Day 297: I don't know what I don't know Part 2

So sure everything worked out with me getting my phone upgrade and original phone back after losing it in Germany due to my intent to correct the mistake.

Yet what was revealed from this situation showed me that there are some adjustments to make, so I must learn and change -

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to not realise in all moments that I don't know what I don't know, that I cannot always initially see that a mistake I made, always is showing me something that I need to learn, something that will benefit me in the end.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in annoyance when I initially lost my phone because of not seeing immediately that I do not know what I do not know, this realisation came around 30 minutes later.

I forgive myself for experiencing stupidity and feeling embarrassed about losing my phone in the moment, when in fact these thoughts and emotions did not assist me in anyway in this situation.

I forgive myself that I have not realise that this event of losing my phone, actually was showing me the pre-programmed limitations I carry in relation to fearing being late for something exciting - this excitement of quick sightseeing, the fear of not having enough time to see everything, intertwined with the excitement of an imminent flight and a fear of being late for my flight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough time to get something cool done.

I forgive myself that I have been aware of this issue, yet have done nothing about it for a long time and this recent phone loss event has poked me to get the necessary adjustments done.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to procrastinate being self-dishonest about the effects that carrying this fear can have, which I disconnect here as this breathe now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of when I was young and I lost my wallet in the arcade, because it was the same fear of lateness, fear of missing something cool, that caused me to rush and lose my wallet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to add layers through the years to this pre-programmed fear, which has only kept me further in separation from physical reality as life, so I take self-responsibility to stop this now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined through limitation as this fear of lateness, when I can clearly see that this self-definition does not assist me in living whats best for all in anyway.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as the ego trying to defend itself from lateness for something cool by fearing it, when in reality projecting this fear only ends up manifesting my lateness and potential loss of something which is not acceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project this fear of lateness onto the future, which will only cause the same consequences on a cycle pattern - this pattern is stopped here.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to react in annoyance when something goes wrong, so as and when my mind has thoughts of annoyance come up when something goes wrong - I stop and breathe, I do not interact with these thoughts - I realise that there is something within this situation which is teaching me something I must learn and ultimately it will all work out - I smile and continue to breathe here, until there is no more thoughts that come up.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to continue any fear of being late for something exciting, whenever this fear comes up in my mind as thoughts, I stop and breathe I do not allow myself to engage these thoughts - I see and understand that by accepting this fear, will only manifest a mistake, a consequence of fear which will not assist me, so I continue to breathe until there is no more thoughts that come up when something exciting is happening.

I commit myself to living the realisation that things will always work out, because I don't know what I don't know which is where I have the ability to fix any problem and create whatever I intend.