Then what I realised within this interaction, which I have seen before in myself and others is this idea that you should not trigger people, because it will be your fault if you get shot and that people should not trigger you because you will be justified in shooting them if they do. This results of course in a world of endless Mexican stand offs based in who is going to shoot their judgment at each other first. The reason why all these guns get their triggers pulled and are fired at other humans to an increasing degree in the past 100 years is because we do not bring Responsibility Here in Self-Honesty and remove the Triggers within us in the Ravenous pursuit of Profit.
This extensive blame and abdication of Self-responsibility based on the words of others that trigger us and you notice how in society all the "woke movement" nowadays has introduced more measures on "unacceptable words" to say to each other. Words that could "potentially" trigger a negative emotion in you and thus be apparently bad. Is it really bad to pull on the trigger of a negative emotion? Why do we not ask why do we have any negative triggers to pull at all?
Now of course going out of your way to shoot people by being an arsehole to them, bringing up their issues to exalt self-righteousness while demeaning, denigrating and dividing people based on their limitations is unacceptable. Atheists can be an interesting example of this supercilious hostility towards the limitations of religious belief in others without seeing their own Sanctimonious reverence of Science. Same as shooting a living being with a gun is unacceptable as it will obviously harm/kill them, yet when there is actually no harm to life occurring as in shooting targets in a firing range that is another matter. To give an example of just one trigger within my body that I have been thankful for being pulled and that I corrected during my process of birthing myself as life from the physical is the word Nigger and any associated words based in racial division.
You see a long time ago when I was a neurotic, misanthropic angry teenager anytime people would use the word nigger directly or indirectly around me, a trigger would be pulled in me and I would explode inside myself and then create an increasingly explosive situation with the person who said nigger until they apologized or I got some kind of satisfaction from verbally and/or physically intimidating/hitting them in someway. Completely unaware at the time the same as the "woke" movements of today that we all have been racist to a certain degree in different situations in our life.
Why would this trigger happen? When I investigated this trigger after coming to Desteni, I found that I had memories stored in the body from childhood of my mother and other adults in her circles telling me that racism is bad and also watching her get angry at people being racist in more than a few situations. Her indignation on the point was palatable and would always be based in protecting me. I can still see the way her eyebrows would frown, her mouth would open and draw a sharp inhale when the word Nigger was used by anyone, or a disapproving tut sound when we would watch films and Nigger came up. Of course my mother knew no better at the time, it was not her fault as she always did her best as a mum, but do you see how this imprinted on me? The idea of protecting myself about my race, that it is okay to get annoyed at people treating me differently.
I was also the only mixed race kid in my family, one of the few in my school where more than a few school yard fights happened with a racial undertone starting point and my grandfather had very strong principles around race all of which only added more confusion, doubt, angers and blames around my race.
Years later here we are in 2021 where racism and words like nigger are being charged with more negative connotations, more emotional polarities than ever before in history. Yet for me, due to years of removing triggers around words like nigger and associated terms, I am now unable to be triggered in the first place because there is none to pull - you could be two inches from my face making racist jokes, or screaming nigger incessantly, or to someone else in the room and I will Not React. I Breathe, smile and try to support you with words to reconsider trying to treat me or anyone else differently and instead acknowledge our equality as life. I do that or breathe and leave the situation peacefully. I have tested this in multiple situations to know that I trust myself to not react to racially motivated words from any now in life. Sure, if someone physically attacks me actually punches me repeatedly and will not listen to words I will defend myself with necessary techniques in a stable manner until they calm down and we can continue discussion or I can leave the situation without further attack.
We see on a daily basis someone losing their cool and attacking someone else based on race in the news and is fundamentally why I do not support groups like BLM as they are only protecting/enforcing the emotional racial triggers in black people with immense hubris rather than providing Real Solutions to Racism. I mean are we Individually and Collectively considering/understanding that if everyone removed their Triggers around race we would have a world where anyone spewing racist dogma would soon lose all racist motivations because nobody would be getting offended by what they say and everyone would be trying to support the person to stop. So since transcending this nigger point I have supported many of my friends from different ethnic backgrounds to face and clear triggers around Race.
These thoughts that we carry around justifying protection of our triggers as some Holy Grail is asinine nonsense and is the self-fulfilling recipe to never change into a more effective living being for all life. Yet if we only realised that we are not thought, that thoughts are just based on memories that trigger off in certain situations and if unresolved will keep spewing repetitive robotic self-interested bullets of abuse directly at life. The day we were born we had no Triggers in our body, but the body overtime becomes kind of like a gun storage bunker, where as the mind consciousness becomes the totality of the being, more fear triggers and gun purchases occur. So overtime there is a store of thousands of triggers all over the place as memories stored in the flesh and once we Real-Eyes ourself as Life we have to face and pull the trigger of them all inside us, removing each trigger/gun from the store room while not allowing unnecessary new triggers/guns to be added to the store room.
You see how in system relationships and fake friends in the world there is this pervading idea that your partner/friend should always make you feel good first and foremost, not annoy you, question you or push you to question yourself - when actually everything is in reverse so the one that seemingly annoys you, questions you, triggers you the most is actually the one that would support you to change for the better the most. People we react to are in many ways the keys to our freedom so to speak, where as the ones that support/feed into our secret mind shit only further our own self-enslavement as consciousness in separation from Physical Reality.
I always find that looking at ones relationship and the friends/business partners you have around you as to how much they trigger you, or don't always speaks to our own self-honesty or self-dishonesty. There's an old saying as an example in most martial arts gyms of any discipline, which is when a specific martial artist that keeps losing and/or is not performing well, could be because they are only training with "Yes Men" around them - meaning those that do not question them and only agree with them on everything, hence their skill development in all areas as a martial artist stagnates and begins to degrade/regress over time.
Or let's say you had some extensive trauma with one person in childhood, where a horrific memory built into the flesh with specific triggers. Now if you do not get to the bottom of those triggers and remove the whole fucking system at its root, the mind will create this automatic defense mechanism with many layers over time where the physical will tighten around certain people that trigger memories of that horrific event/person based on what they say, do, dress or look like and you will automatically assume that this person will hurt you - so you make up reasons to get away from them, essentially blaming the body of this person, presuming guilt in your mind as thought for the crime of triggering you. Then as long as this trigger is not removed, your interaction with all life will always be limited to those that do not trigger you so you can justify not changing into a Real Life-Force embodying a world of no triggers. It's a fuck up not worth the time.
So if you have not, Realise as I had to and what I am still learning about that when someone is triggering you they are actually your greatest support, so embrace agreements with any who seem to "make you shoot them" more than others because it is in the remaking of yourself through finding the origin story of your triggers and forgiving them Truly that will shoot forth a Life and a World that is Best for All Life.
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