Day 219: Why does it always rain on me? The Conspiracy against me.

Have you ever spent prolonged periods of time wondering why you seem to have "bad luck" in certain undertakings? Then you begin believing that some sort of conspiracy in life is being done to you to make these undertakings "impossible" for you?

Its like this self-definition starts to build up over years through believing these concepts, where you literally think that it is raining just on you all the time, and apparently "much harder" then it does on most people, you know like that song by Travis :)

I know this because I have had this concept in my mind since I was in my teenage years, and only through what I have learnt in life, from some amazing people and my own physical experiences, have I realised that this concept is not real.

I focused on transcending this point years ago, however just recently I have noticed a few situations where my mind has begun reacting to certain events in my life, and this "why does it always rain on me concept" has started rearing its head again.

Anything that comes back up within us is a sure sign that our application on the point has not been effective, and that far more self-investigation, self -forgiveness and self-corrective application of breathing in consistent self-honesty is needed.

So to you give you some context - just recently one of my dogs has become very ill as the ravages of age catch up with him, my mother is becoming more ill, my son is being brainwashed by those i do not trust, haters popping out of the woodwork consistently, computers getting hacked, and work has been seemingly consuming 99% of my life.

I have allowed my mind to react to all of these factors, and then allow this concept that "everything is conspiring against me" to creep into my conscious thought. which of course does not support me or anyone else in living what is  best for all life.

Its like allowing yourself to be deflated by your own life, dis empowered by events within your life, literally like being personally offended by your own life, when really your life is the same as anyone elses' here, it has the same parameters as every living being.

But you will notice that the more you feed into this "everything is raining on me" concept, then the more you will limit yourself, and live inconsistencies, misalignments and failures into your life, which in your mind will apparently "validate" how unfair things are for you, because when you look for failure, and disappointment, it will always surely find you, same if you focus on positivity funnily enough - because bringing polarity friction into anything always creates messed up outcomes.

Some people say that they just have more "bad luck" then others, when in reality, "bad luck" just like "good luck" is an illusion which does not exist - created by humans to avoid taking responsibility for their own actions, because it can always be chalked off to "bad or good luck".

So within this "its always raining on me" concept you will not see that your are actually designing these things into being by defining yourself according to them, by expecting things to work against you all the time, and fearing/doubting that your efforts mean nothing because of this - you will also look for excuses and any indicator that can validate that "things really are working against you" in a "me against the world" type of stance within oneself, which is a recipe for discord and war instead of improving the world.

In my experience expectations to fail or succeed in anything are always misguided, because what we expect is irrelevant, all that really matters is we do our best, give our full attention and effort to completing what we need to in our days without any expectations of the outcome - I can only ever direct my own input, nothing more.

So in reality there is no rain cloud which apparently follows you in your life no matter how strangely "against you" things can be. I mean if you have your basics, and your ability to expand in various undertakings in life, then what conspiracy is really working against you?

There are Billions in this world that still really are having the world literally conspiring against them - these people cant even eat, have safe housing and healthcare in peace, they are our brothers and sisters that need our help in every moment.


So we must be strong and resolute, for the battles ahead in building a better world for all of us, and it starts with us on an individual level -

We are the Kings and Queens of the future, of a brave new world, so we have no time to believe and define our life as having "forces working against us" we all have failure and success in our lives everyday, highs and lows. and when we take self-responsibility in self-honesty, we will not hold onto these moments in our minds unnecessarily.

So if you have had issues with believing their is a "constant conspiracy" against your life, if you think "bad luck" just follows you, if you define your life as being "cursed" and constantly "under the rain clouds" then now you know that is not the case, because everyone has days or periods of life that seem unfair or against us, so it is never specific and exclusive to only you. So you should join me in my next bog as I continue to investigate and pull apart this problem in my journey to life.