Day 159: Are you disabled? Stop being lazy! Part 2

So continuing from my last blog -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself at certain points in my life to judge disabled people as lazy, in the exact same way that this system of capitalism is doing in increasing amounts everyday. I realise that the majority of genuinely disabled people are not lazy at all, but are simply limited or simply unable to physically produce labour like someone who is not disabled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame unemployed/disabled people in my mind at various points in my life, for not contributing to society in the form of taxable labour. I have since realised in my life, that this concept is a capitalist idea, which was brainwashed into me from the day I was born to accept and support this capitalist money system - I take self-responsibility to never accept this concept within and as me ever again, because it does not benefit anyone, and within an equal money system nobody blames anyone - we all take self-responsibility to change anything that doesn't benefit everyone -- to something that does.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stand equal as capitalism within and as me, where I expect that everyone should be able to work unless they are literally unable to move. I realise that this is not practical in anyway, because as my mother and many severely disabled people prove, just because a person is able to seemingly move okay, it does not mean they do not have a serious disability and or a potentially life threatening or terminal condition.

So I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that many people can be seriously ill even if they don't actually look it. I realise that while people feeding into certain facets of the mind for a prolonged period of time can unknowingly cause some mental and physical disabilities in a person, most severe disabilities are contracted through no fault of the persons own - so I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that disabilities are contracted, not chosen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to physically compare my own mental/physical capabilities to that of other people, and then viewing the person as weak if they cannot maintain my level of mental/physical capabilities. I realise that this is just my ego chatting, because everyone has varying levels of fitness and physical capabilities, plus I have an above average stamina level so again it makes no sense to compare people to myself, and comparison in the mind in general makes no sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow memories of myself and other people Iv'e known in my life "over-playing" a short term minor illness just to avoid work, to then affect how I view other people, in terms of assuming the person is trying to deceive others by over-playing their illness just to avoid work. I realise that these memories of me deceiving are not supportive in living what is best for all, because while a person could be over-playing their issue, in reality there also could be a serious condition as the underlying cause for why a person is not doing anything, being seemingly "lazy".

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments, that as my mother proves - serious disabilities are not always easy to physically notice immediately, and because my mother forces herself to do labour throughout her days to try and hide her disabilities, I sometimes forget that many other people do the same. So I forgive myself that I have not realised in every breathe that many disabled people will try their best to hide their ailment, because having a serious disability, accepting that you cannot mentally and or physically do what most people can, this can cause a person to feel alienated from others and want to find ways to fit in more.

So just because someone may seem healthy, I must always remind myself, that the truth underneath could be a completely different story. Its the same way that a person can seem stable, but be incredibly mind possessed inside - massive depression, anger or jealousy issues etc. The true story of majority of humans inside is not a nice story.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my mothers ability to push through pain, and generally have a high pain tolerance, to then be a reason why I sub-consciously judge other disabled people as "lazy" if they cannot do what my mother does. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see anyone disabled or not as being lazy if they are not doing more labour then my mother. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and feed into polarity in my mind, by defining someone as a "bad person" that is lazy for a prolonged period of time - I realise that all these points make no sense whatsoever, all this comparison, judgement and polarity do not assist me to live what is best for every living being on the planet -- so I take self-responsibility to remove these points from me no matter what, through self-investigation, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application of breathing.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments, that it is not healthy for a disabled person to force themselves to work, just because of feeling ashamed/alienated that they are not working and are debilitated, because the system of capitalism is emotionally manipulating disabled people to judge themselves as lazy. I realise that no disabled person should have to do labour to survive, because in reality nobody should have to validate and fight for their survival. I realise that in an equal money system, nobody will have to fight to survive, we will all be taken care of, and labour will be allocated practically to machines, and to the physically most able and strongest of us.

I forgive myself for at times in my life, attempting to prey on the weak in my mind, the same way as this capitalist money system, like a hungry lion chasing a wounded animal in the wild. I realise that this only highlights my own weakness, because in a world that is best for all, the mentally/physically weakest are uplifted, not preyed upon, because in a world that is best for all, everyone is uplifted - even people like the queen who may think that equality is a downgrade of living standards for them, because the reality is  - that when everyone is living in a heaven reality -- everything on Earth is heaven for everyone ;)  

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that laziness has nothing to do with whether a person is disabled or not, it is simply a pre-program which everyone has accepted at certain points in our lives. Also laziness is sometimes supportive for a person, for a disabled person or anyone so as to not over work ourselves at times. Laziness only becomes an issue when it is a continual cycle in a persons life that isn't connected to a physical ailment -  which would indicate a dysfunctional issue in the persons mind that can be dealt with with if the person wills themselves to change it.

I commit myself to live the realisation that physical variations and limitations of various beings, is just a reality of  this world, the same way that some people are physically more expansive and enhanced then others. I realise that we are all where we are, nobody is any more important then anybody else, so when and as I see my mind judging, blaming, comparing, separating myself from the physical in my mind, I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to go into these thoughts, as I know that it is not supportive to do so, so I continue to breathe until there is no more shit that comes up in my head.

I commit myself to living the realisation that regardless of a persons mental/physical capabilities we are all equal as life, and in practical application with this point, that means not judging everyone by the same high mental/physical capabilities that I or other fit people have.

I commit myself to creating a world where everyone is supported regardless of physical ailments or not, where nobody has to judge others, compare with others, try and punish weaker beings, or hide anything about ourselves. This world of heaven on earth, will be built by self-responsible world leaders walking in unison as a group to walk no matter how far until its done.  

Day 158: Are you disabled? Stop being lazy!

Fascinating, so recently my mother has received notification from the UK government, as have all disabled citizens in the UK, that the disability living allowance income provided by the government is now under "review". This is being done because the government is assessing whether anyone that is claiming disability living allowance is healthy enough to have their money stopped and be forced back into employment, with the exception of those diagnosed with terminal cancer.

This is something that the government has been doing for a few years now, in an attempt to cut expenditure costs in anyway possible. Disability living allowance in the UK is divided into a grading system whereby, people with minor disabilities like a bad back that cant work for a while receive the minimal allowance, people with standard types of disabilities like asthma/diabetes/arthritis for instance receive the standard disability living allowance rate. Anyone that requires supervision all day with multiple ailments, difficulty walking and or terminally ill like my mother receive the highest possible rate for disability living allowance.

Now while it is understandable that most Governments around the world in this capitalist money system have to find ways to reduce income expenditure in anyway possible, especially when there genuinely are a lot of people that claim for disability living allowance that are actually able to work. It really does highlight what a dysfunctional system we live in currently when people like my mother who genuinely are physically unable to work are being scrutinised for the validity of their disability, and potentially being forced back into employment as if being disabled is a choice.

Bottom line is that people who have multiple major disablements including: mobility impairments, cognitive dysfunctions, learning dysfunctions, hearing and or vision impairment, chronic and or terminal conditions etc, are not people that should ever have to be assessed for the validity of their disability allowance.  Severe disabilities are not ailments that you ever truly get over like a cold/flu or a broken bone for instance, severe disabilities are something that for the most part people are stuck with for life.

I mean you tell me, do you think someone who is severely disabled should be forced to complete labour? To have to fight for survival like someone who is not disabled, when considering that it is hard enough for a person in this system to financially support themselves without a severe disability. No.

But this is the problem with capitalism, it is not designed to support all beings unconditionally from  birth to death, all support in this system is always conditional, and essentially capitalism is designed to drain money from 99% in increasing amounts, and feed the 1% in increasing amounts. In capitalism the weakest are always the first targets, which is why so many financially weaker countries have such huge poverty/starvation, it is why so many animals, plants, and children suffer in the world everyday. Which is also why the disabled are now being targeted more in many countries as being prime targets to take more money from.

The wealthy elite as we all can be, are very maniacal and strategically intelligent in stealing money. They know as we all do, that it is always the physically and mentally weakest beings that are the easiest to exploit in life. There is never any aggressive and challenging consequences that can come from exploiting the weak, however with more disabled people getting less and less money, there will inevitably be a percentage rise of frustrated disabled people getting involved in criminal behaviour.

Now when I say that the government is doing these cuts to disability costs in order to free up money, what that means in reality is - cutting expenditure on middle/lower class people -- to be able to cover the bigger "more important bills" that is apparently "owed" to super wealthy people and groups, who already have majority of the worlds wealth. Its like a form of judgement and punishment towards disabled people, for not providing any taxable income to the elite for a long time if ever. So are you disabled? No no no your ok, you should just stop being lazy and get back into the slave based employment system so you can give us more tax money, and you can have less money. It is completely unacceptable.

Interesting also to consider that because we are equal and one within and as this capitalist money system, that in self-honesty everyone can admit to themselves that they have judged a disabled person as lazy in their lifetime. I know I have.

So walk with me in my next blog as I continue to investigate this point.

              

Day 157: I think I know what I want Part 2

So continuing from my last blog -

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be clear with myself about the reality of what career I want to pursue in my life. I realise that this lack of clarity is in part a result of having to take whatever job is available regardless of passion in this capitalistic money system -

So within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to essentially believe that the realisation and actualisation of my dreams and goals in life are unrealistic and therefore apparently pointless to pursue - within this I realise that yes while we do have to financially support ourselves with whatever job we can get/what pays us the best money -- that does not mean that if we are living in dignity, that we cannot find ways to research, and take step towards making our dreams become reality by living a profession that we will enjoy more.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that the mind exaggerates our imagination about the reality of the desires/dreams that we want to make reality. I realise and understand now, that when one makes assumptions, when one thinks they know the outcome of something before you get there, then one is completely deceiving themselves. So I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see myself as equal to my passion, where the reality of this dream is seen clearly for what it is without any projected fantasies on top.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see the clear differences between expectations and reality in mind - because of seeing my expectations as reality -- so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my expectations as reality. I have since realised that expectations can never be defined as reality until this is proven in physical time space here.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise in all moments, that without a plan, without structure - our dreams turn into nightmares.

I forgive myself for no wanting to put the necessary physical effort into making my dreams an actual reality - I realise that if there is no physical movement is made in any undertaking, then there will be no energy to move the necessary systems into place to actualise the dreams that I want to achieve.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as desire as separation from my dreams, instead of physically building step by step in equality with the dream I am working to actualise, where I will myself in every moment to connect this dram to physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am nothing but a slave, that is good for nothing other then feeding the system/paying my bills. I realise that the acceptance of this belief only makes living our dreams become impossible, I realise that in order to become successful in any undertaking, it requires releasing this belief and building a more self-responsible business/boss designed mind that we all know we have the power to be as children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my dreams are meaningless to pursue. I realise that this belief is a consequence of accepting myself as a wage slave in my mind/life. So I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit myself by accepting the reality of my billing paying life to affect my mind to believe that it is all I am good for.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to the reality of the suffering in the world, by believing that this world is "proof" that as long as I have the basics like so many people in this world don't, then I am "ok" and I don't need to pursue any more as complacency. I realise that this belief is completely counter productive in being able to build anything with my hands in this world, and actually make sure that I continue to feed into and exist as a system that allows the majority to suffer, so I take self-responsibility to end this bullshit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as self-doubt, where I allow the consequences of capitalism on mine and everyone else's life to essentially crush my dreams in my mind - which is exactly what the system is designed to do to 99% of people, but I am not willing to allow this to continue as myself, because it is dis-empowering and although I am in this system with everybody else, this does not mean I have to be of this system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become depressed, disillusioned and confused with the reality of something I have wanted/wanted to achieve in my life. I realise that I deceived myself into believing that my dreams would be as euphoric in reality as they are in my mind - so I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments, that no matter how "amazing" or attractive something might be to us in our mind -- the reality is that everything is not glamorous underneath, the nuts and bolts of how something works in this world can often be a complete horror story, as the reverse of what we imagined it would be. Everything is in reverse after all.

But the point is this should not shock me in anyway, because the reality of some pre-programs inside me, may be attractive in my mind on the outside, but inside they are horror stories - as above so below. So I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be surprised by the reality of my dreams being different to what it appears on the outside - I realise that this is the case with majority of things, so surprise/depression/disillusionment/confusion are all completely unnecessary. Never be surprised to be surprised.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that just because we have learnt that the reality of our childhood dream may be different to what we thought, and we may lose passion for it - however learning is never over, there is no end point to our dreams, that is the point -- we can create new passions/dreams through the process of learning, maybe even some that we would not have expected :)

I commit myself to not allowing myself to doubt myself and see myself as nothing more then a powerless wage slave. When and as I see myself having thoughts like this, I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to entertain these thoughts, as I realise the consequences of this. I live the realisation that although I must pay to live like everyone here, I am the power that changes this world, not the other way around, so I breathe and continue to do so no matter how long and how many times, until these dis-empowering thoughts are deleted.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to believe thoughts that pursuing dreams is pointless, I realise that this is an extremely limiting concept, which is of no benefit to me or anyone else in this world. So when and as I see myself having these type of beliefs come up in my mind, I stop and I breathe, I realise that this shit in my head only results in no dreams ever been accomplished in reality. So I push myself to keep breathing until there is no more beliefs like this that come up in my head again.

I commit myself to living the realisation that anything can be achieved when one puts their complete focus and effort on finding ways to make something work in physical real time no matter how many times you fail, and within this I realise that it is only when this point is not clear in me that failure is highly likely and success is highly unlikely.

I commit myself to living the realisation that while the actualisation of one dream may not be as enjoyable as we first thought, it is through learning that there is always new passions/dreams that we can build into our life, and I also realise within this that there is no dream that will be easy or enjoyable to create, it will take continual losses/hard work to enjoy the fruits of the labour at the end.

  



 



 

Day 156: I think I know what I want

So recently I listened to a radio podcast, and at one point the discussion veered into what everyone wanted to do with their life as a child. Everyone explained what their childhood dream for the future was, and one of the presenters brought up a point that I am going to look at in this blog.

He said "The problem is you think you know what you want, and then when you get there as an adult, a lot of the time it is not what we expect in our mind". I find this point interesting, because we have all had a dream that we wanted to achieve as children in our mind - and just in general the mind exaggerates everything to the point that the reality of the dream we want to achieve can rarely match our expectation. Most people don't pursue or lose interest in that dream in teenage/young adult life, then in adult years most of us have not achieved the dreams we wanted to achieve as children in anyway.

What happens is that as we get older, the cold reality of this capitalist money system becomes clearer and clearer to us, and essentially we soon realise that we have to take whatever opportunity comes our way, whether we have a passion for it or not. I mean how many people in today's world can say that they really enjoy the work that they do? Not a massive percentage of humanity that's for sure.

Its like once people realise how much hard work it will take to even actualise their dreams, a defeatist attitude becomes stronger and stronger as we get older. For instance if you ask most kids if they think they will be in charge as a boss when they get older, they will say yes, but if you ask most adults this same question, most will say no, which is why most adults can accept themselves as an employee only instead of a company owner.

Then as we settle into our life of mediocrity, we accept that which we feel our life is telling us - which is we are just slaves, minor, insignificant beings, that can now only live a life of paying bills and constantly fighting to stay away from poverty. We lose the passion to pursue the dreams we once had, we start believing that our dreams are meaningless to pursue because our life apparently "proves" to us that dreams do not become reality, and many of us possibly may have a life structure in place now that makes it physically impossible to pursue our childhood dreams even if we want to - kids, animals, disabilities, mental issues, lots of debt obligations and bills etc. These points are often life long responsibilities to deal with for many.

However this allowance of capitalism to crush our dreams in our minds as we grow up is incredibly limiting - I myself can attest to multiple missed opportunities in my life to pursue various passions I have, all due to accepting the limiting thoughts based in self-doubt that my dreams are "unattainable".

I know of various friends and acquaintances worldwide that took self-responsibility for their mind, did not allow these thoughts to direct their future, and instead re-wired themselves and their life with self-will and determination to now be living out their dreams, so there is no doubt that dreams can be realised in this world - but the very nature of how capitalism is structured currently does not allow the majority to do this.

Then when we look at when a person does pursue the dream they think they are passionate for, but when they make it to the top of the field they are passionate for, they actually realise that they do not actually like the reality of how the field works.
As a child it seemed like it would be such an amazing career to have, but then after all the hard work to get to the top of this field, the person finds that there is politics, backstabbing, and a host of other points that now causes a person to see their once dream childhood career as a nightmare come to life -
for example how many actors, muscians, artists, scientists, inventors, designers etc all around the world actually would avoid their career if they could go back in time? A lot I would say, all because of thinking they knew how their dream career worked before they got there, then when they get there, it was totally different to what they thought it was, and so this person became depressed, disillusioned and confused with their life, and thus became a less effective member of society.

In this context this is a problem with people chasing what they believe are their dreams -  it can shatter a person when they don't attain them, or if they are not what the person imagined. In this world of capitalism that we currently have, nothing is what it seems, no matter how good something looks to us, their is always likely another story laying underneath, beautiful on the outside/a horror story inside, everything is in reverse essentially.

Once we have spent a long time to attain anything and then we are massively disappointed and sad  with what we attain it is understandable. But it must also be considered that, although it is never enjoyable to be disappointed after a lot of hard work, there is no end point to what our passions and dreams are - there are always new passions to be lived and new dreams to be actualised in our experience, learning is constant, and if anyone pushes themselves to have introspection, they may find they have a lot more passions then what they first thought. There are passions that many of us have forgotten about, buried in our unconscious in the very cells of our body - a bit total recall and we may be surprised that it is no big deal if one of dreams don't pan out because in reality we all have many, our eggs are not all in one basket.

So the point of this blog is not to say a person should or shouldn't chase their dreams, but rather that if you have a life of dignity and you have a passion - then do your best to drive for this passion to be become realised in physical reality, but at the same time be prepared for the reality of your dreams to not be what is expected, to make sure that no matter what happens, there is no separation in ourselves that we allow between expectation and reality -- where regardless of what happens, I will dedicate myself to live life in a way that is best for all. So if my dreams are actualised or not - whether my dreams are as good as I thought they would be or not -- I will still be me regardless - here as breathe living in equality and oneness.

Join me in my next blog as i continue this point.

Day 155: "Blood is thicker then Water" Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the statement "Blood is thicker then Water" in my life, where I place more importance on blood family relations then anyone else. I realise that this concept is in complete separation from physical reality, and so does not benefit me or anyone in this world in living what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that blood family relation are more important and more valid bonds then people outside of the family. I realise that this belief is complete self-deception, because as my life proves some of my most trusted friends and life long bonds are not my blood family and have nothing to do with blood in general.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define this concept in this way, when in reality, the way I have defined this statement is not true at all in reality. Because if someone wants to be an arsehole towards me, it makes no difference if they are blood relations or not, an arsehole is an arsehole, and blood relations does not automatically build trust, honour, dignity and respect in a relationship with two people. In fact when I am honest with myself, and when anyone reading this is honest with themselves, blood family members can deceive, manipulate and abuse each other, more so in some families then others obviously.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this "blood is thicker then Water" statement to attempt to manipulate other family members that dare decide to spend more time with people outside of the blood family. I realise that manipulating others is never acceptable, and I realise that even if my manipulation were to be successful, it would only create an element of resentment within the blood family which is not helpful for anybody.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that through accepting this "Blood is thicker then Water" concept as myself, I am unknowingly feeding into the capitalist money system that exists in this world as my mind that governs it, this system of survival of the fittest. I realise that this concept is a massive part of the reason why so many people ignore the suffering existing outside of our own family harmony, and thus this concept is a large part of why we have such a cold and uncaring world. I take Self-responsibility to remove this concept as myself, so that I am more effective in my capacity to be a voice for the voiceless, and in living what is beneficial for all living beings.


I forgive myself that I have not realised that through accepting this "Blood is thicker then Water" concept, I am literally knowingly or not turning my family into a organised crime family syndicate, or a royal family structure, where not only will we give so much to our own family, and ignore anyone outside of the family, but we will actually threaten and possibly act out verbal and physical abuse towards anyone that we suspect wants to "invade" and "sabotage" our family "harmony" -

so within this I forgive myself that I have not realised that through accepting this "Blood is thicker then Water" concept I am actually accepting fear towards those not  fortunate enough to be part of my family, because as this concept I'm constantly fearing that someone outside of the family gang is trying to plot ways to infiltrate our family, and will destroy the family "harmony", even when this may not be the case at all, but this fear in our mind creates the imagination of this potential "invasion" lol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live this "Blood is thicker then Water" statement as myself, without realising that i do not even understand the origin and true meaning of this statement is. I have since realised that this statement was first used around the 1100s in England, and actually means that the bonds we create with comrades on a bloody battlefield, are more valid then those of the water of the mothers womb/family.
So within this I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that how I am defining this concept is the complete opposite of its true meaning, I realise that as with many things in our lives, we are seeing everything in reverse to its true meaning through accepting our pre-programmed mind as ourself.

I forgive myself that I have not considered that through accepting and allowing myself to be brainwashed by this "Blood is thicker then Water" concept, that I am completely unable to see that family can be created within any person. I have now realised that family can be created wherever I am in my life, this is done through creating a foundation of trust, respect, honour, dignity and loyalty with another person - this has nothing to do with what type of blood we have running through our veins -- every being is equal as the physical, made up of water, and so if there is equal understanding between two people, then new family can always be developed.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to accept this "Blood is thicker then Water" concept within and as me. I realise that this concept is in complete separation from physical reality there is no benefit to me or anyone else in living what is best for all - so when and as I see thoughts coming up in my head in relation to defining blood family as more important then the needs of anyone else, I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to engage these thoughts, I know what I am feeding if I accept these thoughts, which is the cyclical outflows of a capitalist mind.
I breathe and continue to breathe until there is no more thoughts that come up, and I can now apply simply common sense, to make sure I am living as an example of equality in action, where all beings are valued equally as the physical.

 I commit myself to living the realisation that all life are equal as the physical, as one family in reality - so if there is equal understanding, respect, honour, dignity and trust developed between two people, then family can be created anywhere and with anyone, it has nothing to do with a persons blood or DNA.