Day 452: The Secret Mind of Yes I'm Fine

Are you Really though? It's strange isn't it how we have all throughout life accepted in ourselves and in others this idea that we should say we are Fine when we Know we are Not. That we should say this because of Fearing as the Ego what another might think of us as Weaker or Less in Someway if we tell them what our Real Experience is and so will Suppress in Silence.

So then once we have effectively Deluded ourselves and another with this "I'm fine idea" we have effectively created the Secret Mind of Self-Dishonesty, where there is a Foundational Denial that what is inside me as One is also the World Outside. 

The Ego tends to Always Proclaim that it is Fine, when you are really not Fine as the World outside Constantly shows us - how could we Possibly Believe that when there is so much Accumulating Abuse on Earth around us that Everything inside would be Rosy? The very idea of that would Imply that our Inner World/Experience has no correlation to the world we See, that our Experience is somehow Separate which Really is the Abdication of our Innate Knowledge of our Connection with All Life, Disregard of our Responsibility/Intrinsic Fusion to the World we See and the Justification of Prioritizing Positive Feeling Energy Experiences through Money ahead of What is Best for All Life. The Ego is Based in Ignorance to the Physical Fact that when there is Pain Another there is Pain in Self Because the Breath of Life that Animates Me is the Same Breath in Anyone Suffering in this World.

We Learnt from our Parents that we Must protect our Life with Money/Skills/Position in the System and that as long as we have these things then Everything is Apparently Fine and thus we don't need to provide any further input in this World to something New that is Best for All - As long as we Secure and Defend our position in the Kingdom of Self-Aggrandizement, then we have succeeded in Life. Even though this Position is Not Fine, it is this very Concept which causes a 1% Hoarding the Heavenly Living and the 99% Killing Each other to enter the gates of the 1% Heaven - Resulting in a World of No Care for Life, a World of Horrors unimaginable Happening at an Accumulating Rate until we Wake the Fuck up, Fix the Fuck up, Group the Fuck up and Fuck up the Global Money/Education/Government Systems by Utilizing what is Here Directing it to a Symbiotic, Organic Life Conducive Structure Within and Without.  

I'm Fine! We Say by Default, No matter what - even with with Lurid Tears of Anger, Blame, Judgement and Depression in our Heart Bursting out of our Eyes for All to See - This is Not Fine. Then when we do get to the point of Ever One day Acknowledging we are Not Fine, we can so Easily shift the Polarity whereby we say "It's OK" to Not be Fine so that we have an Excuse to Stagnate and Do Not Grow beyond the Self-Realization of Not being Fine to the Rebirth of an Actually Physically Fine Self in All Ways.

My Partner asked me if I was Fine just the other day when I seemingly at the time had a Business Issue that cost me Money. I was Annoyed and typically its Easy to tell because I might Not Shout and Scream but I will likely go Very, Very Silent for an hour or more with periodic Frowning, Sighing and Grunting. My partner knows this, but she asked me after about an hour are you OK? then I said to her No I'm Angry, to which she responded by saying I know and stroked my arm/back of my Neck. Our Communication is very Physical, very Clear and Introspective so if I said I was Fine, she would have known that my Prolonged Silence/Grunts/Frowns beforehand were clear indicators with Me that I am Not Fine and so I would be Bullshitting Myself and Her. Anyway I listened to some Metal music which I enjoy when Anger reactions come up, then applied Self-Forgiveness, focused on breathing and Stabilized Myself over the Day.

At this point in my Life I Always Admit to Myself and others when I am Not Fine and then take Self-Responsibility to Sort my Shit out, which through Consistency eventually gets you to a point of Increased Stability where Reactions are Less Impulsive, Erratic and Long Lasting because you Trust Yourself to Deal with this Negative Experience in a Way that's Best - it wasn't Always as such though of course, before first walking my process over 10 years ago I would often Tell Myself and People around me I was Fine when Really my Internal World and Consequence in the Outer World was very Clearly Not Fine.  

The Point Here though is saying we are Fine when we are Not is Never a Solutions that's Best and Neither is acknowledging I'm not Fine and Justifying Not doing anything about it - We have to get to a point where we can Intimately admit to our self to others around us when we are Not Fine, then take Self-Authoritative Steps to Weave an Actually Fine Living into the Material of Our-Self where All Life is Considered as the Essence of Purity as God in Equality and Oneness where we can Finally have a World that is Really Fine in Actual Matter - 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to Realise in Every Here Breath in this Body that whenever I say I am Fine, it is my Responsibility to Apply the Equality Equation in Self-Honesty immediately to check that I am Genuinely Clear, Actually Stable Here as Breath or if I am Actually Shifting into Ego saying I am Fine to Project Stability and Hide that I am Reacting Negatively in Many Ways Internally.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Many times in Life Say I am Fine when I know in Self-Honesty I am Not Fine to avoid Facing what the Other person will Think about my Real Thoughts which are Most Definitely Not Fine in Majority of Humans as the World Proves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that Not Dealing with and Suppressing my Real Thoughts, Feelings and Emotions is Self-Sabotage that is Never Acceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear what others think about my Real Thoughts may cause them to Hate or Dislike Me and so Suppression becomes the "solution" when Supression in its very design make sure that the issues will only come around again in my Life via Metamorphic Ways with Accumulating Severity of Consequence until I Stand and Remove this Fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not Realise that What is Inside as One is Also the World Outside and any Denial of this is Actually How One Generates The Self-Dishonest Secret Mind as Self. Maintaining a world of Self-Dishonest Humans all ignoring the Horrors we see in the World through Entertainment as the Mind which Money Facilitates and so as long as we have Money we Don't give a Fuck that the World is Not Fine which is Unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not Realise that the Ego Always Demands as a Dictum that its Fine no matter what Consequence - so when someone you know is Always saying they are Fine while there Life is falling apart in various ways, or when a wealthy Human says he is always Fine due to Money despite the Billions suffering Excluded from his Wealthy Kingdom that are Actually Equal as Life to Him - what do you Know from these kinds of Humans? They are of Ego currently and have Not yet developed the Self-Honesty to Live as Life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not Realise that when you hear statements from Spiritualists like "I am Always fine because I am the creator" is where Memories are created being OK with all the Lights and Colours that come with the idea of "The Creator" so I can say Everything is an Illusion But I am Real as "the Creator" My Memories are Real Life when it is All a Be-Lief Self-Blinding Light Bullshit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not Realise that saying we are Fine All the Time when we are Not comes from our Parents where we were taught that we have to just Protect our Love with Fear, to Protect our Life with Money/Skills and Position in the System and if we have these things we are a "Fine Success" when this is the Very Way that Poverty and Abuse on Earth is Allowed in Silence - because Humans are simply trying to create a Fine Life for them and their Genetic Blood Family Without considering that All Life is our Family and Until they are All Fine None are Fine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not Realise that if there is No Discomfort in Rebirthing Self from the Physical, then One is Not Facing the Secret Mind - so if My life is Nothing but Comfort in the Realms of the Mind where we can be Superman and Ignore Physical Discomfort then I am a Zombie of Consciousness which is Never Fine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the idea that As long as we Secure and Defend our position in the Kingdom of Self-Aggrandizement, then we have succeeded in Life, is Really Not Fine, as it is this very Concept which causes a 1% Hoarding the Heavenly Living and the 99% Killing Eachother to enter the gates of the 1% Heaven. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say I am Fine by Default even when the Physical is clearly showing Us and Everyone else that we are Not Fine

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when I do admit I'm Not Fine to allow myself to shift into Ego and say things to myself and others like its "OK to not be OK" which sounds like a Lovely statement when Really it is Based in and Facilitates the Human to Not Change for the Better and thus is Conducive to Abuse on Earth and must be Stopped.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a Polarity Friction siphoning Energy for Mind Systems from saying I'm Fine when I'm Not to appear Strong in certain situations, to switching to saying I'm not fine and that's OK to appear a victim making either Positive or Negative to suit me when I as the Ego See Fit in Total Separation.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the biggest deniers of the Real Creating Character as the Secret Mind, are the Biggest claimers of "Being Fine All the Time" and will invariably fill their Mind with all kinds of Love and Light Energies/Systems to Not have to Face the Self-Honest Reality of How Fucked the World is because they are Fucked and Will as Such Justify Anything to Not take Responsibility for All Life. 

I commit myself to Living the Realisation that None are Fine until All Life on Earth are Truly Fine as a  Life of Dignity in All Ways.

I commit myself to Show that those claiming their Life and the world is Fine, those who Claim to Always be Feeling Good while Abuse Exists in So Many places on our Earth - Are Living a BeLIEf a Lie that Collapses when you Remove that person's Money.

I commit myself to Show Anyone claiming to Be Fine when they are Clearly Not is a Part of the Problem instead of the Solution.

I commit myself to Show that when All of Humanity can Individually and Collectively get Self-Honest and agree that things are Not Fine, then we can Finally have a World that is Fine as Heaven on Earth as it Will Be With or Without Humanity.

I commit myself to Show that Only when Abuse On Earth is Eradicated in All it's Insidious forms will we Actually be Able to say that We as the Human Species are Fine.