Biting my mouth

So i have been noticing recenty how much i bite little bits of skin off my lips, and the inside of my mouth, where i start chewing incessantly which only happens when i am not standing here in self honesty within and as breathe, and i start allowing myself to go into thought patterns, and the chewing of my mouth is the outflow of my participation within thoughts in the mind.

So i have built up this mental relationship here, and the thoughts generally are all based on concern and fear, and then are physically played out by me biting my mouth or lips. I experience satisfaction when i have biten off a piece of flesh that has been hanging off the inside of my mouth from a previous pattern of biting. Sometimes when i have been biting continously at different times during the day, then by the end of the day, the inside of my mouth is sore, and so will be uncomfortable, and sometimes my lip will start bleed. I mean this point is totally unacceptable, because i am allowing myself to abuse my own physical body by participating in the mind, because i realise that all mental relationships disregard the physical, and so must be stopped.

I have been doing this for years, maybe since about 10 years old, where i would get concerned about homelife, weather or not my dad will be in my life? Will i get into the football team? Will i get "good" grades at school? will i get that new computer game? and also fearing losing my mum to her illness. And since then obviously the point has accumilated to the point where everytime i experience thought patterns in relation to fears, anxieties, concerns, judgements. Anytime that i am uncertain about the outflow of a point i see at the time, then i start going into the mind and biting my mouth, in an incessant manner. For instance waiting for a bill to come through the post that i know will be a large bill, when i think about the bill, i start biting my mouth, but i usually only realise this once i have already started biting. So this point has been accumilating for a long time for me, and its directly linked to me growing up and intergrating into the mind, because i do not remember doing it before the end of primary school.

And sometimes i dont even know im doing it until i have finished biting, and i feel the sores on the inside of my mouth with my tongue, because im so "deep" in thought, and then i say to myself "fuck i need to stop biting my mouth". So there this is clearly a deeply ingrained programme for me where im holding onto some suppressed knowledge, which is always related to uncertainty, fear and anxiety.

I remember watching a vlog about 3 months ago that Andrew did about biting nails, which at the time of watching it i was like "yep its pretty much the same for me " but i did nothing about it, and so it has just compounded to the point where i have to slow right down within and as breathe to even notice that im doing it.

So its time to stop participating in these thoughts and fears that lead to me biting my mouth. Its time to stop this pattern, of harming my physical body by biting my mouth - so i stand here in self honesty as the solution to obliterate this point from existance by sticking to breathe in equality and oneness, so die well mouth biting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to bite my mouth because of thoughts, anxieties and fears in relation my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in thoughts, fears and anxieties that lead to me biting my mouth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that by biting my mouth i am giving myself some form of comfort to myself when i experience thoughts, anxieties and fears that come up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to build up this relationship as the mind, which only compromises me from establishing myself as life here in each moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in this mechanism of biting my mouth to attain a form of energetic gratification.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take pleasure in the harming of my own physical body, which is actually me abusing this one physical reality as the physical body here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to continue particpating in biting my mouth even when the area im biting is starting to be sore and bleed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore this bleeding by allowing myself to participate in ego of the mind by saying to myself "its not that bad, give it time to heal, and then bite again"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stop biting only so that the skin can heal with the full intention of doing it again after the skin has healed, decieving myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself through separation as the mind by harming myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise that i am existing as separation from myself here as the physical, by participating in the mind to disregard whats best for my physical body, therefore disregarding whats best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to allow this point of separation as the mind to cycle and accumailate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto points of knowledge based in fear that manifest in me allowing myself to start biting my mouth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stick in the comforts of the mind in relation to biting my mouth, instead of sticking to breathe self honestly here in equality and oneness.

I forgive myself, i have exposed myself, and i will now stick to this breathe here, and i refuse to accept myself to allow this point of separation as the mind which only disconnects me from myself here as life to continue to exist. I stand here in self honesty, to support and stand as that which is real, and destroy this mind possession from my world. i take self responsability here, naked as life as who i really am as the directive principle of equality oneness.