Overwhelmed

So today at work i got a second promotion in a year, which now means i have more people to direct, and more responsibilities to handle then i did before. The role starts immediately tommorow, and i now have to arrange peoples salaries, arrange peoples work rotas, send motivational texts, call all the stores to make sure the member of staff is there on time, place jobs in ads, hire new staff, fill in daily review forms of current staffs effectiveness, negotiate new stores for my staff to work in with store managers, take scores, and offer training. some of it i have done before, but some of it is new to me, Its only on an 8 week trial basis at first, so that the company can monitor if i can handle the extra work, and improve company sales.

I said to my boss that i will do the role, because it is best for all, but honestly i know that it is the extra money that is the srating point reason that i accepted the job role. And when i saw the extra tasks that im required to do, i immediately started reacting by experiencing thoughts like "i dont know if i can handle this at the moment" "i want to say no to to this promotion, but the money is better" all uncertain, self doubting, self judgemental, nervous, fear based thoughts. I have experienced these kind of thoughts the first time i had a promotion, but when i applied myself and pushed through these thoughts, stopped myself participating in the thoughts and just did the work, i found that it really wasnt very hard, and i was able to get the work done, yet in my mind i percieved it to be some massive thing that i cant handle - interesting how when we participate in the mind, in relation to doing more physical labour then we are used to, then through the mind a point always seems bigger, more impossible, more unfair, harder, and worse then what a point of extra work actually is to achiveve practically.

So the fact that these fear based thoughts are coming up again, is showing me how my application on this point really hasnt been effective, and it does remain to be seen as to weather i can practically make time for everything in my life with this new promotion. I now have a much busier job, with more driving, ontop of supporting my dogs, doing my ITD coursework, supporting my mother, looking after my son every 2-3weeks for 3 days, paying all the bills, blogging and vlogging, food shopping/housework, and whatever else needs to be done.

So im going to start working with a pie chart that i will make to assist me in mapping out and directing my time as effectively and practically as possible to get everything done. And im not going to allow myself to go into fears, self doubts, self judgments, about what i need to do, as it doesnt serve whats best for all in anyway. So i stop here, and stick to breathe as the directive principle of whats best for all in self honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my new job role.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to to fear that i am incapable of handling my new job role, by separating myself within and as the mind from myself here as life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify my fear about my new job role, by allowing myself to state within and as the mind, that i have "too much on my plate"

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe in my mind that my new job is a "good" thing and a "bad" thing, allowing the whole polarity point to exist, instead of just doing what needs to be done in relation to myself eher within the company.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to percieve in self doubt that i cannot achieve my new job requirements before i have even attempted them practically.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to state to my boss that i wll take this job role because its best for all, when actually i accepted it because of the extra money, in total dishonesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my new job within and as the mind, as something that i must attain, or build up to because of a perception that i cannot just do the job here practically.

I stand here as this breathe, i stcik to this breathe, as and when these points of fear come up, so that i am able to release these points effectivelly until here no further in self honesty, so that i am able to do what needs to be done here practically in accordance with what is best for all, without going into and manifesting the consequence of my participation of the minds fears.