around hiding my intentions from someone I stop and breathe I realise that these thoughts of having hidden agendas are unacceptable as they will only continue a world of deception, so I breathe and continue to do so until there is no more hidden intentions that exist here.

I commit myself to exposing all hidden agendas that exist in this world, as this world is equal to me as life and so it is my responsibility to existence, to make sure that all hidden agendas are ended so we can have a world of clear intentions that take care of life unconditionally.

I commit myself to equalising my words to my intentions in all areas of my life.

I commit myself to living the realisation that the only agenda that is valid in life is living solutions that create a world a that supports all life.
 

Day 340: Equal Money - The True Saviour

There will be no religious prophet saviours, there will be no superheroes to save the day, there will be no aliens/gods that will fix things, no super smart scientists to calculate us out of calamity. There is only us and Equal Money.

As discussions surrounding basic income increase globally, as the unified screams of the suffering of life in this world become louder and louder, the discussions surrounding equality will only continue to rise.

Yet what is the greatest force that supressess, dampens and resists the building of a world that is best for all life? The minds of humans, the pre-programmed patterns of fear and selfishness.

Because what you may already have noticed when looking at global politics right now in July 2019, is that as the need for basic income grows, the ego of many humans will try all they can to defend capitalism, to resist and avoid the obvious with ideas like -

 "basic income would never work, it's not feasible", "basic income would cost too much", "it's like a form of social communism that has failed before", "basic income would make people lazy".

The list of resistances the human ego can produce against equality is seemingly innumerable in purposely blinding ourselves to reality - the ego always wants a biased complex solution, and because basic income is so unbiased and simple, it is thus attacked by the ego.

The reality is though, that no matter how you personally feel about basic income and equal money, your personal feeling is irrelevant at this point, as the consequences of this capitalist money system become more extensive, the need for a global financial reset that looks after our planet supersedes any opinionated, self-interested feelings we have.

The biggest hurdle still seems to be the very vision the reality of a world unified through equality, being defined and viewed as some kind of impossible myth.

All money systems that have ever existed have all been based on a mythological idea, an illusionary concept, which was made real through united acceptance just like our current money system and just like equal money. The only difference is that you just change that value system from self-interest to life.

Basic income is in reality the first step towards an Equal Money System, a global equalisation of all resources, a world that has not been seen before, a world where everyone in this world lives as a God, so that we can live as the race of Gods we should be.

As the need for basic income intensifies in every moment, what is the crucial component in getting this done? It is me, it is you reading this, it is all of us together now, the money system is us, so it will never change if we do not change our ravenous human nature to become a new form of nature, as life as who we really are, so let's remove the barriers that hold us back from living Equal money.

I have been a non-believer of Equal Money before, so I know these statements will assist -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny the need for a new monetary system that looks after all life equally, through existing as and feeding into my own pre-programmed ideas of life in separation as the ego, where I live as a capitalist being, selfish and all-consuming, where I take what I need for me and as long as i can keep doing that I do not care about a new money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that some aliens or prophetic figures will come and save humanity, when in reality only an equal money system implemented individually and in unity by the group of humanity will actually save this world from destruction and create a world of harmony.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, that creating a new money system that supports all life would be such an impossible task, due to seeing how much needs to be fixed, and seeing myself as so small in comparison to the giant money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to the money system, defining myself as too small to make any impact, without realising the reality that I am one cell in this world system as we all are, meaning there is no such thing as a superior cell, we are all cells of one body, meaning that we are all equal to the greatness of the whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that this money system of capitalism is based on an illusionary idea, an idea of fighting to survive, fighting to get to heaven, made real through our unified acceptance - Equal Money is just another illusionary idea where we change the value system to honour all life. Once upon a time Capitalism was an illusion in someones head, which became the accepted illusion in everyone's head, we need a new illusion to live by based on the foundation of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as happy as long as me and my family have money, without even realising that all of humanity is our family and so when even one person in this world has no money, then our happiness can never be authentic.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that basic income would cost too much  to implement, without realising that this belief is based on the fear of not having enough for things that fund our selfishness - if we look at the amounts of money spent on War, Sex and pointless poorly made products every year, which buys us what? The God Ego energy, then how can we actually argue against spending money on something where we are buying the actual real tangible physical security for all life?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define basic income through the eyes of a capitalist always fearing running out of resources, when in reality this planet creates more then enough for all life to be equally supported, basic income merely facilitates this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for not fearing spending too much money when it funds my unconscious desires, when it gets me what i want to make me feel good - but when it funds the support of all life, as the ego I start bringing choice, doubt, resistance as fear into play as I know in self-honesty that funding a world that's best for all life will threaten the funding of entertaining my self-interested desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare basic income to other past money systems like socialism or communism, andy sort of isms, to create a schism, trying to create some sort of definition as the human ego always wants to do.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that a system where all life is provided the best to be the best version of themselves, has never been truly seen before on a global scale, and thus one cannot compare any previous money system to equal money, because we have never seen a world where all beings are equally the elite.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that any monetary system that leaves one person in poverty and one person in extreme wealth, cannot be compared to an Equal Money system, because an Equal Money System has no concept of class, no concept of more for some, as all are considered and treated with the respect of royalty as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into believing that when i get free money I will be lazy, which again is a defence mechanism of a capitalist mind - when in reality when I have money I work harder, I am more productive as my self-worth increases so to does my efforts - In self-honesty it is the system that we live in now that makes people lethargic and lazy, as my self-worth is not high as my labour is cheap with no value, as I sleepwalk towards the next paycheck to maintain my sad lazy zombie existence as a capitalist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define basic income as being too simple to be effective, when in reality it is the expectation and belief that a complex solution is needed which is where the ego fucks us - the ego purposely pushes us to focus on complexity in order to overwhelm ourselves and thus make sure that we never come to an effective solution that's best for all through tangling ourselves up in our "intelligent complex ideas".

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that no matter what your perspective is about basic income, it is irrelevant as the reality of life on Earth in 2019 is showing that basic income is a clear necessity to continue the existence of our species.

I forgive myself that I have failed to see that more people have been killed in war, more women/children raped and more people have starved to death in the last 100 years alone in comparison to all of human history - all as a result of the accumulating spitefulness of humanity on an individual basis that resonates through into the money system - without basic income leading into equal money there is only one outcome - extinction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to realise that basic income leading into an equal money system is not the demand of an individual or small group, it is the demand of this planet itself and it is the last chance we have to truly please our mother.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that changing policies in the current money system, are just a shift in control and wealth, which makes no difference in how the world functions, because only a total new economic system will change the experience for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to not see that democracy as it exists currently, is a form of Demon-Crazy, where we are all legally giving power to a few people, hoping we can join the few with our demonic selfishness to "beat the competition". It is a dictatorship where all the cells/citizens of the body are feeding the mind/elite, while being ignored.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that in all democratic elections, the citizen does not really have a say, as the political process is often a selection, and also only policy changes are proposed, which end up making no difference to the system as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that an Equal Money System is the implementation of a completely new value system where money is equal to life. Each child born, every human has equal value from birth till death, where each individual has equal democratic participation voting on every policy, so that we have a real government made up of the will of the people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate liberty to freedom from spending money, where the value of money is more than life, where it becomes like an exclusive money club, protecting ownership not life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that ownership and wealth are the result of a fearful elite, forcing poverty upon others in self-interest and with no consequences from God, no physically noticeable Karmic effects, the choice to abuse is easily made.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that producing poverty through wealth is tyrannical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss that behind a capitalist system i stand as the image and likeness of a demonic destroyer taking from all for self-gratification, whereas behind an equal money system is the image and likeness of God looking after all its children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to claim that I have worked so hard to get my money, without even considering how many people I have hurt to get what I wanted, stepping on people like ants as i climb the ladder of wealth, as my growing tyrant mind justifies how glorious my success is, when in reality this glory has a very gory basis.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that what I pursue defines who I am, and if I just strive for wealth as the root of all evil, I accept my nature to be evil - then I will justify why I am wealthy as if it is my "free choice", while those in poverty made the "wrong choice" all the while refusing to see that I'm in a system that deliberately keeps resources limited so that a gigantic slave population grew so the wealthy can be in heaven abusing the slaves as if it is a god given right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that a system of wealth and property rights is a system of control and protectionism, where only the few are protected against all others who do not have equal rights.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my dreams of wealth and success to develop into the control that decides the fate of the many through protecting the free choice opportunity of the few, brainwashing the many poor into believing they may join my heavenly club of wealth - without realising that I have created a dream for me, but a nightmare for others outside my wealthy club, completely missing that equal money is a shared dream without any nightmare side effects.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when an equal money system is in place, me as the wealthy will no longer have slaves, nobody to clean up after me, which will force me to realise that I as the wealthy, the power I perceived I had was only made real through the participation of the slaves, the slaves that I abused.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that suffering on our planet will only end when we have a completely new system of equality, and that those few living in super luxury, only those not suffering will attempt to oppose the end of suffering.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to resist basic income and an equal money system, so as and when I see my mind having thoughts doubting, fearing, resisting equal money, I stop and breathe, I realize that these thoughts exist in separation from me and only enforce the limitation of my preprogramming and thus the status quo of this capitalist money system, so I breathe, and continue to breathe until there is no more thoughts coming up that resist an equal money system.

I commit myself to bring awareness that only a total new system considering all life equally will solve the problems of the world.

I commit myself to show that the acceptance of wealth and success with property ownership is in fact the acceptance of responsibility for the suffering and starvation of others.

I commit myself to a completely new value system that only has one resource that is valued above all else - life.

I commit myself to end the tyranny of ownership and wealth for the few, instead installing the benevolence of giving to all life equally, where we all receive our fair share, where all life are wealthy owners as equal gods.

Day 339: Always Too Late

While I was doing some writing earlier today I had a film that i've seen before in the background, as I often do. This was the film Watchmen, which if you like a superhero film you will likely enjoy this one.

At one point in a pause from writing, the film was going through a scene where John or Dr Manhattan one of the superheroes in the film, goes through an explanation of time highlighting how we humans are always too late to avoid calamity and that time itself is perhaps not real.

I smirked in agreement at this scene just as I did the first time I saw the film, because just yesterday I had a moment that I have repeated many times in life where I was too late for something. 

When you arrange a meeting in life, be that a business meeting or an event of some kind - if you are invited and you agree to the invite, then from that point on there is only a few things that can cause you to miss the event or meeting -

* You have a family emergency that causes to have to cancel attending the meeting/event.

* You agree to go, but in the days and hours before the event/meeting you give in to some reaction of fear about some part of the event/meeting, accepting this fear and using it as an excuse to not go.

* Or you are too late to attend due to your fear causing you to procrastinate beforehand, or your own inability to manage time and always be too late, or a combination of the two.

Funny how superheroes in films are always on time to save the day, but in reality we humans are flawed with our scheduling.

I myself was invited to an event yesterday, which I had agreed to attend weeks before. I was given a free ticket and I knew the event would be pretty upper class and with random celebrities attending.

A friend of mine was even one of the DJs for the event, and I had another friend who was going to come with me to the event also.

On the day I knew full well that the event started at 1pm and went on till around 1am. I was planning in my mind to get my schedule done for the day, then turn up at the event around 10pm for the last few hours.

Then as I go through the day, I notice the time is around 9pm so I start getting ready in a lethargic manner, but as I'm ready to leave at around 9.45 I pick up the tickets and read the words "last entry at 8pm".

I laughed at myself in the moment, knowing full well that I would not get there till at least 10.15 now, and even though I still could have possibly gotten in via my DJ friend, I was disappointed with myself, with my not reading the entry parameters of my attendance for an exclusive event, even though I could have read the tickets in the days before more effectively, as they were literally just sitting on my window ledge for weeks.

Then I was disappointed at my own inability to plan my time better to have had my own schedule done much earlier in the day - I could have for instance woke up earlier, moved more efficiently through my own tasks.

I always get annoyed with myself when I miss an event/meeting that I have agreed to attend due to my own pattern of lateness, because I know that I will never know what connection with what person I could have developed at that event.

I notice this pattern that tends to come up very often for years at various points in my life and its always around some kind of meeting/event/business/work - where I need to be somewhere at a specific time.

Most of the time my planning of time is fine, but then sometimes in the lead up to some kind of meeting/event, I will shift into this slowed down type of character, believing I have more time then what I do, wasting time and not paying attention to time in the hours, minutes and seconds before the event/meeting.

What is this pattern of lateness we humans struggle so much with? Late for our Job, late for meeting a friend, late for the event, late for meeting our family, late for watering the plants, late for feeding the animals, late for paying our bills, late for pursuing our passions, late for changing our behaviours, late for showing each other we care, too late to stop the next child in the world from starving to death, late in living what's best for all life, too late in saving our species perhaps. We live in a fucked up world of lateness.

Lets stop these patterns of lateness before it really is too late -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as a pattern of lateness whenever I have to get somewhere for a meeting/event/work, where I will sometimes be late due to ineffectively timing my schedule in the days and hours leading up to the event/meeting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as late, that I am someone who is just late sometimes, accepting the limitation that comes with it instead of taking self-responsibility to walk out this pattern through self-forgiveness and self-corrective application of breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to believe that I am allowed to be late, as if my schedule should supersede the schedule of all others, which I realise is where I exist as ego looking out for itself first, making its own laws of time, ignoring the real physical time here in complete separation instead of living here as the real physical laws of time that we all are subject to.

I forgive myself that I accept and allow myself to at times during my days will dwell on certain points, where I am not effectively calculating how many breaths in space time I am actually spending on something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard time, as if i am above time, when in reality I am tied to time, tie-me as this money system proving that time is money. I require money to exist in this reality, therefore I am subject to time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always believe I have more time then I actually do, when this world and the human acceptance of the accelerating horrors that exist within it show us all that time is always against us.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate on things when it suits me, when my mind is trying to avoid facing something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that the only time it is valid to be late for anything is if there is a family or life mergency of some kind - there is no fear or pattern of lateness that is acceptable in missing any event/meeting that you agree to attend.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with myself about wanting to go to this event, saying to others I wanted to come agreeing to come, when In reality I did not want to go at all, yet I was trying to convince myself and others that I did want to go.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be late for work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be late at entering my sons life.

I forgive myself for being late to feed my animals or plants sometimes, due to over complicating myself and purposely distracting myself from my set tasks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to late at changing a pattern once I locate it through my self-writing, as the ego I have existed as for so long tries to hold on to the idea of myself that has been built, tries to hold onto the energy addiction derived from eth acceptance of the pattern, instead of living here as this breath immediately once I locate a patterns origin and grounding out the pattern through self-forgiveness and breathing immediately which is best for all life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that time is not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my lateness and its limitations due to this idea of time not being real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to always see the importance of time because of the perspective that it is "not real" when in terms of this universe, past lifetimes and the nature of existence, yes one could say time does not exist in a way - but in this world system we all accept on Earth, everything is timed, everything is a matter of time from the cooking we do in our kitchen, to our work patterns, to the revolutions of Earth around the Sun it's all done in a certain time-frame.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that if I do not stop my pattern of lateness, then It will always be too late for me, too late for humanity which I am not willing to accept for myself and humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be disappointed and annoyed with myself for not attending the event, when It was clear leading up to the event that I was not effectively preparing myself due to this lateness character, which will only repeat again unless i stand up and change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that overcomplication breeds lateness, while simplicity breeds good timing.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that lateness does not support me in living what's best for all life in anyway, while good timing always does - as cooking for example and many things in life prove this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not understand in every breath that once I accept lateness in one area, it does not stay localised, it will inevitably seep into all areas of my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear about an event/meeting, that I won't like it or some part of it unconsciously, so then my physical body will purposely go slow through my schedule in the lead up to the event/meeting, to purposely be late without my own conscious awareness so to speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of the ideas I learnt growing up in movies and in my environment that one can be "fashionably late" taking that point on as myself, as if it is cool to be late.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to the energy from the coolness of being late in complete separation of myself.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see that whenever I am late for any event or meeting, it only makes me look like I don't care, It shows a lack of respect for the event or person im meeting, which could even offend the person/event organisers - being late only ever detriments me in reality despite what my pre-programmed mind thinks.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto memories of my grandad talking about time not being what humans think it is, referring to various Scientists, sometimes confusing me, adding layers to the idea in my mind that time is meaningless and thus lateness doesn't matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to at times react to the plight of those starving, those being raped and harmed in wars, and to take the perspective of John in The Watchmen where I accept it is too late for humanity, using it as an excuse to not move effectively to push myself to self-honestly change which is unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rarely be late when I am desiring something I want from the specific meeting/event, yet to often be late when I know I will have to work for something I don't want, or pay for something I wouldn't usually buy when I get there.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see, that my lateness is directly connected to my egos "free choice" where through living as the ego I trap myself to "choose" to become lateness or not dependent on how my ego feels about the event/meeting. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that the aging process proves the existence of time, proves that time is a real force that affects us all in real space time, thus accepting a character of lateness is unacceptable because we all have a very limited amount of time here in this body thus we must make the most of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that only the ego believes it can cheat time, cheat death, when in reality this is not possible for anybody.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to underestimate and abuse time as this lateness character.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to accept a character of lateness within and as me as it is counterproductive in living what is best for all life. So as and when I see myself having thoughts justifying or supporting lateness in someway, I stop and breath, I do not allow myself to interact with these thoughts as it only keeps me enslaved to them as this pattern of lateness - I continue to breathe until there is no more thoughts that come up.

I commit myself to living the realisation that no benefit can come from lateness in anyway, because myself and all humanity are bound to time, as we have such a short window of time here thus and must make the most of our lifetime here, not disregard time through lateness.

I commit myself to exposing wherever humanity wastes time, wherever we accept lateness, accept crashing to our end, I will show through my own re-designed living that lateness is a flawed point that has no place in our world when so much needs to be done - there is literally no time to waste.

Day 338: Hollywood Sex God

Interesting isn't it when you look at what sells in the world and its connection to the word Sexuality. I suppose some would say Marilyn Monroe was one of the first greatest examples of this, but there are thousands of examples, for instance look at a skilled author like Stephen King's twitter account and you will see around 5.3 million followers.

Meanwhile go and look at Kim Kardashian's twitter and you will see over 61 million followers - yet what is Kim Kardashian known for contributing to existence? For shaking that "money maker" and marrying rapper Kanye West - I wonder how much physical time, commitment and effort it took to get that done in comparison to writing all of Stephen Kings books.

Or if you look at the popularity of a show like Love Island, which if you haven't watched it, Im sure you will have at some point seen a different show that was of a similar design. Years ago I watched a program called Geordie Shore's for a while for instance. It's all predictive programming promulgating sexual imagery, objectification, Alcoholism, self-gratification, spitefulness, stupidity and obsession.

I was discussing with a friend about this topic this weekend, about how the world has become more and more this sexualised MTV culture. Where a person's value in hollywood is determined almost more and more exclusively by the level of sexual symbol the person stands as in society.

The person being placed as a sexual symbol is dependent upon how many mind demons and sexual controversy the celebrity can feed into, for instance - got an ass bigger than any other woman? Great you can be a star, look younger and more sexualised than anyone else? Great you can be the next star, Want to be an attractive man and an attractive woman? Great you can be the next star.

Have a unique skill? Well nobody really cares so long as you are young, dumb and implant enough twisted sexual thoughts into people's thinking consistently enough. We as society see this in Hollywood, we accept the idolisation of these celebrities and thus take on what the celebrity stands for.

Yet what emerged in discussion with this person, was as fucked up as Hollywood is, it is easy to judge the owners of hollywood meanwhile not realise that we are Hollywood, the reason Hollywood is fucked up is because we are fucked up - we see it, so we become it and because we are it, we see it.

I see how I have used others as sexual self-gratification tools in my life and how I have allowed others to use me as the same, all due to this Hollywood Sex God character.

Every energy dependant self-interested pre-programmed pattern we have within us is always accumulating unless the energy is diffused and the patterns walked out brick by brick, breath by breath.

Hollywood is sold as a dream to teh public, but it is a nightmare full of networks of slavery, of seedy, depraved abuse of sexualisation to sell whatever needs to be sold.

Let's redefine the word sexuality and thus change our interaction and living of sexuality -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow a system that grades a celebrities level of fame based on their ability to generate sexual thoughts in others, instead of their level of fame being based purely on the actual talent the person has for the creative expression they are doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that as long as I allow self-interested sexual thoughts based in the objectification of an image within me, then I will alway see it without in Hollywood as Hollywood is simply a designed extension of what we desire in secret in ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that the picture perfect image based idea of sexuality seen in hollywood is not real, sex is not a piece of a person, it is not a specific sexual image that the person grafies in another - I realise that sex is a physical movement a completeness with another, where embracing of the physical and enjoyment for both is achieved and maintained.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find a person sexually attractive based on my minds definition of a sexual image the person fits in my mind in complete separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have varying degrees of sexual attraction  feeling energy to a person based on the mental image the person matches, without realising that real sexual attraction must be based on the physical here so as to live real sexuality as what's best for all life, without the limitation of pictures and feelings projecting onto reality. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sometimes treat people differently based on how much the person matches the desired mental image of a sexual partner I have in any moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted nad allowed myself to interact with imaginations, desires, sexual thoughts in my mind, where I am gratified first and can control everything as I like it as the ego as God.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the more sexual attention I get from others then the more value I apparently have according to my ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the more attention my sexual partner gets me then the better that also apparently is for me, when really it only keeps me and all life enslaved as the sexual separation we see in hollywood and allow within ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my sexual interaction with others to be based on using each other to facilitate our mind demons until we both get bored and want to look for the next big thing.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that it is this incessant search to find the next "big thing" the next great fuck, the next great matching to my desired mental image in self-interest that actually holds me back from developing a real stable sexual relationship with a  single person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the ego as a sex god where I can pleasure so many women, when in reality this idea of myself feeds into this Hollywood Sex God character and holds me back from developing an actual stable sexual relationship with one partner. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that in my mind as the ego I am always in control, I am always the most sought after celebrity in Hollywood, the most important, which results in a  world of slavery - instead of realising that my ego is only possible because of the body, so my ego is subject to my physical body - thus it is the body that is the real star, not the ego and so the living of real sexuality with self and another is only achieved through a self-honest living as the body.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take sex for granted and abuse it, using it as a tool for my own gratification through living out pre-programmed mental images in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that sex can never be abused or taken for granted as it is the sexual reproductive organs that continue the existence of life on Earth for Humanity, so sex is not a game for projecting fantasies, self-gratifications and obsessions - sex is the key of life creation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that a healthy body is not dependant on consciousness in anyway, but on the physical body being physically supported adequately.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word sexuality as having sexual feelings for another, when In reality this definition must be realigned to what is best  for all life and basing sexual attraction on feelings I have about someone is separation, so in fact I will redefine sexuality as - a physical movement of intimacy, of enjoyment of the physical as eth physical with myself or another with no feelings, thoughts, imaginations and images getting in the way.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see that there is no God or "higher energies" present during sex, only the godly experience of orgasm which does not discriminate based on religion, we all can achieve sexual orgasm, we all produce offspring in exactly the same way, and program the minds of our children to be parrots of the parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place faith in Science and the Human Mind when the Human mind is incapable of creating new life, only flawed copies - while the physical creates life on a daily basis and has done long before human consciousness existed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the act of sex all about the mind, when it should be all about the body - I see how I have not honoured sex as the true miracle it is, a real godly act, the critical point to life on Earth, but instead I have abused sex as a way to control the mind with energy forming false beliefs about sex, creating children who only pursue their own happiness and love, to become the next hollywood star with no real care for life at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how I have created images in my mind that represent sex through the consumer industry of Porn, which misrepresents sex as a tool to achieve self-interested satisfaction within desire, when sex is actually the most amazing act of life creation which determines our ability to continue existing on Earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a sexual history very much like a search bar on a pron website, where I have tried most things before, due to trying to live out the endless images I have pumped into myself from years of Porn addiction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath, that through watching pornography of any kind, one is unknowingly or not feeding into the worst and most depraved of sexual activities in humans that the Porn industry funds in someway such as: Paedophilia/child prostitution, Incest, sexual abuse of Animals, extreme physical abuse during sex, Necrophilia, which are all abhorrent sexual demons that must be expelled from humanity.

I forgive myself for not seeing that the Money system, Hollywood, all Life on Earth as we know it is dependant upon the reproductive ability of us humans, without our reproductive ability, we would not exist at all and thus would have no money system or Hollywood, so we must honour and respect sex in order to create a Money System and Hollywood that also honours and respects sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a world where sex is turn into a secret, dirty, selfish, depraved thing, passing this idea on to children, instead of creating a world where sex is honored as the real God that makes life possible, not based on an irrational energy called Love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that sex should be the sacred act of creation that follows the best possible guidelines, to produce the best humans to bring the world to real physical equality of what is best for all life.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to feed into the Hollywood Sex God system, so as and when I see my mind having thoughts about sexual images of another, recreating desires, seeking my own satisfaction first, I stop and breathe I realise that this will only be keeping me and Hollywood exactly the same, existing in separation so I stop and continue to breathe until there is no more thoughts that come up.

When and as I see myself reacting to the word sex, or when I see others reacting I stop and breathe, as I realise that this reaction is keeping me controlled within and as the mind.

I commit myself to sex-education that honours life.

My commitment is lived through the manifesting of this blog today.