Day 241: Learning to not react when I am treated differently

Nobody likes to be the black sheep in the herd, and we have all been in situations in our life where we have been treated differently to others in and felt offended because of it.

Why might you be treated differently in a situation? Well maybe your views and principles are not shared by those in the situation, or maybe someone in your family is not liked and so you are being treated differently by someone for that.

 Or maybe it could be something as trivial as the sports team you like is not liked by the others in the group and so you are being ignored, not embraced but are rather pushed to the edges of the situation.

This happened to me recently whereby some people I work with were providing money to a charity that I am not willing to provide my own finance towards, they were all rewarded with a "dress down" day, the afternoon off work and an evening party.

I was not singled out for persecution or anything and I was also allowed the afternoon off, though not

the dressing down of course lol. But you notice the strange looks as I am the only person in the office still in a suit, the silence, the whispers etc.

I was reacting to all those factors in this moment, inside my mind I was laughing to myself, disappointed by the petty nature of this behaviour, wondering if they are trying to single me out.  

Yet I have found that the best solution for this is to first pull myself out of my mind through self corrective application of breathing, where I touch what is here, where I stay calm about the purposeful attempt to single and isolate me out of the situation.

Then secondly I find that focusing, sticking to my tasks and integrating into my work with those work colleagues, not being distracted by any of their behaviour. Its like breezing through a brick wall that is placed before me, laughing with their laughs, supporting them in completing mine and their projects etc.

This helps to mitigate their different treatment of me regarding these points, and assists me to remain stable as the physical here and stay out of my mind - Its amazing in life how anyone who dislikes you for whatever reason, will reduce their dislike of you every time you help them to achieve something physically, because the power of unity naturally wears down the defences of the most resistant defences of the ego.

But I am still learning and their is a lot more learning left to do, because although I diffused the situation inside my mind, I still reacted to the different way I was treated.

Yet I should expect this, this should not surprise me and thus should not shake my mind even for a moment.

So walk with me as I take self-responsibility to investigate this point and learn to redesign myself to be able to be un-phased by any attempts to single me out in any scenario - because when you produce a message in this world that is not understood by the majority in the system still, then you have to be prepared for the response to the reactions your message can cause in others.

  

Day 240: The Ego of "I don't like it" Part 2

Do you find yourself often  saying you don't like something? Well capitalism brainwashes us from a young age to dislike things, but desire to be liked by everyone. If you find yourself disliking a lot of things, then know that this pattern of behaviour will not assist you in your life. So walk with me to release this point -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as the thought "I don't like it" in relation to various points in my life in a pattern of behaviour. I realise that these thoughts only occur in relation to when my ego gets offended by something I feel passionate about. I also realise that the consequences of participating with these thoughts are not supportive but only lead to judgements and blames of other people, keeping me in complete separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every  moment that if I took more time to get to understand more about the person or thing I am disliking, then I would find many areas of common ground where we are completely equal, because seeing the similarities ahead of the differences with anyone will support me in maintaining the most beneficial relationship with myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to define myself as a person who must say when I don't like something immediately, that I must be honest to someone if I don't like them. However, I have since realised that when I react to something about someone else, before I open my mouth, I must stop and breathe, and reflect the reaction back to myself, see where I am reacting, where I am allowing myself to be mentally controlled and do not participate.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments, that when I am allowing myself to react to something about someone or something, I am allowing that person or thing to mentally control me, to keep me in a state of instability as separation from physical reality, which is not acceptable.

I forgive myself for desiring to be liked by others, yet wanting the "free choice" to dislike others anytime i want, which is clearly a spiteful concept which will not support me or anyone else only my ego, which is not acceptable, so I end this behaviour.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every here breathe, that when something or someone causes a negative reaction in me, then really this person or thing is supporting me to bring it back to myself  - to see how this person or thing can do this to me, what is it about this point that causes me to become unstable? What in my past have I not resolved? Within this investigation I will find the root cause and be able to remove this issue through a process of self-forgiveness and self-corrective application of breathing.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that the thought "I don't like it" is my egos defence mechanism, to try to manipulate me, to keep me in fear, and keep me away from investigating myself where I can find the root cause and end the hold that this point of "I don't like it" has on me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to initially judge the person or thing I don't like as bad, and painting myself as good, creating and feeding into an unnecessary polarity friction  of myself charging each definition in my mind and the minds of all people in this world as reality, when in reality anything based in creating polar opposites is an illusion.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself as the ego to believe that I am separate from this person or thing that I do not like, when in reality I am a part of everything that exists in this physical existence.

I forgive myself that I have not realised that through accepting the thoughts "I don't like it" in any situation is a statement that directly shows that the consequences will keep myself trapped in this  dislike, never questioning what I am disliking in separation from myself as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to blame the person or thing for the reaction I am experiencing, when really as I mentioned saying someone else is responsible for my internal experience is just abdicating my responsibility onto another which is a delusional idea, because I am always responsible for what I do and do not allow about myself, I cannot expect others to change for me, I can only lead by example through the change I walk as myself.

I forgive myself for not living the change I want to see in relation to all things that my mind "doesn't like". I take responsibility to change any point of "I don't like it" that I ever see coming up in my mind.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to exist as "I don't like it" in relation to anything in my life. So as and when I see my mind having thoughts come up about someone or something in any situation, then I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to engage the thoughts, as I know that by allowing the thoughts I will only keep myself trapped in the dislike which is not supportive for me or anyone else and thus not acceptable, so I breathe and continue to do so until there is no more thoughts that come up around the person or thing.

I commit myself to living the realisation that anytime I have thoughts of disliking someone or something, that while it makes sense to not interact with the person or thing if they are abusive. But regardless, I will live the realisation that when I am having thoughts of dislike towards someone or something, then I must look at myself to find out what is causing me to react, and make sure I keep myself stable as the breathe of life in self-honesty.

  

Day 239: The Ego of "I don't like it"

Oh Donald Trump I don't like him, how often have you heard that in recent times from people? Or in relation to anyone or anything in your life, guaranteed you will hear the words "I don't like it" come up at various points.

But what is this dislike based on? In my experience it is always ego - it is something about this person or thing that you are reacting to, and the reason you are reacting is because you have unresolved issues in relation to the thing you are disliking about this person or thing.

Saying you dislike something, is like a judgement where you are saying that you are not equal to the thing you dislike, you are saying you will not walk with this point to direct it to whats best within yourself and your application - as the ego you will instead attack what is causing you to react.

I find taking self-responsibility is a much more beneficial solution, realising that allowing the pre-programmed mind to direct me is only going to cause consequences of repeated abuse.

I still catch myself falling into this trap at times, for instance recently I reacted about how a developer acted recently by offering me a rental apartment, and then taking it away from me at the last moment because he had a buyer come in, even after he took my deposit.

I got my refund of course, but what was interesting was seeing the reaction my mind had to all this,
where the thoughts were like "i don't like how these guys do business" and a I wasted a large portion of my day running round in these disliking circles in my mind that day, moaning at my agent for losing this property.

But when I look at why I reacted about this, it was because of seeing the property as mine already, like my ego had already taken ownership and felt personally offended when something my mind "perceives that I own" is taken away.

Also this reaction was based on the idea that "this is not the way to do business, this is the wrong way to do it, I wouldn't do it like this". So creating this polarity complex where I'm painting myself as the good guy victim, and painting this developer as the negative bad guy.

Then also was a layer of jealousy at the position of the developer, to be able to say no to a big rental offer from me in favour of the property being bought outright. Because in reality, if I was in this developers position I would do the same - I mean £900 a month, or £250,000 outright, which would you go for?

So these "I don't like it" thoughts are really just my pre-programmed mind reacting and my ego going into a defence mechanism, which is all only serving to keep me in separation of myself, and so has no validity in being allowed to continue.

I take self-responsibility to remove this point of  separation, and to redesign myself to not fall into the trap of "i don't like it." in any moment.

Day 238: The Security of Money - a basic right for all Part 2

Have you ever thought to yourself that money is not a basic right for all? I have, because it is one of the first cornerstones of capitalism that integrates into us as mind consciousness systems as we grow up in this world.

We are taught that nothing is free, that this is the way it is, and how it will always be. We are taught that only "the strongest survive" which is indirectly like saying that if you are not strong enough to make loads of money, then you deserve to die, that if your life is hard, then its because your a "bad person" that has to get better at being a "good person" as a big money generator - that is what this world teaches people.

It took me years of walking this process of equality and oneness before these concepts surrounding money were removed inside myself.

Very occasionally I will still catch myself thinking about money from a capitalistic starting point of "me first" in self-interest. But anytime these thoughts come up, I laugh because I know these thoughts are not real, so i stick to breathing and do not allow these thoughts to control my actions.

Money is not supposed to be a burden, but that's how we have designed it - the value we have given money is the problem, and therefore switching the value we give money to that which is best for all is the solution. We all have to walk this, no matter how much money you currently have, so lets walk -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to grow up believing that money is not a basic right for all. I realise that these beliefs were programmed into me by this polarity based capitalistic environment we have set up here, which are completely exposed when the equality equation is applied. I realise that when you have a life of comfort tricks, when you have the security of money, our ego goes into defining ourselves as "lucky" and those without to be "unlucky" as if that is the way its supposed to be.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every moment of breathe that this definition of those with money being lucky and those without being unlucky is a polarity friction which keeps me in complete separation of physical reality and only serves to fuel the unconsciousness programming of all other humans in the world in relation to this point, which is not acceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself at various point in my life to judge those that do not have money as unlucky, lazy, weak and stupid. I realise that I have been brainwashed by these judgements growing up, that they are not based in physical reality, and so are not valid to keep within myself.

Yes of course people who don't have money are lacking in the education to be able to change their situation, yet this does not give me or anyone else the right to judge them for this -

So I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge a poor person in certain scenarios when that person does something really stupid due to their lack of education, but this judgement does not support me or the other person to change, so I will remove this judgement and build a world where nobody is allowed to be uneducated from birth till death.

I forgive myself that I have not always been aware that we cannot decide where we are born, if we are born into a poor family and we obviously struggle to survive as a result of it, that does not make us unlucky, lazy, weak,  and stupid, it simply means that is the design for this being at this junction in their beingness existence -  I realise that I cannot judge some one for something they cannot control,  and instead redesign myself and the world around me to not allow any being to suffer.


I forgive myself that I have not realised in every here moment, that every being in this world has the right in all moments to have their basics for a dignified life provided for free.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that any moment of inconsistency with regards to thoughts that still come around at times, is indicative of some lingering programming in relation to money, so I take self-responsibility to find the root cause and make sure these thoughts cannot dictate my thoughts, no matter how many times I have to repeat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support a money system everyday that allows for the rape, starvation and death of our fellow humans and wildlife, which is nothing but harm to this planet, which does not support anyone - because until all have, none have, so without an equal money system, humanity cannot truly evolve to reach our greatest potential.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to deny the security of money for all beings in any moment - so as and when I see my mind trying to justify capitalistic money system programming in anyway, I stop and breathe I do not allow my mind to engage these thoughts as I know that their will only be a circular recharging of the programming keeping me enslaved, so I breathe and continue to do so until there is no more thoughts that come up.

I commit myself to living the realisation that it is only through an equal money system, that humanity can be uplifted to become the greatest version of ourselves.

No matter what anyone ever tries to say, no matter how long humanity want to deny it, there is no denying that we are all living beings and all require the same basic support from birth till death.

I commit myself to walking no matter how long until a system that supports all life equally is produced - if this is not produced in my lifetime, I will make sure that my actions, and the education I gave to my children, will be the clear blueprint for the fruits of the labour to be produced.