Day 402: Who's side are you on?

As humans currently exist, we enjoy creating and taking sides in everything that we do, this endless playing out of patterns of polarity friction as good and evil in our mind plays out projecting onto physical reality.

The is only one team of humanity here, yet in the world right now you see more "teams within teams"  then ever before as we look for "heroes" to follow and "villains" to blame.

What has become clear to me during this lock down more then ever before, is that TechnoTutor and Desteni really are humanities last chance for real freedom for all life. Why do I say this? It is because the system of capitalism, this system of polarity within and without is so dominant, such a leviathan, so much considered to be the only standard by which we can apparently live.

This lock down has really shown the perfection of the matrix, how much we humans really will just accept being told what to do by the system that's here - we give our permission to the pattern of abuse to have authority, rather then standing equal to the pattern and directing ourselves as beings of true authority free from doubt, living whats best for all life.

We love to paint ourselves as victims, as helpless, as too small to make a difference, we belief that individuality/isolation is a strength to us, we want the safe rather then the risk - the points of separation you can highlight in this world are considerable, now more then ever.

I have seen within my mind how I have been reacting, blaming, competing with and judging others around the point of wearing masks vs not wearing masks. We must be careful what president we are setting with our views around masks, careful that the ego is not creeping in and tainting our starting point.

Its a really tricky point, because I am 100% certain from understanding the size/design of viruses, from growing up with a Scientist, and from years of training in various martial arts gyms - that surgical masks, training masks etc do not protect from viruses or boost athletic performance in anyway.

Surgical masks where never designed for any form of virus protection as any effective Scientist will tell you airborne viruses are far too small for any protection to occur to via surgical masks. Bacteria in liquid droplets is not how Coronavirus infects people because it is airborne, even with a special forces grade bio weapon gas mask, do not believe for a second that you are "protected" from the transmission of a virus.

Then in the world of athletics, there has long been a misconception around using training masks, where it was believed by some athletes as being a benefit to prohibit breathing during training, as a means to try and replicate high altitude training.

Now high altitude training on a huge mountain really will expand the lung capacity to breathe and increase stamina, but trying to replicate that process by using training masks actually has no training benefits. In fact the opposite is true, training masks are known to cause hyperventilation, choking yourself on carbon dioxide, which reduces lung capacity, which then can nausea, feinting, high blood pressure, cardiac issues and generally reducing the immune system which exposes the body to more ailments.

Now knowing all this and trusting my own bravery to not agree if something does not make sense - its obvious my perspective on whether or not you should wear a mask.

But within this all I have seen how my mind has been trying to fuck me in separation, creating sides around the masks. Whenever I see someone driving their car while wearing a mask, or walking down the beach wearing a mask, or when I walk into a big crowd of people anywhere and they are all wearing masks my mind has been reacting.

Thoughts coming up like "what the fuck is wrong with you?" "your outside and you still are gona wear a mask?" "why are you prohibiting your breathing?" "Do you just love being slaves?" "Why are you all scared of whats here?" "I will never wear a mask" etc etc.

What I have been realizing though is that the ego is patient, it subtly convinces us that we are the good guy, that making sides is acceptable. However, when we are self-honest bringing everything back to self, then the self-deception one is allowing becomes clear and we can adjust our starting point to be whats best for all life.

These statements assist me as they may do you if you are facing this point -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react as judgments, comparisons, blames and frustrations when I see people wearing masks in certain scenarios, instead of placing myself in the shoes of the mask wearer, where I can actually understand clearly without reaction why a person is wearing a mask.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create sides in my mind as polarity where I define mask wearers as negative and being without a mask is positive, without realising that this separation of self when allowed, results in a world around me of increasing separation among humans which is unacceptable. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to psychologically turn on my fellow man into spiteful thoughts, all because of my own reactions to a persons mask.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that while mask wearing all day everyday is not supportive for the body, neither is reacting to the masks of others all the time. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every here breath that while the idea of myself could not imagine wearing a mask, I see that this idea is not real because it is based in separation of myself from those who wear masks.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that creating sides in anything is a continuation of the warlike nature of man which has to be ended so that heaven on earth can be manifested.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when the starting point of a human is survival then specific "sides" will always be formulated and adhered to in order to"win the war" so the key is to change the starting point of me from survival to life support, where there is no war.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that whenever I accept separation I am saying that I accept humanity as it is currently, that we should just keep turning on each other instead of making solutions together.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that whether a person wears a mask or not, we are all equally brothers and sisters as life and thus must work together to build a system where all life is supported to release fear as opposed to being judged for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that because it is a mathematical certainty that TechnoTutor and Desteni must continue to succeed and grow in order for humanity to reach its true potential, that while this true, to then use this to define people who are not in Desteni or TechnoTutor as "the enemy of life" that would "obviously wear a mask" supporting the system is unacceptable limitation of my being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define people who are not in Desteni or TechnoTutor as automatically being the "enemy of life" when there is only enemies that exist in the ego, when I forgive myself, when I stand here as this breath of life - there is no enemies that exist. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every moment that I am not here to fight with whats here, I am here to stand equal to whats here and direct it as me as each person as the one group as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself to believe that I have "nothing in common" with someone who would wear a mask all the time - without realising that this is just ego, which always focuses on the differences between people, where as when I stand as this breath in self-honesty, I am able to direct myself to focus on the similarities and mutual ground I have with others. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when a person is afraid to take a mask off, it could just be fear of death the person could be dealing with and while I have for years been stable about the point of death - when I am honest with myself I have feared death many times before in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when I am honest with myself I see how there are moments in life where I have tried to protect myself from things in the world, in exactly the same way many mask wearers do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that many people who wear masks are not doing so because they want to, but purely out of fear of losing money, of being accused of being an abuser by others, which again we have all feared these points before when we look self-honestly at the timeline of our life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise when I'm going into separation in my mind around masks, about "how obvious" it is that they have no benefit - that there was a day that I didn't know what I know now, so why would I react to someone that doesn't know what I do?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others for believing they are a hero for wearing their masks, when equally I experience myself in my mind as a hero for not wearing a mask, when neither is true in physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that defining myself in my mind as a "non mask wearer" is accepting my continual judgement towards those my mind defines as "mask wearers".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as brave for not wearing a mask, when on the surface this is true, yet I realise that real bravery would certainly not be justifying the separation of myself in any form by reacting as blame to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people for not being self-responsible by blindly accepting fear, without realising that whenever I am accepting this process of separation in my mind, then it is me that is also not being self-responsible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that as a self-directive being not willing to allow fear to direct my decision making for a lifetime, that I must always be clear that becoming a self-directive person is a process, so planting seeds is keep so that eventually everyone we come across in life has the potential to become self-directive. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that by separating ourselves from each other, we lack mutual grounds and context of each other as ourselves as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for why freedoms are getting smaller in the world, when really I blame myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for things to project blame on other people, so that I do not have to face my own self-sabotage of blame.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be self-honest whenever I go into blame, because I am saying that some humans are more responsible for whats here then others, when in reality we are all equally responsible for the world as it exists and thus must live as such.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when I blame I cannot see everyone's value as life force which is unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise anytime I am going into sides in my mind, I am not being self-honest, I am not here breathing and therefore cannot apply common sense to walk what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be annoyed that many people accept limitation for all life with a smile on their face, yet when I bring it back to self, that is because secretly my mind desires the careless zombie like existence of the majority in some respects, because it is easy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have an easy life of zombie system compliance where there is no pain but just self-interest, entertainment and letting things outside of myself make decisions for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that what is best for all is best for all, so there is no excuses that are valid to not face myself and live whats best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that because non mask wearers are defined by many as reckless, to then believe in my mind that this "fits me perfectly" because of defining myself as reckless at times through my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself throughout my life growing up as wild and reckless and therefore embracing anything others define as reckless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that "I'm right" to judge mask wearers because Science is on my side, as if Scientific knowledge or any knowledge in this world would be a valid reason to accept separation when it never is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise the logical manipulation of myself where I use my knowledge of viruses, athletics and the respiratory system of the body as a justification to define myself as a "non mask wearer" and judge "mask wearers" as stupid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will "never wear a mask" when in reality this is self-dishonesty, because I know that while I will not wear the mask in most situations, if a conflict/difficulty will erupt as a result of me not wearing a mask in some potential scenarios, then it will be best for all in that situation to wear a mask for a minute. 

I commit myself to not allowing myself to create and fuel sides in my mind around mask wearing - so as and when I see my mind reacting to someone wearing a  mask, I stop and breath, I know the energy and pattern my mind is trying to conjure, so I breathe and continue to do so until there is no more thoughts that come up and I am completely stable around someone wearing a mask.

I commit myself to exposing the pointlessness of creating sides around masks, or sides around anything, because in self-honesty there is only one family as life.

I commit myself to living solutions to fear that exists here, not adding to it.

I commit myself to living the realization that no matter who you are in this world, if I judge another for fearing losing money, fearing being accused as a bad person, fearing death - then I am not being self-honest, because when I am self-honest I have accepted all of these points before in my life, so it will never be acceptable to have reactions when others are afraid.