Day 372: Underestimating the Basics

Amazing isn't it, how those of us in this world that live in dignity, how quickly we become unstable when one of our basics of a dignified life is removed even for a moment.

Why is my blog late today? Well I planned on doing some housework around 4pm, have a shower about 5pm, then start writing at about 5.30ish.

But when i went to have a shower no hot water was coming out of the shower, and when I tried all the tapps in my apartment, no water was even coming out of the hot tapps. I know enough about engineering to know immediately there must be an issue with the boiler, or one of the diverter valves perhaps.

I called some assistance and I was informed the issue has already been logged by some of my neighbours and there is a serious issue that cannot be resolved tonight.

That means I cannot have my usual hot shower or use hot water for washing up for at least a day. Funny how my mind was initially flapping loads lol, getting worried and annoyed by the problem, but then after a few minutes I realised how funny it is that when I get forced to lose something I take for granted, that I miss it so much immediately.

When we get forced to have to walk equal to those living in poverty even on one point our mind goes into chaos for a few minutes, like our world is melting. Mean while I sit here now calm, thanks to breathing and self-forgiveness, because I still have 90% of my basics of dignity, with my electricity, toilet, food, shelter, clothes, car, internet, phones, technology how can I truly complain? Also I trust in my ability to adapt to unfortunate events, to find a way through it has been tested before in my life and I am still here breathing.

When something goes wrong to affect your access to a basic right stay calm, find a solution and adapt until the problem is resolved and the right is returned -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise how much I rely on my basics of a dignified life, until just one of them is taken and It is a horrifying experience like the world is crashing down initially, until I stop here forgive myself and breathe where I can apply common sense to adapt and find a solution.
   
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to initially doubt my ability to adapt to having no hot water even for a few minutes, when in self-honesty I can adapt to problems and find solutions so much quicker when I do not participate with this doubt and stick to breathing where common sense prevails.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being unclean from having no hot water for the day with thoughts like: "How can I go today without a shower? I didn't have one yesterday". When I stay calm as this breathe I see the common sense solutions of using kettles and saucepans to heat cold water and at least allow me wash in a sink until the issue is resolved. Yet I see when I am in separation as fear of being unclean thoughts, this kind of common sense solutions cannot be formulated or acted on effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear infection from having hot water with thoughts like - "Hot water kills bacteria much more effectively then cold water, what if I get infected with something due to no hot water?" when again is a mountain out of a mole hole reaction which is unnecessary, so I continue to breathe here where I adapt and fix the issue asap which is best for all.
  
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that in a world of some much abuse, where so many suffer with no basics of dignity at all, then it is actually supportive for me to at times face the reality myself of what Billions go through everyday, walking with them through the hardships to underline the problem, to push me to find solutions to end a system that allows for even one person to live without something as underestimated by the elite ego as hot water.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing the lack of dignity that exists for all life here on planet earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and feed into a money system that allows for anyone to have to experience anything as barbaric as having no access to hot water in the year 2020.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that when something is taken from me, then there is no level of emotional reaction that will assist me to find a solution therefore it makes no sense exaggerating things in my mind. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise how the ego I have existed as is so busy being attracted to "mind sweets" so to speak, meaning luxuries, money, travel, sex, entertainment, shopping etc, that the importance and respect for the basics I need to live in dignity in the first place is so nonchalantly disregarded until the moment one of these basics is removed.
   
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in every breath that something so seemingly small is not small at all, when I remain here as this breathe truly appreciating every piece of support I am provided in my life, then I see clearly how the basics to live in dignity are always more important then the "mind sweets" in existence. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the greatest skyscraper is nothing without ALL the correct foundations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the statement "taking things for granted" always indicates being stuck in the ego, because it implies not seeing, denying reality here which is what the ego does.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to not allowing myself to take any of the basics to live in dignity for granted as I have seen everytime I lose one even for a day how unstable I experience myself initially, so when I see my mind having thoughts to underestimate my basics, to underestimate what supports me here I stop and breathe, I do not allow my mind to participate with these thoughts, I continue to breathe until there is no more disregarding thoughts of what truly looks after me and all life here which is the right to live in dignity.

I commit myself to stopping all initial reactions that come up as quick as possible when something in my world is removed, so that I can create a solution that's best for all as quick as possible, which will only happen when I am stable here as this breathe where common sense can emerge.

I commit myself to exposing this system we have accepted of taking things for granted by appreciating and embracing my basics everyday, through challenging those that disgreard a basics importance, knowing that these basics that support me, that give me the foundation to grow in my life must be always respected and immediately provided to all life, because all life has the right to live in dignity with me and all of us elites.