I was not present when the engineer arrived, but Hannah mentioned afterwards that while the engineer did not find any major leaks, he seemed a bit annoyed as if the visit itself was a bit of a pointless inconvenience for him.
When I brought it back to Self I could see how many times I in my life have also lived the word inconvenience through defining/blaming something/someone as inconvenient to me as my general experience in these moments. Yet I have noticed that children do not seem to ever find interaction with others as being inconvenient, they just move and express with whats here each day organically.
As an example a classic for me which you may also recognize in yourself is when some random sales person calls me, where as soon as I am not aware of the company name/have not asked for the company to call me - the sales agent that calls I am automatically going to cut off in their first sentence and will say something like " OK, get to the point what does your company sell and what do you want? I'm far too busy right now to hear the long pitch" whether I am actually genuinely busy or not has rarely seemed to factor into this response. I usually cut the call shortly after as most companies genuinely do have shit products as that's what we allow our money system to spew out, endless cheap convenient products designed to break to keep consumers spending.
Then each consumer must adhere to a 24 hour clock in order to make money in the system in order to be able to consume the products, where we compete with each other to maximise our energy and be able to brag about how effectively we use OUR time.
I can recall other moments where in a few companies before I have been tasked with training new staff based on my sales record and while I might say "I don't mind training the new people" actually in self-honesty in these moments I have often viewed this training as an inconvenience because what if they just leave after training or can't absorb what I'm training? That backchat was my excuse to cover over the fact that really I defined/blamed the time training the newbies itself as an inconvenience that took away from me being able to focus on MY sales in MY time in MY schedule.
Or I have met many people in the past through many avenues in life, but the amount of times I have said things to someone like "so where are you from?" then shortly after they start talking I start thinking things like "when are they going to stop talking?" I start reacting judging the interaction as inconvenient to my schedule, wanting it to hurry up so I can get to a "better" chat/this better activity/this book/this writing/this film/ or some mind energy that I deem as more important then interacting with this person right now.
Its like this hierarchy of convenience in our mind where we define people as convenient based on how they are providing attention/priority/ease to our schedule in OUR time. How easy have they made it for us? How accommodating have they been? After all convenience is good and inconvenience is bad right? Those firewalls of least resistance. Yet, as soon as someone is not caring about our schedule as much as we do, as soon as we have to adjust our schedule even in a minuscule way then it becomes easy to start defining the person or thing we had to make an adjustment for as inconvenient. Interesting how often many Celebrities and Politicians will consistently warn people about the dangers of wasting "My Time" in a threatening way with fervour, like an apex example in the system of what we all have inside us.
I've seen this in so many others towards me and each other also since childhood because as the Mind we Humans define everything as our ownership even time itself, believing that its MY TIME that ties me to reality, that defines me, that I do not have to consider anyone else's time because, your time is the enemy I must defeat life to be on top. So all that matters is that my reality is tied up and constantly consumed with my own wants/desires/needs in Real time as Self-Interest as the Mind without seeing, realising and understanding that Breath by Breath is the only Real time that exists in physical time space and this breath we all share whether we are aware of that or not.
As a child every interaction was organic because I was existing in Real time as Breath, so there was no expecting/hurrying/blaming people for cutting into MY time because I didn't have my own separate idea of time then. But, as I grew into and as the mind consciousness system, these tentacles started growing as I started routinely defining certain people and things as inconvenient if it didn't make it easy for me/prioritise me/my time, where this very definition created my own stress in many interactions as I grew. Amazing how we adults quickly blame another for inconveniencing us and "giving us" stress without realising it is often the architecture of our idea of convenience being when we are first before anyone else with no effort that creates this uncomfortable inconvenient/annoyed experience for our self when we are not easily first.
Now this is not to say you should not have a schedule, because they are particularly useful in business as an example, or that you should not cut short interactions that actually are an inconvenience to something you are physically supporting in certain moments - I wouldn't suggest letting a sales agent get his full pitch out while your wife is in child birth labour as an example. Yet, there is a balance that has to be brought into our living through common sense realising that if Humanity keeps blaming each other for inconveniencing each other forever then that is an endless recipe for conflict. Where we never get to the mutual understanding that how we Humans have been living as the Mind is inconvenient to life on Earth, because to Life it is when we give to another as we would like to receive which may be inconvenient to our mind, yet which makes Life on Earth more convenient for all as an Equal Money System where each one has the resources to be effective in real time which is Best for ALL, which is the best use of our time here.
So the idea of saving/protecting "our time" as convenient and assisting another with "their time" as inconvenient is separation. As if our times are all competing to have the best time and of course the best "time keepers" always make the most money for a small few while the majority suffer in Real time. These ideas are the Real waste of time in reality, because for us humans to spend a lifetime disregarding others in favour of our self is the real inconvenience to life. Does a tree ask if its inconvenient to grow somewhere? No it just fucking grows wherever it is, even when we Humans actually make it inconvenient for the tree to grow in some places with materials like concrete, the tree still finds a way to keep growing.
Meanwhile we humans are always getting in our own way constantly, disregarding and destroying our time on Earth in this lifetime, thinking that time is ours and it can be taken. Yet, when we take Self-Responsibility to get out of our own way, we develop a coherent expression as self that is as fluid as the tree that unapologetically grows in all directions.
So to conclude for now - if you ever find yourself asking someone to stop wasting your time in anyway, even a slight huff under your breath, investigate it make sure it is clear and you are not actually just reacting inconveniencing yourself with your own ideas of convenience, wasting your own time as the mind and not embracing your lifetime through living in Real-Time as Breath.
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