Interesting that when i go to the toilet, i immediately get a thought come up of "lock the door" which is fuelled from a fear of being exposed, fear that someone will walk in and be disgusted by seeing me take a shit. Its that fear that all humans have, of not wanted to be seen by others in a vulnerable position, that we must apparently always attempt to project an image of strength and stability through the mind onto others, which is just a point of ego as the mind, just built up programming that we allow ourselves to exist within and as. Also a fear that someone else even if its a family member will walk in and see judge and compare our penis or vagina if we dont lock the toilet door - fascinating that many parents teach their children to consider the sexual organs as "private parts" which in essence implants this pattern of fear in relation to sexual organs to develop within the child as they get older, so that everytime a person wants to take a piss, a shit, masturbate, put in a tampon, shave pubic hair, or anything to do with our sexual organs, then we will always attempt to do it in "private" with nobody watching, feeding into consciousness as the secret mind .
But i mean its common sense to lock the door if im in a public toilet, or im in somebody elses house which is very busy, because if i left the door unlocked, then that would just be me decieving others into thinking that the toilet is free when its not - but to do this point in the house i live in, which has two toilets, is just a ridiculous point of separation and limitation in polarity where im just allowing fear to exist within me by participating in conscious thoughts, which are rooted in the subconscious. Where i am simply accepting and allowing myself to define locking the toilet door as "good" "safe" "right" "positive", and leaving the door unlocked as "bad" "dangerous" "wrong" "negative" and fricition is obviously caused through my acceptance and allowance of these two polar opposite points to exist which is me allowing myself to exist as instability as separation.
So it was cool to realize myself within this point today as it came up, then take self responsibility to delete the thought, and then stick to breathe in self honesty, and not allow myself to feed into this point of consciousness - so now i will be only locking toilet doors as and when it is practical and best for all to do so, not from a polarity based, secret mind starting point of fear of others judgement and fearing being "vulnerable" feeding into protection systems as the mind in separation- this i will not allow, i am the designer of this fuck up of a world, and thus i am the solution, by staying disciplined and self directive within and as breathe as life as who i really am in self honesty, as the principle of equality and oneness.
But i mean its common sense to lock the door if im in a public toilet, or im in somebody elses house which is very busy, because if i left the door unlocked, then that would just be me decieving others into thinking that the toilet is free when its not - but to do this point in the house i live in, which has two toilets, is just a ridiculous point of separation and limitation in polarity where im just allowing fear to exist within me by participating in conscious thoughts, which are rooted in the subconscious. Where i am simply accepting and allowing myself to define locking the toilet door as "good" "safe" "right" "positive", and leaving the door unlocked as "bad" "dangerous" "wrong" "negative" and fricition is obviously caused through my acceptance and allowance of these two polar opposite points to exist which is me allowing myself to exist as instability as separation.
So it was cool to realize myself within this point today as it came up, then take self responsibility to delete the thought, and then stick to breathe in self honesty, and not allow myself to feed into this point of consciousness - so now i will be only locking toilet doors as and when it is practical and best for all to do so, not from a polarity based, secret mind starting point of fear of others judgement and fearing being "vulnerable" feeding into protection systems as the mind in separation- this i will not allow, i am the designer of this fuck up of a world, and thus i am the solution, by staying disciplined and self directive within and as breathe as life as who i really am in self honesty, as the principle of equality and oneness.
I lock the door as well. When my brother sees someone does not lock the door he gets angry LOL. Like "LOCK YOUR DAMN DOOR! Your disgusting!". Nothing disgusting about it.
ReplyDeleteAt the trainstation some weeks ago, A girl forgot to lock her door so I opened her while she was on the toilet, texting on her cellphone and peeing :P I laughed and said "oops" haha, and closed it.