Day 371: It's not so far away

No matter how far something seems, Its fascinating how the mind can trick you into thinking that just because something is a long way away it is separate from us, unachievable. When I have realised in my life that this one physical reality is a part of me in every way, meaning no matter how far away something is, it can be brought here before you know it.

I am learning that I can never doubt myself to be able to interact with something which in the moment before was so far away - if a plane crashes in front of me tomorrow, it will again remind me of this point that something that is far is never really far, because everything is always here.

Do you realise how far away the Sun is from planet Earth? It's about 91.9 Million miles away and in the winter it may feel further away, yet in the summer you can feel the sun's presence right here as the warmth nourishes our skin with vitamin D. Yet in reality of course the sun never moves any closer or further away from to our planet.

This is why many people get starstruck when they see a celebrity, or feel powerless to change themselves and the monetary system to what's best - many define celebrities as living in some kind of speratae reality so far away from here, one can define self-change as being far away, or taking on the moment as being an impossibly long journey.

This is how we allow abuse to go on while we live in our bubbles of happiness, because wars, and starvation all seems so far away for those of us living in dignity and thus too difficult to make this world a better place for all, when really everything we need is all here, it is not far.  The abuse in this world is all here as a part of us and so is the solution, nothing is too far.

As I am pointing out here, nothing is too big or too far for us to achieve, everything is already here a part of us as this one physical reality.

For example a friend visited me recently, this friend lives a long way from where I live in terms of walking distance, yet at this moment our lives crossed and before you know it, we are sharing the same space. My friends journey to my town didn't take as long as I expected, which was a great reminder for me of how small this one planet truly is despte how large our mind can often make it seem.

The internet is one of the greatest tools ever created to really show us that there is no gap that cannot be bridged, because If I can speak to someone on Skype on the other side of the planet, then this goes to show how even the greatest of kazams is really not far at all, because it's all here.

So best that we never again allow our mind to trick us into thinking that anything is too far for us to achieve, there is no target that cannot be hit, no corner of this planet that cannot intersect into our life at any moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that some things are too far away to achieve, too far a journey to make - when I have since realised that everything on this planet, whether 2 miles away or 5,000 miles, everything is here as me and thus always achievable and never too far.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as separate from something that seems too far, when in reality everything is always here as me as this one physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that anything can intersect in our lives at anytime.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I start a long journey and get lost along the way, or fail then it will all be for nothing, when in reality if the fellowship of the ring used that fear as an excuse, then they never would have embarked on an amazing journey and completed their mission of destroying the ring of power - I realise that this fear will never assist me to navigate any journey, so I let it go.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that my ego fears when I am undertaking a long journey, because the ego knows that the greatest change and greatest achievements in this world often comes with a long journey and the ego will do anything to try to trick me into staying in my small bubble of self-interested entertainment patterns.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have increased doubts about something based on how far it seems in my mind, when I realise that this idea of distance in my mind is a limitation that does not assist me in living what is bets for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that every pre-programmed system within and as me, will take a journey to transcend, some longer than others, yet all equally relevant to achieve.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that believing something is too far, always ends up being the justification to not do something, which is completely counterproductive to creating myself as what's best for all life, because creating a world that's best is not going to be a short journey, one must be prepared to walk no matter how far until it's done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when we believe some live in separate unattainable lives, that simply keeps the system of limitation in place of haves and have nots which is unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every here breathe, that the Sun and the Internet, clearly show me that any ideas about a distance being too far is merely an illusion in the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that believing things are too far is exactly how abuse gets allowed to continue in this world, because we are brainwashed to only desire quick, easy, short distance solutions to appease our feelings instead of actually making a tangible world that's best for all life.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to believe that anything is too far to achieve, I realise the separation I fuel in myself through this belief, so as and when i see my mind thinking something is too far, that some gap is too far to bridge - I stop and breathe I realise the game my ego is trying to play, so I continue to breathe until there is no more thoughts that come up.

I commit myself to living the realisation that nothing is too far to achieve, there is no gap that cannot be birged, no solution that cannot be found,  as I prove to myself and all life though my journey to life.

I commit myself to showing that trying to avoid long distance, doubting I can achieve a certain distance or defining some targets as being too far too hit, is all justifications that keep this capitalistic system in place.

I commit myself to showing that an Equal Money System as with any change that benefits all life equally has to be done, regardless of distance, because when something benefits all life equally, then no distance is too far to manifest that. 




 

Day 370: Awareness of the Pain of others

We humans will do anything to avoid facing difficulty, anything to avoid pain, both mental and physical. Yet what I have realised in my process is that any house you want to build in life, then you will have to face some pain.

We try to use money, drugs, entertainment to try to avoid having to face pain - we will do anything to ignore our own and the pain of others, which is unsurprising then that we have a world full of pain.

As a consequence of years of locating things within me, systems in my mind/body and day to day life that cause me pain, facing patterns that are self-sabotaging - I automatically want to assist someone  that I see is struggling with some form of mental and or physical pain regardless of if I know them or not.

The world has been getting colder for a very long time and consequently more people than ever before are in some kind of mental and/or physical pain.

Just this past week, on a late night venture to the shop I saw someone who was crying slumped against the wall, I could tell this person was in a deep well of painful emotion and initially I had the thought to "avoid the pain" to just ignore it and walk away as a few people before me were doing - but as I looked at her hearing the hysterical weeping, I stood in her shoes and I could feel her pain was immense. 

I could see this person was also very drunk and with all that emotion It was clear for anyone aware to see, that this person was at the end of their tether, at a tipping point and will need some support, a seed must be planted or there is a genuine danger they could hurt themselves, someone else or both which only perpetuates a world of pain.

So I forgave myself for wanting to ignore the pain here before me, I breathed and started speaking to this person, finding out the issue offering words of support. I gave her some water, gave her a hug, gave her somewhere to stay as she had nowhere to go.  As we spoke more through the night she calmed down substantially, then the next day this person thanked me profusely for me helping them.

Now as a result of me facing and assisting to diffuse this pain I was aware of in another I now have a new friend which again goes to show that when we face all pain that exists here within ourselves and all life and direct it to what's best, instead of avoiding it then we can truly make a world of harmony.

Never forget that every time you have been in pain in your life, you may remember that a little bit of TLC from someone assisted you to get the root of and end your own pain - so never forget when you see someone in pain, be aware of it, put yourself in their shoes, because your assistance could be exactly the seed that the person needs in order to deal with and end their pain.

We cannot allow ourselves to shy away from facing your own pain, we must diffuse all pain until we have a world of enjoyment for all - these statements have assisted me before and continue to do so in facing pain -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to avoid all forms of pain, to try and keep myself in a zombie like state where I cannot feel pain, when I have since realised that there is no avoiding pain, we all must face it at various points in order to grow - training, learning, changing, removing fears requires facing pain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that I am pre-programmed like all humans are to not care about the pain of others as long as I am not in pain myself in complete self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can avoid pain, when in reality pain is a support to show me that I still have systems within and as me that need to be fixed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  not realise in all moments, that while i can assist someone to assist themselves to face their pain, I cannot directly remove anyone else's pain other than my own.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that the more I delay facing pain, then then longer it will take to change, while the sooner I face pain then the sooner the root cause of the pain can be removed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe for years that I am tough which is then a justification to just try and ignore pain when it occurs rather then getting to the root of what is causing the pain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that my ego tricks me into thinking I can handle any pain that comes up, when in reality everyone has a limit to the pain that can be endured and a painful tooth will only get more painful without getting to the root, which is why pain of any type must be faced and fixed asap, to delay is only to sabotage myself which I do not accept.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to ignore and avoid my own and the pain of others, when in reality that is the exact reason why we have a world full of pain and discomfort, is because nobody is willing to face and remove systems that cause discomfort and pain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed into a money system throughout my life that causes pain for the majority, which is why I stand here taking self-responsibility to create a new money system as myself that supports all life instead of harming it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear pain and thus use this as a justification to continue feeding into systems, which only cause more pain in my body, which is an unacceptable cycle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change because of knowing that true change that benefits all life is not done without having to face some level of pain. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that while one person in this world is in pain, then I am not truly pain free - because unless all are free, none are free.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to drugs and alcohol at various points in my life in order to try and avoid facing pain, when all these things do is delay the inevitable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when suppression is allowed, then no matter how far down I try to suppress the point, the consequence must always be faced eventually.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to realise that things my mind believes will be painful to go without, when i actually go without I am still here breathing, meaning i am not diminished as my ego tries to trick me into believing I am actually strengthened.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that my self-interest will always look to preserve anything I am addicted to any system my ego relies on in order to avoid facing the pain of losing this mental crutch.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the reason the mind finds it painful to let go of any system is because we define ourselves through this system which gives us energy and it is that energy we are addicted to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot live without some kind of energy system that I drain, which while it feels like a strength only actually drains my physical body and causes a continuation of a world of pain.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to ignore pain in my mind, my body or in anybody in this world. So as and when i see my mind having thoughts to avoid facing pain, I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to interact with these thoughts, because I know that to avoid the pain now will only compound the consequence later, make it more difficult to face later and keep in a prison of separation, so i breathe and continue to do so until there is no more ignorance to any pain.

I commit myself to living the realisation that pain is a support to show me where there is a still a problem here, a system that requires to be faced and transcended. 

I commit myself to exposing the consequences of ignoring or delaying facing pain in this world, through living as an example of getting to the root of all pain here, until there is only a world of enjoyment for all life.



    

Day 369: Are you a real friend?

It's not something to ever fear, yet it is something you always have to aware of in your social circles in life, those who you may believe are your friends - but in reality while your intentions and starting point of the friendship may be clear with someone - their intentions/starting point could be abusive.

Smiling in your face, taking advantage of your giving nature, liking things they do with you, liking things they get from you, but not really liking you - and when it suits them, they will forget everything you have done with them and they will look to stab you in spite in thought and deed.

It's always disappointing to be let down by someone you thought cared about you, but when humans are programmed to be creatures of self-interest and deception it is not surprising.

You will alway find out who are your real friends when some form of controversy arises, when you change something about yourself and in these moments it's important to not react, to never be surprised when someone's true feelings about you surface - in the most testing of moments, these people will reveal that they always never cared, they always wanted to see you fall, but have simply been laying in wait for a clear opportunity to strike as every snake does.

I reacted in extreme disappointment towards someone I thought was a friend recently, which I have done before and this pattern doesn't assist me. I was also disappointed in myself for not spotting this persons Jealousies, Judgements and Blames etc towards me.

I know what a real unconditional friendship looks like - two people that support each other in various ways to be the best version of themselves, someone who will praise or challenge you in person about any beneficial or questionable decisions you make in life, someone who will never try to harm you in your face or behind your back in thought or deed.

If your not sure about your friendship with someone you know, I suggest testing your friendship by stopping something you like doing with them, something you may feel defines the friendship, see if they change how they treat you. If they start showing a new abusive face you haven't seen towards you before, then you know it was always a fake friendship.

If not then life will eventually expose them to you anyway, because whenever there is a moment where you are about to fall off a cliff - they will grab your hand to stop you from falling, just to be able to smile in your face before they dig in their claws and throw you off the cliff like Scar does to Mufasa in the Lion King.

You never know someone until you really know them, so I will stay aware of fake friends and clear my reactions should anymore arise in my life -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in extreme disappointment when someone shows themselves to be a fake friend, when really if i had been paying closer attention to the design of the friendship in common sense, then I would have spotted the toxic intentions earlier.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to realise that if no solid foundations  are put in place at the start of the friendship to agree to support each other unconditionally to be the best, then that will always leave the door open for a starting point of separation, where abuse will seep into the friendship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that just because I have a clear starting point with a friend, does not mean that they do, no matter how much I try to convince myself they do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to trust someone is my friend, even when I have spotted their deception with others before and instead of paying attention to this, I simply acted as if i was blind to this and instead focused on the things i like about their character in self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that just because I like some part of a person's character, that doesn't justify ignoring their abuse or mean they will actually be a real friend.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself about the reality of some of my friendships in life, when I even see a hint of toxic intentions in someone I cannot allow myself to act like it is not there, because this is how one can get poisoned as a consequence in the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not always  realise there is a real difference between someone who likes something about you and someone who really likes you unconditionally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that you can never expect trust from another, because real trust is self-trust. Trust is not given to others it is lived as self, so when one lives as self--trust, then this is where I can trust myself with life in totality and thus trust myself to only develop friendships of real value and worth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be disappointed in myself whenever someone shows themselves to be a fake friend, because I know that If i had actually been more aware here as this breathe I would have seen the potential form harm sooner. I realise that this disappointment does not assist me in living what's best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that a fake friend will never really put themselves in your shoes, they will always judge you from their own experience as an observer, as god which is ego in complete separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that fake friends will never stab you in the back when they know they can get something from you they like such as money, sex, knowledge - but when they feel they cant get it as often or as much as they want in self-interest, then they will snake strike you.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that relationships based on shifting sand, based on separation is the reason we have a world of abuse, because everyone is pretending to support each other when in reality everyone is in competition with each other, which results in a  world of distrust, spite and conflict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that just because someone says they are my friend, that doesn't mean they are not actually competing with me, because they are reacting to some part of my character negatively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that a fake friend will always claim to be my friend when asked, but in reality in the secret mind they are actually a wolf in sheep's clothing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as not being a trusting person based on being let down by many in my life, but in reality this is self-dishonesty because while I say to others I don't trust people easily, in reality I actually do, because of desiring to have as many friends as possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have as many friends of possible, when I realise that throwing a wide net with no set guidelines will always catch some toxic fish - it is best for all to take the time to actually tailor quality within my friendships first and foremost, not quantity. 

I commit myself to not allowing myself to react in disappointment when someone shows they are a fake friend, I realise that I cannot control what others do and If I don't take the proper care to build friendships of worth fake friends will always come again. So as and when I see my mind having thoughts of disappointment towards someone who i thought was a friend, I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to interact with these thoughts as in doing so would only continue a pattern of separation, so i breathe and continue to do so until there is no more disappointment when someone who I could have spotted earlier if i applied more common sense shows they are a fake friend.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to ignore even the most subtle indication of abusive intent towards me I see in someone who is claiming to be my friend.

I commit myself to exposing fake friendships in life, through living as an example of real friendship as myself, through having a clear starting point with myself and with all my friends, where I only accept treating others as I would like to be treated, with true respect and honour.

I commit myself to living the realisation that humanity must develop a real friendship with themselves, with all life and until we can put ourselves in the shoes of all life, we will never change this world to what's best for all.

  

Day 368: Malicious Intent

Never forget when you are a polarising figure, someone outspoken, someone who questions the ego, there is always going to be people who feel positively about you and some who feel negatively about you, this is the consequence you have to accept.

Then if there is other reasons people have to dislike you then the negative feelings can be more intense, more malicious. If someone reacts negatively to your age, your race, your money, your family, your friends, your lifestyle, your principles then you cannot control any of that.

Then when someone who has these malicious intentions towards you, never forget that if anything happens to them, if they get sick, get physically hurt or lose something, they will look for any opportunity to blame you, to paint you as some monster, to try and incite a hoard to burn you at the stake.

It's never easy to know that anyone out there wants to cause you severe harm financially, physically or both, because I have had some threats of harm recently. Its a bad feeling to have, but all I know is that I have never had anything to hide from anyone, my life story is known to many and it's been a long journey for me to become the man I am today, a man that never intentionally harms anyone, a man that gives without looking for reward as im only interested in helping people improve their life.

I know I am a controversial character, I know I can get people going with words and I am by no means perfection, but no matter what you hear about me from those that love me or those that hate me, of those that are indifferent I only ask that you make your own judgment of what kind of person I am.

Those who have known me all my life know what kind of person I am, they know the supportive and caring person I truly am, these people care for me unconditionally and me for them - But of course anyone who has malicious intentions towards me in anyway, I cannot change how you feel, but i do understand why you feel this way, and I truly hope that we can fix any issues because peaceful resolution is always what's best for all anytime an altercation arises in our life.

Nobody can change what they have done, all I can do is make sure that I keep walking creating myself as what's best for all and so worrying about the malicious intentions of others towards me will never benefit me to be the best version of myself -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that some people want to cause me harm because they feel I have caused an injustice to them, regardless of the fact that I know I never intend to physically harm anyone in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise sometimes how quickly people can react to my words in malice, because it may come across too direct, honest, sarcastic, rude etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that telling someone the truth of my thoughts about them positive or negative is a good thing, when in reality everyone loves a positive comment, but whenever you tell someone the bad feelings you have about them, this can cause a person to physically attack you.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad about the fact that some people want to paint me as a horrible person, that I am some kind of a thug, a monster, when in reality my training, my life experience, my principles, mean that it is not possible for me to attack anyone, I only ever defend myself if I am physically attacked first.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise how much some people can hate you if you accidentally hurt them more than you initially realised after they attacked you first.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to carry shame about any physical pain I cause anyone, even when i didn't intend this pain, I can remember the first time feeling like this when I was about 11 and I accidently hurt my friends ankle badly in a football match - but I realise that while initial shame is understandable, because if you imagine accidently standing on your dog's foot and breaking a bone in their foot, initial shame is understandable, but carrying this shame for the rest of your life will only keep you in a self-sabotaging depressed state which does not benefit anyone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually have a physically uncomfortable feeling in my stomach when i know someone has serious ill will towards me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sometimes have paranoid expectation that if someone dislikes me enough, they could automatically plot and scheme to see me burn, to get me hurt, stabbed, shot, locked up, maimed and smear my name in the dirt.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  fear that once someone dislikes me, that they will just automatically dislike me forever without ever extending a handshake of peace - realise I cannot change how others feel about me and you never truly know when a person can realise the futility of conflict with anyone.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to carry any reactions about the malicious intentions of others, so as and when I see myself getting uncomfortable about how bad someone might feel about me, I stop and breathe, I realise that these uncomfortable reactions only limit me, so I breathe and keeping doing so until there is no more thoughts that come up.

I commit myself to showing that all malicious intentions in this world, must be met with peaceful intentions because it is what's best for all.