Day 176: Are you afraid?

We have all experienced fear before. Fear is the predominate running factor in humans lives today - fear of not having money, fear of dying, fear of loss, fear of the future, fear of being alone, fear of not being liked by people, fear of change, fear of being equal with people etc. These fears come up in people everyday.

Then these broad system fears that we have all experienced then splinters into multiple other fears/phobias that we design through our characters in teenage/adult years - fear of insects, fear of certain animals, fear of certain weather, fear of disease, fear of the elite, fear of heights, fear of certain food etc, some people even experience fears of things that most cannot even relate to, like a fear of a random object.

Fear is a mind consciousness system generated compounded energy, so that humans fear themselves, so that we believe ourselves to be it, and do not realise ourselves as life as all as one as equal as we actually are.
But what is the consequence of us accepting and allowing all these various fears inside our minds on a day to day basis 24/7?

The consequences of participating with fear in our mind, means that we never operate according to what is best for all life, but rather what is best for me in self-interest, as a type of ego-preservation machine, which is why the world is the way it is today - a fuck up of fear, where everyone is feeding into fear, rather then standing up within it and releasing it.

Upon research, it becomes clear that fear can be transcended in a persons life, by taking self-responsibility for each point of fear - standing up within and as that fear, and then releasing it as ourself through a process over years. I have found that self-forgiveness and self-corrective application of breathing has been most effective for me, to keep myself in my body physically here and stable.

So we develop fears over a multitude of years, compounding emotional energy with each point, integrating the fear with and as us, many fears can seem "impossible" to transcend in our minds, so it can take years to diffuse each point of fear. What is interesting to note is that there is one fear which is the most difficult to transcend, which is the fear that comes up in a moment of knowing you may possibly die. Impending death in front of your eyes.

When it comes to fears that make sense, it is more a case of working with the point in the moment, focusing on breathing and moving as quickly and efficiently as you can, not allowing that fear to petrify you, but push you into action.

Life or death situations are where fear comes up in its purest form you could say - for instance if you were bleeding in open water with some very large hungry sharks swimming near you. This is a fear that makes sense, because no matter how fearless you may believe yourself to be, this is a type of fear where you know you could die right now, to the point where you can taste it here and now.

In these situations to have any opportunity to survive the encounter, you will require to breathe, because the fear energy will be like none you have felt before, and then you will have to physically push yourself to try to move and survive the situation, instead of allowing the fear to freeze you in the moment where there is no chance of survival.

There is no ego-preservation in this fear, it is a type of reactive practical fear in the moment here you could say, a response to possible physical harm, a fear that is assisting you in a way, to push you to get out of the situation as soon as possible, if possible. Now for those that are used to releasing fear in their life, brave humans, they will have a better chance of being able to work with the biggest of fears in the worst of situations then most people.

Because the brave acknowledge fear when it comes up, but do not allow it to control their actions to be limited, inactive, and determined by fear - but rather to remain stable as breathe, releasing the fear as it comes up, then directing themselves as breathe to spring into action according to what makes sense in the situation.

What is interesting is that we all have the capacity to be brave in one moment here, in one breathe to say till here no further, and interestingly the more you get used to facing and releasing points of fear in your life, that is how your ability to stand in bravery will increase in all areas in your life. You will find that your abilities, your effectiveness in whatever your doing will increase, because fear is no longer determining for you how you interact with yourself and the world around you.  

So first step is to investigate and acknowledge your fears that have developed in your mind, one by one in self-honesty. Do not listen to the ego, your back chat as thoughts will try to trick you and justify your fear pre-programs - so breathe, remain here as your physical body, keep sticking to breathe no matter what until you remove the fears that don't make sense -- the fears that only preserve your idea of yourself as a pre-programmed robot, fears that only support your ego and actually are abusive to life. Only we create our fears, and so only we can change them.

Remember the more of our fears we learn to let go of, then the more effective we will become in our lives in any undertaking, and as a species in general. The fearless are powerful, the fearful are powerless, there is no death apart from the death of our idea of ourselves, so lets stop fearing ourselves.

Day 175: Haters gona hate part 2

Are you hating something or someone? I have hated others, hated myself, but there is no need to hate -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to, and then attack a person in my thoughts as hate. I realise that this reaction I am having to and towards this person, is happening because of seeing a reflection of some part of myself as the world that I dislike as hate.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every moment, that it is a part of humans pre-programming, where we will react to that which we have accepted within ourself in the past or currently in our lives, until we become aware and make the commitment to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I am attacked by someone in an abusive way, that I must defend myself immediately, defend my principles, defend my idea of myself. But I realise that this is just my ego trying to be omnipotent, and regardless of what I say, no matter "how profound" or true it is, it is pointless to do, because i cannot change another persons idea about themselves, if a person has made up their mind about something, and is just spewing out their mind possessions in comments, it makes more sense, to not react at all, but breathe, remove the abusive comments and move on.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my reaction towards another, if the person I am directing my reaction towards is enjoying being abusive towards others without regard. I will not allow myself to be controlled by this hate as fear, so I take self-responsibility to release the reactions that come up in my mind.  

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every here moment of breathe, that if I am reacting in my mind with thousands of destructive thoughts about a person, it is showing me that I am not clear and stable, which means this person has the ability to mind control me, literally through pushing buttons that offend my ego as my idea of myself in some way, like a remote control. I do not accept this as myself, I take self-responsibility to will myself to walk and change this point here as breathe no mater how many times I fall.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my hateful experiences onto another - I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that anyone else other then myself is responsible for the hate I experience in myself to and towards another person. I realise that i cannot allow myself to believe this in anyway, because it is the same as saying that this person is now my god and I am their slave, which is never acceptable.      

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate parts of myself, and then go into emotion and suppression about the points, which then comes up within me as a reaction in the moment as loads of thoughts when I see this point in another, who I can now use to blame my insecurities about myself on in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take self-responsibility for this hate immediately through a process of self-forgiveness and self-corrective application of breathing here, to correct this hate towards myself that I am projecting onto another, but rather just get emotional about the points, and then try to "force them" to disappear in my mind which only results in separation as suppression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can force my hateful inner experiences to disappear by forcing myself to "forget" the points, pushing the points down inside myself, which is just pure self-deception, because as I have noted these hateful points only cycle inside myself and come out again when I see someone that is showing me a reflection.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself within receiving hateful comments from others, by reacting negatively as a judgement and annoyance to comments that are negative towards me. I realise that this is happening because of me existing as the ego in my mind, where I exist as a polarity friction, where I am only wanting,expecting, being happy with supportive comments and reacting negatively to un-supportive comments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only want supportive comments, because that is not reality, because I should already expect and be mentally prepared to not react to the reactions I bring up in others, which is to be expected considering the content of what I have been sharing with people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as polarity within and as the mind as a "love/hate" dynamic, where I have allowed supportive or un-supportive comments, to either move me positively or negatively as an energetic reaction instead of just being here breathing, being clear seeing the words as myself without any mental shit attached.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I only enjoy the supportive comments, but in reality - my mind enjoys the attention from a supportive comment or someone that is hating me, because either way it is providing energy to my ego, which is not acceptable.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every moment of breathe, that when someone is directing their hate towards me, they more then likely hate themselves, because as I mentioned earlier, I am showing the person their own limitations, so obviously they will divert their reactions onto me.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that if I react to hateful comments, then it is actually supporting me, because although the person may be completely mind possessed attacking me, my reaction is showing me that I require to change the points about myself, so then I can take self-responsibility to re-program myself to not repeat this next time, but to instead train myself to become stable as breathe in the face of the most abusive of attacks.    

I commit myself to not allowing myself to experience myself as reactions of hate towards another, regardless of what they say or do, because hate is a very limiting experience that does not assist me in anyway to live what's best for all life - so when i see my mind reacting to the hateful words of another, I stop and breathe -- I do not allow myself to engage with the thoughts that comes up, I simply breathe, keep myself here, and continue to do that, until the thoughts eventually stop coming up.

I commit myself to living the realisation that if a person is attacking me, they are only showing me their own limitations, and assisting me to see if I am completely clear in the face of their attack. So I stand as breathe in the moment, remain clear, see if i can assist the person with even planting the smallest of seed, but if their abuse is continual, I will just block the person until they can sort their shit out, or just be more civilised in conversation.

I commit myself to living the realisation that if there is anything I dislike about myself, then suppressing the points is never the answer, I must stand up within and as this experience, and then release the points as breathe as and when they come up, until they do not come up any more.

I commit myself to not blaming anyone else for my own experiences, I realise the separation within that - so as and when I see my mind having thoughts about blaming others for what I'm experiencing -- I stop and breathe, I continue to breathe, stable, slow, here - I repeated this process every time the thoughts come up until they are no more and are deleted.

I commit myself to living the realisation that any time i react in hate towards another, then it shows me that I must investigate points in my mind that have not been dealt with effectively but have been suppressed.

I commit myself to living the realisation that people will always react in hateful ways, if you reflect what a person wants to be to them, if you show a person their own limitations with your efforts.    
    

Day 174: Haters gona hate

Hate, being spiteful, giving people shit, these are all things that humans are very familiar with - everyone has said something or completed some project in their life that has brought out hateful remarks from some people -- and vice versa we have all been in a situation where we have attacked someone verbally because of reacting towards something they said or did.

Since I have completed a recent interview, I have received much support, but also I have received some abusive comments from some people. It comes with the territory, any time you get some sort of exposure with the current state of humanity - we enjoy attacking and attempting to destroy something that someone else has achieved.

So we when we react to something that another person does - our ego will tell us that this person that has said or done something, is now responsible for our offended experience. But in reality everything is in reverse - so when we get offended by something that another person does, it is actually a reflection of ourself -- meaning the reason that we are reacting is because we have mental issues regarding what this person is saying or doing, that we have not resolved inside ourself or our participation. So in essence this person that we believe is causing us to react, is actually just showing us our own pre-programming and the allowance of it to exist -

For instance you may be experiencing jealousy towards someone for what they have done, which really has nothing to do with the other person, but really its just showing you that you are pre-programmed to react in jealousy when you see someone doing something that you think you should have, or that you could do better, or that you wish you had the will, determination and bravery to do. So this limiting jealousy experience towards another, is only showing you your own self-accepted/created mind control issues, it is showing you that you can be brainwashed by another to become jealous in an instant like a remote control.

So long story short - someone that you think hates you, actually more then likely hates themselves, because you standing as a reflection of what they want to be -- you are showing them their own limitations.

So I have been looking closely within my mind, to see if I am stable within getting shit thrown at me by people, or if I am reacting - its always a point of self-honesty, and I have reacted in my mind to some words from some people. Interesting how in our mind it is so easy and enjoyable to receive supportive comments, but to react and get annoyed by some un-supportive comments. Polarity, so I take self-responsibility to locate and remove any points that I have allowed to cause reactions in me.  

Also if we look at redefining the word hater - I have realised that when someone is attacking me as a "hater", although they are only expressing their own insecurities and pre-programming, they are also supporting me as a fan in a way, assisting me to see if I am clear or not -- to see if I stand completely stable in the face of attack from others, or if something they said caused me to react. So you could say that haters are actually supportive for people in a way.

Join me in my next blog as I investigate haters further, as well as sharing self-forgiveness, and self-commitment statements. 

Day 173: "Good things come to those who wait" Part 2

Do you ever experience yourself as waiting for something to happen in your life? Do you find that you have a pattern of waiting for points to emerge by themselves? Have you or do you believe that good things come to those who wait? Well that's a mind fuck because time waits for no man, so walk with me -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that "good" things will manifest themselves in my life if I simply wait for them to "come to me". I realise that within waiting, I am not moving, but I am waiting for someone else to move first to bring me the "good". I realise that this concept is complete separation where I dis-empower myself to be able to do anything here -

So within this I forgive myself that I have been waiting for someone to bring me the "good" in my life, instead of taking self-responsibility here to produce beneficial outcomes through moving myself physically to participate in this world manifesting with my hands that which is improving my own and another's life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that waiting is something "powerful" because within waiting I am not interfering with other peoples lives, so "surely" the good will come to me because I have been so "good" patiently waiting for the best to arrive before me. I realise that there is no power in waiting for anything to produce itself, because this physical reality works according to movement, not waiting.

So I forgive myself that I have not realised in every here moment of breathe, that waiting for something to "come to me", will actually make the manifestation of those points here, much longer to achieve in physical space time - especially if I pay no attention to the time that passes during my period of waiting -- because within waiting I am not participating in the production of anything other then my ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in separation of myself as the mind, as ego, where I attempt to wait and think about what I want to have in my life in self-interest, believing that waiting/thoughts gives me some kind of "powerful" ability to manifest my wants and desires. I realise that this is complete self-deception, and I realise that  if my primary interest is on my own self-interest, then waiting for and thinking about those points, is even more pointless and does not assist me in anyway to live what's best for all.

I forgive myself that I have not lived the realisation in every moment, that waiting can assist me if I pay attention to time once I have put a process into action, where I can pre-design and schedule the moments of speeding up and slowing down.

For instance if I am cooking, gardening, or driving - if I put the process into action, and I am aware of my time frames of waiting within these points, then waiting while my food cooks the right amount of time, waiting for plant seeds to produce, waiting for the traffic to pass etc, is a supportive point to create what's best for all in my participation. I realise though that while waiting can be supportive in this context, I must always remember that the key to be aware of within waiting is time, one second of waiting too long on any point, and my food will be burnt, my seeds will die, and I will be stuck in heavy traffic in rush hour.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that time is not real, which although that is true in the reality of existence - Capitalism, as the structure of everything that is here on earth as the manifestation of pre-programmed systems of polarity within and as human beings, do work according to time - why do you think people in business say  - "time is money".

I realise that I have been justifying waiting for as long as I want on a point, because I know that time is not real, yet within that I have been deceiving myself by not realising that this system of capitalism that we all perpetuate as ourselves has us all constrained by the parameters of time currently -  so you cannot act like it doesn't exist by waiting - because everyone that feeds into capitalism is subject to time.

So I forgive myself that I have deceived myself through defining myself as being "outside of time" and that time does not affect me - I realise that while time is not real, which I see when I slow down within and as breathe, I realise that I am a pre-programmed human on Earth existing within and as capitalism, and so I am responsible for the maintained existence of time - therefore I am never "outside of time", and the ravages of time always affect me in reality here - if I cannot see that then I must remind myself how a bill works for instance - if you wait will the bill pay itself? Will the company respect my belief that I exist "outside of time"? No.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that if I am sitting down in a meditative state, focusing on "positive thoughts" then I am apparently accumulating "good karma" for myself and projecting "positivity" into the world. I realise that humans have been doing this for so long in our history now - what have these "positive thoughts" manifested in this world? They have manifested an acceptance of accumulating abuse in this world through the principle of polarity connecting unconsciously to the minds of every human - Meaning that our focus on waiting for, attaining and projecting "the light", is manifesting our creation, ignorance, avoidance and promulgation of the darkest parts of this reality.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every breathe, that through the principle of polarity - waiting and focusing on "positive" or "negative" thoughts, in a spirituality context, actually is where the creation of and the acceptance of abuse to continue in this world exists. I realise that if I am to sit down and wait in a moment with regards to any meditation - then do it to relax for a moment, to slow down by focusing on breathing not thoughts, this form of meditation can be supportive to keep oneself stable.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every moment that I am waiting and focusing on thoughts, that this thought movement is changing nothing in my world, because this world works according to physical movement - so if I am not here breathing, moving doing, living my words where solutions are born -- then i am thinking, waiting, sitting, doing nothing, and separating my words as myself where no solutions are born.

I forgive myself that I have not realised that the phrase "good things come to those who wait" can be redefined in a way that is actually beneficial for humans - because I realise that if I have patience through breathing effectively, slowing down within and as breathe allows me to more coherently see, realise and understand what it is I need to do in my next physical movements to get beneficial results.

I realise that rushing through points in our mind and our interaction all day, easily leads to points being missed - so I realise that slowing down within a point is required before I can speed up within a point, because slowing down gives me time to apply knowledge and information effectively, so that I can get to a point of direct memory access quicker from slowing down within something I'm learning, where I can then speed up effectively within a point because I have taken the time to physically integrate the information.

However I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and expect that because I know how to slow down effectively to be able to speed up later - that "automatically" I will get the best results in everything that I do, because I realise that is not true -- if my plan is fundamentally flawed, or I am not considering/directing other points in my world, then success is not assured in any undertaking - however it is the slowing down within and as breathe, where I afford myself the best opportunity to be able to see any fundamental flaws in my plan, or see anything that I need to change in my world in order to achieve success in what I am doing.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to believe that waiting will result in "good things" occurring in my life - I realise that this concept is complete separation of myself, so as and when I see thoughts coming up in my mind based in this concept - I breathe, I do not allow myself to engage in these thoughts as I have seen the consequential time loop that will occur inside me before, which is not supportive in living what's best for all -- so I continue to stand within and as breathe every time these thoughts come up, until I transcend the point and no more thoughts come up.

I commit myself to not allowing any spiritual concepts to glamorise waiting in my mind with "amazing tales" of "the power" of sitting and waiting in a "positive bubble". I realise that this is just polarity, which does not support me in living what is best for all in every breathe - so I stop, no matter how many breathes that takes to achieve.

I commit myself to living the realisation that this world works according to physical movement - and as such, i must move myself to create in myself, the world around me and the world as a whole that which is best for all in every moment of breathe - I cannot wait for this to occur, because it never will be produced without movement, no matter what I am wanting to complete.

I commit myself to living the realisation that waiting can be supportive if it is used in tandem with timed movement - to slow down for a moment, to remain clear, to give myself time to evaluate the points, then utilise common sense where I can create and integrate solutions to live in my next movement to manifest the best outcome I am able to do within what i am working on. I realise that slowing down within and as breathe to learn, enables me to speed up at a later stage within what I am doing.

Join me in my next blog as I continue to walk my journey to life.      





  

  

  

Day 172: "Good things come to those who wait"

Its a saying I have heard many times in my lifetime at various points, as have most human beings, but is how we have defined this statement based in common sense to stand eternally? Or is it based in separation? Lets walk this phrase and then redefine it.

Humans like waiting, which is why we are still waiting to manifest a world that's best for all. "Good things come to those who wait" is a phrase that goes hand in hand with - "time waits for no man" which I will investigate in my next blog.

But I mean simplistically speaking within waiting we are not doing, within waiting we are expecting someone else to move first to give us the good. Waiting around for an ideal job, house, partner, world etc, to manifest themselves through the "power" of waiting, will more likely actually make the manifestation of those points longer and harder to achieve in actual physical time space here, especially if you do not pay attention to the amount of time you are waiting.

In my experience waiting is something which is more beneficial to do once I am in amongst the process of developing a particular point - for example when I am cooking or gardening, after I have completed the necessary physical actions, I require to wait while the food cooks and the seeds grow in order for the results to be beneficial. But one second of too much waiting during the middle of this process, and my food will be burnt, or my seeds will not grow, which clearly shows how detrimental the consequences can be from waiting too long.

This phrase was mentioned by British Poet Violet Fane in the 1800s, but the concept of this phrase has existed within the minds of humans for thousands of years. It has been accepted literally by many people and groups in history, as meaning that if you are patient then good things will come from this patience, this concept is particularly prevalent within religion and spirituality.

The literal concept within certain spiritual teachings like Hinduism, Buddhism, Sikhism, Jainism, and Toaism, is that through sitting down and being in a "positive" meditative state one is apparently accumulating "good karma" which apparently will assist to make more "positivity" in the world. The reality of course is that this is nothing but a subjective and deceptive concept, which actually reveals that the complete opposite is true.

This "good karma" is created by just thinking "good thoughts" and I mean seriously, what the fuck have these quadrillions+ of spiritual "good thoughts" done for the world throughout history? They have manifested an acceptance of accumulating abuse in the world through the principle of polarity - meaning that our focus on "attaining" and "projecting" "the light" is manifesting our ignorance, avoidance, and promulgation of the darkest parts of this physical reality.

There is no "light" or "God" that can change what is happening here - the "light" or "god" only serves to distract our species with "profound" tales and concepts of the here-after -- which makes sure we cannot do anything in the here space time, completely powerless to actually make real manifested changes in our lives and our world.
If we focus on either "positive" thoughts or "negative" thoughts we will still manifest the acceptance of abuse as the "bad", which is why there must be no thoughts, no "free choice" but rather just standing as the breathe of life in Self-Honesty in all moments, where we can formulate and live common sense solutions of what is best for all.

If we simply sit in our thought bubble of "positivity" or "negativity", we do not actually move physically, which is the key, because the physical movement of our body is how every task in this existence is completed, not thought movement.
Thoughts without participation move nothing, and are more like brain farts - if I am not breathing here, moving, and doing, living my words, where all solutions are born -- then I am thinking, sitting, doing nothing and separating my words as myself where no solutions are born.

However the phrase "Good things come to those who wait"can be re-defined with an objective common sense meaning here, and then walked as myself. Because in truth if one has patience through breathing effectively, slowing down allows us to more coherently and efficiently see what we require to do in order to get beneficial results.
Slowing down within a point is required before one can speed up within a point so to speak, because going slowly allows us to take time to physically apply knowledge effectively here - so you can say that a point of direct memory access will build faster from slowing down -- which then enables a person to speed up within a point because when integration has occurred, then no thought is required for application.

Rushing through points in our mind, and our interaction all day, very easily leads to many points being missed. But do not connect any expectations or believes where just because you are slowing down you will get great results automatically in all things in your life.

That is not true, because slowing down, while it assists a person to take everything into consideration in each moment, it will not necessarily guarantee the best outcome in whatever point your doing if your plan is flawed in the first place, or if other points are not being directed effectively inside your world, but slowing down within and as breathe shows us that time only exists in our mind, and it always affords one the opportunity to see clearly what common sense steps need to be taken next at the right time, to get the best outcome for all life.

Whether or not you walk those steps will be dependant upon your commitment and application. So slowing down within and as breathe always makes sense, waiting makes sense at the certain times, as it enables us to speed up at other times, but there will only ever be a beneficial outcome from waiting if we act at the right time, on what we have learned and realised through slowing down and waiting in the first place.

Join me next time...